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MelWil7004 · January 2015

Hi, my name is Melinda. I'm 36 and currently 12 weeks pregnant. I will probably be lurking here so I thought it only polite to introduce myself. My husband of 10 years and I decided our family was not complete in 2012 and we started trying for our second. The first was as easy as you can imagine. Pregnant the second month and a text book 9 months. The second? Not so much. We tried for just short of two years with no success and just as we were deciding it wasn't meant to be, we got the PPT. It was amazing. That is until we went to our 8 week confirmation sonogram. No heart beat. Our little peanut had stopped growing sometime around 7 weeks. We opted to allow my body to handle things on its own and about three weeks later I miscarried at home. I had had three weeks to grieve so it was actually cathartic when it finally happened. We talked about just not trying again. Then I didn't get my period. I always *knew* I was pregnant long before a missed period. I was just off beefier of the miscarriage. Then two more PPTs. But sometimes a miscarriage can give a false positive. Then a confirmation blood work. Still unresolved. The beautiful sonogram of our wiggly peanut with two arms and two legs helped but i still feel so reserved. I can't seem to shake the feeling that something will go wrong again. Doctor assures me all looks good but every morning when I wake up feeling decent I start to feel guilty. I'm so sorry you ladies all have a similar story. I hope it gets better. Please tell me it gets better.