QOTW: Reflect on 2014 and tell us three things that happened that you are thankful for.
Me: 32, DH: 33 DS #1: April 2010 DS #2: July 2015 (preemie born at 31 weeks) - our little miracle conceived through ART - unexplained secondary infertility/adenomyosis
Cycle # gazillion status: cd9 of a natural/TI cycle, Genetics appointment for PGS on the 12th, abbreviated orientation 21st, then IVF 1.2 right away or waiting a cycle depending on funds.
Thankful for:
1. The ttc break that allowed me to refocus and realize how amazing my girls are.
2. The income opportunities that are allowing us to give IVF 1.2 a chance.
3. My new RE that isn't afraid to tell it to me straight, and told me SIF does not define me, and NOT having another child will not break me.
I'm sad to realize nothing remotely unrelated to ttc came to mind. So even though a resolution wasn't a part of this, I'm adding that I fucking refuse to let ttc control my life and thinking in 2015 the way it did in 2014.
Edit: I'm mobile and it only posted a portion of what I typed the first time Grrr
Editing again: @sailorgal said to list 3 things that HAPPENED so I tried to answer that literally, and therefore sound like an unthankful beyotch - obvi MH and girls are the most amazing people in my world and I thank the universe (bitch that she can be) everyday for letting them be in my life
Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015.
RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal.
Status: CD 7 of IUI cycle. Monitoring appointment on Monday the 5th. If all looks good, RE wants to trigger that day and do IUI the morning of the 6th.
QOTW: 1. I did some training in September for a program designed to help children with autism. It has helped my own son and pretty much all of my clients and students and I'm grateful that I was able to do that training. The change I've seen in these kids have me the courage to try for treatment with the RE. If we do get another kid on the spectrum, I feel more equipped to handle that than most parents and even other professionals I know.
2. I spent a lot of time with my grandparents this year. They're getting older and I really enjoyed spending time with them.
3. DH and I overhauled our house over the last week. We cleaned out everything and sold, donated, recycled, or repurposed stuff from every room in our house including the attic. We still have a lot of stuff, but much less than we did before and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I can breathe again. DH and I moved into our place 8 years ago today and I am thankful to be starting the new year with a clean slate.
Status: Researching new surgeons for clean-out #2. Hoping to make more headway after this.
QOTW: 1) My kiddo is amazing. She surprises me every day. 2) My job. As crazy as work has been this year leading me to many frustrations, it is secure and allows me to do many of the things I want to without much worry. 3) Having a great, accepting family.
Kid #1 - 09/03/12
Kid #2 - maybe???
Diagnosed with Severe Ashermans Hysteroscopy #10 - scar tissue grew back reblocking my right tube #11 or IVF with scarring still inside? 1 lone embryo from September 2016 retreival, dx with Trisomy 16, starting fresh
QOTW: Reflect on 2014 and tell us three things that happened that you are thankful for.
1) 2nd ectopic almost killed me, and in that time when you seriously think you might fucking DIE being rushed into emergency surgery, I realized nothing in my life means more than being my daughters', Mommy. I am so grateful I am still here for her.
2) Didn't kill my husband! High 5's all around
2) My incredible and amazing potatoes. Lordy Jesus, I know, I know, I say it ALL the time, but you guise are just the bees knees. It wouldn't be a list w/o you all.
FU 2014.
Spontaneous pregnancy #1 DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
732973 Clomid Cycles
2 IUIs
3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016 Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3 Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
CD 20-something. CD 1 should be this weekend and then I can schedule my hysteroscopy.
Thankful for:
1. My son who makes me smile every day
2. My job- I am lucky to have great co-workers and a boss who is super supportive of all this SI stuff and has been so flexible when I have needed time off.
3. My parents- they help me so much with so many things. I am lucky to have them close by.
"From the moment I first saw you, the second that you were born, I knew that you
were the love of my life"
Me: 35, DH: 40
TTC # 2 since 8/13, Dx: unexplained secondary infertility
Clomid cycles 7/14 & 8/14= BFN
IUI # 1 (clomid) 8/27/14= BFN
IUI # 2 (clomid and follistim) 9/25/14= BFN
IUI # 3 (femara and follistim) 10/23/14= BFN
IUI # 4 (femara and follistim) 11/20/14= BFN
12/12/14- saline sono shows two polyps
2/15- two uterine polyps and "schmutz" (RE's words) removed
CD 28. Praying AF arrives in the next day or two so I might have a chance of a Feb FET. I haven't been temping because my children hate me and never sleep so I have no idea when/if I O'd.
Thankful for:
1. My amazing group of neighbors/friends. We originally relocated my family last to be close to my sister and it turned out to be a complete disaster. My neighbors have become the family I thought I was moving here for.
IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!! Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.
FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect
Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele
3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15
Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015
2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized. Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN
CD I don't know--8? On BCPs trying to decide whether to do another IVF next cycle or take a break.
1. DD, obviously. She is amazing.
2. DH. We have a lot of stressors in our lives right now (including IF), and he's dealing with it like a champ. He always somehow says the right thing to cheer me up, etc. We got married kind of late, but I'm so glad I waited for the right person.
3. Hmmm. My parents and sister, I suppose. I, you know, love them.
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Me: 41, DH: 45 DD, 6/15/2013 TTC #2 beginning January 2014 AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11
CD 9 of IVF #2... Repeat u/s this morning to see if cysts played nicely and we can start stim today or if they grew I am fucking benched.
3 things: 1. My husband. Pretty sure none of the most amazing moments of my life would exist without him.
2. My kid. Can't even start gushing about how in the world I made something so fantastic.
3. I didn't drown. 2IF could've ruined me. Two losses. Ruptured ectopic. Failed IVF. But this bitch keeps on swimming. Fuck yeah. I'm pretty proud of that.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope
I'm still on BCPs and started lupron a few days ago hoping to do an FET at the end of the month. Baseline is supposed to be next Tuesday. Hopefully things work out with Jury duty since I was summoned to start that on Monday for a two-week period. If I can't do baseline this week (and possibly if I can't do it on Tuesday), I will be postponed. If I am postponed, that will be indefinite since work will be getting crazy in February for a while and the Neupogen I have left will expire before I could restart and I can't afford to buy more of it right now.
This year has been difficult in so many ways. It is hard to find a lot for which I am thankful at the moment. However, my husband, my daughter and my mom are forever on my thankful list. So, I am thankful for them. As to things that happened in 2014...I'm not so sure!
~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~
Me= 37 and DH = 41
Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)
IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN
IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.
IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132. Lil is here!
Cycle Status: CD 32, 13dpo, 14dpt. Clomid 100mg CD 5-9 and 10,000 Novarel CD 18. Stopped progesterone at 11dpo due to bleeding, BFN this morning but still no AF.
Cycle status: CD1, cycle 10. Waiting for my appt with a acupuncturist on Monday & the RE at the end of February.
1. My boys. I'm in awe every day about how awesome they are, even when they are being terrible 2. My mother- she couldn't be any more amazing. 3. My friends. I couldn't get through things without them.
Status: CD18, waiting for AF and hoping she doesn't wait around until CD50 to show her ugly face.
QOTW: For the most part, 2014 can piss off, but there were some great things to come out of it:
1. I become more and more proud of DD each day. She's a sassy pants at times, but holy crap, she is a smart little bugger. And oh, the things she says. She is constantly making me laugh.
2. Though this whole debacle with IF has truly sucked, I can't help but notice how much closer DH and I are because of everything we've been going through. Thankful for his patience when I'm at my worst... which has been 95% of the last year, it seems.
3. 2014 will always be the (shitty) year we lost our dog to a sudden illness, but we also brought home a new little pup to be a part of the family. While we miss our first dog every single day, the new pup is constantly learning and growing and is such a love bug.
Re: ---2IF Weekly Checkin (Dec 31)---
QOTW:
1. I did some training in September for a program designed to help children with autism. It has helped my own son and pretty much all of my clients and students and I'm grateful that I was able to do that training. The change I've seen in these kids have me the courage to try for treatment with the RE. If we do get another kid on the spectrum, I feel more equipped to handle that than most parents and even other professionals I know.
2. I spent a lot of time with my grandparents this year. They're getting older and I really enjoyed spending time with them.
3. DH and I overhauled our house over the last week. We cleaned out everything and sold, donated, recycled, or repurposed stuff from every room in our house including the attic. We still have a lot of stuff, but much less than we did before and I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I can breathe again. DH and I moved into our place 8 years ago today and I am thankful to be starting the new year with a clean slate.
Status: Hoping January is the month for pre-testing for IVF/ICSI #4.
1. I was hired and am working on two projects for two different companies from home remote and it is helping possibly justify the expense for IVF#4.
2. DH seems to really like his new position and seems happier overall.
3. The little ones seem to like their new preschool.
Kid #1 - 09/03/12
Hysteroscopy #10 - scar tissue grew back reblocking my right tube
#11 or IVF with scarring still inside?
1 lone embryo from September 2016 retreival, dx with Trisomy 16, starting fresh
QOTW: Reflect on 2014 and tell us three things that happened that you are thankful for.
Spontaneous pregnancy #1
DD1 July 31, 2011
Trying for #2 since Oct 11
Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!!
TTC #3 since June 2013
BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
QOTW: Reflect on 2014 and tell us three things that happened that you are thankful for.
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
1. DD, obviously. She is amazing.
2. DH. We have a lot of stressors in our lives right now (including IF), and he's dealing with it like a champ. He always somehow says the right thing to cheer me up, etc. We got married kind of late, but I'm so glad I waited for the right person.
3. Hmmm. My parents and sister, I suppose. I, you know, love them.
Me: 41, DH: 45
DD, 6/15/2013
TTC #2 beginning January 2014
AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11
July 2014: IUI #1. Follistim + Pregnyl. 2 follicles--BFN
September 2014: IUI #2. Follistim + Pregnyl + Ganirelix + Crinone. 4(?) follicles--BFN
October 2014: IUI #3. More Follistim + More Ganirelix + Pregnyl + Crinone. 4 follicles--BFP! Beta #1=10 Beta #2=33 Beta #3=97 Beta #4=158. M/C 11/1/14
December 2014: IVF #1. Microdose Lupron protocol. 9R, 9M, 9F. 3 5-day blasts transferred 12/15. BFFN.
August 2015: IVF #3. 14R, 13M, 11F. Froze 5 blasts for CCS testing. 3 normals. FET planned for 10/2015.
My Ovulation Chart
3 things:
1. My husband. Pretty sure none of the most amazing moments of my life would exist without him.
2. My kid. Can't even start gushing about how in the world I made something so fantastic.
3. I didn't drown. 2IF could've ruined me. Two losses. Ruptured ectopic. Failed IVF. But this bitch keeps on swimming. Fuck yeah. I'm pretty proud of that.
ETA: spelllllling
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
~SAIF/PAIF/Everyone Welcome~
Me= 37 and DH = 41
Dx: DOR, Endo, APA+ (really high beta 2 glycoprotein antibody and high everything else tested), heterozygous MTHFR mutation, positive for lupus anticoagulant, high FSH, low AMH and both tubes blocked (per HSG on 3/8/11)
IVF #1 - long lupron (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 4 retrieved, 3 fertilized; ET 2 blasts and 1 frozen = BFN
IVF #2 - a version of antagonist with EPP (with HGH, intralipids, lovenox and BA); 6 retrieved, 4 mature, 3 fertilized, 2 blasts and 1 frozen blast transferred on day 5 = BFN.
IVF #3 April was postponed to May, May was canceled. June/July was canceled. Had a cyst aspiration and then began IVF #3 in August. ER on 8/22; ET on 8/24 with AH. +HPT on 9/5. Beta #1 (11dpo) = 3; Beta #2 (15dpo) = 29; Beta #3 (17dpo) = 60; Beta #4 (19 dpo) = 118. Heartbeat at 6 weeks 6 days =132. Lil is here!
TTC#2: Trigger + TI = BFN; Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN.
IVF #4: BCP + MDLF + Lovenox = 7R, 1F = Transferred 1 6-cell embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #5: MDLF + Lovenox = 4R, 1F = Transferred 1 10-cell compacting embryo on day 3 = BFN
IVF #6: (New RE): Long Antagonist November 2014 (transferred two 8 cell grade 1 embryos and froze one blast) = BFN
FET#1: BFN
Thankful for:
1. My boys. I'm in awe every day about how awesome they are, even when they are being terrible
2. My mother- she couldn't be any more amazing.
3. My friends. I couldn't get through things without them.
Status: waiting for AF any day now (CD 26). This cycle was kind of a fuck it/NTNP sort of cycle. If that makes sense.
1. My first novel came out and was not a miserable failure
2. We moved into a new house that I love
3. DS turned 3, which is a hilarious and sweet age