I think the title about sums it up. My amazingly wonderful BFP has ended. I should be 8 weeks today, am measuring 6 weeks and few days, and one twin has already vanished. It's the most fucked up experience of my life. I'm scheduled for a d&c this week. I'll be riding the bench for a bit and then I'll get back into cycling. Thanks for taking me back.
I am so sorry @ronniesgirl1981! I can't imagine what you have ben through. Please take care of yourself.
TTC #1 January 2009 January 2010 SA results: Count 16 million, Motility 40%, Morphology 2% January 2010- Surprise BFP! DS born 10/1/2010 January 2013 TTC #2 September 2013 Repeat SA: Count= 1.7 million, Motility= 24%, Morphology= 2% November 6th 1st Appointment with RE: diagnosed with severe MFI Testing to try to determine a cause & possible treatment for MFI CD 3 blood work for me. RE does not want to repeat my HSG/lap at this point, but may want to before moving forward with any fertility treatments. After seeing the uro, DH is currently taking lots of supplements and clomid to try to boost his count. We will have a repeat SA in February to see if it works. Follow up SA numbers are: Count= 4 million, Motility= 40%, Morphology= 1% Uro wants us to have another follow up SA 5/9 to see if we see further improvement than we are back to the RE to make a game plan.
SA 5/9/2014 Count: 12 Million, Motility: 60%, and Morphology 2%. We will be doing iui #1 in late June
IUI #1 6/28 clomid + ovidrel, post wash count 3 million total sperm= BFN
IUI # 2 7/21 clomid+ ovidrel. post wash count 900,000 total sperm= BFN
IVF planned for early November- cancelled due to cyst
**Warning: Losses and living child mentioned** BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy. BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you. BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13Myrainbowbaby!
IVF #4 No suppression/Antagonist Nov 2014/Converted to IUI #1 = BFN IVF #4.1 Feb 2015 = cancelled IVF #4.2 April 2015 - Lupron Stop Protocol with ICSI = PGD testing of embryo indicated it was abnormal IVF #5 June 2015 EPP with Antagonist
I'm so so sorry for your losses. Take care of yourself
Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF.
I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).
We are using open ID donor sperm.
IUIs #1-7=BFN.
IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).
DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA
October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos
November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues. Converted to freeze all due to lining issues. 2 blasts frozen on day 6!
January 2015: FET #2 Cancelled due to lining issues
I am so very sorry for your loss! Good luck with the D&C. I found the procedure itself wasn't too bad and, at least for me, it helped start me down the road to closure. Take care of yourself!
*************Siggy Warning. Loss mentioned.************
Me: 36, DH:37
Married 4/2010, TTC since 7/2011
Dx: Officially Unexplained (I have Polycystic Ovaries diagnosed via ultrasound, but few classic PCOS symptoms, he has mild MF issues. So... not issue free, but nothing so severe as to explain IF)
I also deal with post-surgical Hypothyroidism following Thyroid Cancer in 2009, but under control with Levothyroxine
4 months Clomid (thinned lining) and 10 months Letrozole (every indication that I responded perfectly)
6 failed IUIs in 2013, 3 with trigger
IVF #1 in March
2014
ER 3/21/14, 31R/21F,
12 frosties!
ET 3/26/14, 1 perfect blast transferred: BFN
FET#1 5/28/14, 2 "beautiful" early blasts transferred. BFP!!
Beta #1 (6/11/14) 798; Beta #2 (6/18/14) 7,966.
1st u/s (6/25/14) showed 2 sacs, 1 empty & 1 with a beautiful little bean doing what it needs to do!
Me: 40,DH: 48, Married 10/07/2011, TTC since 09/2011, 03/2012 Started Clomid,
04/2012 Clomid, 05/2012
Clomid, 06/2012 Went to RE, he found a plum size fibroid in uterus, husband has
low sperm count,
06/06/2012 Removed fibroid, 08/2012 Hysteroscopy
IVF #1 October 2012 - Retrieved 8 eggs, 5 fertilized, 10/13/2012 Transferred 3
embryos - 8, 5, and 4 cells, the other 2 eggs did
not survive freezing, 10/26/2012 BFP!! Beta: 11, 10/26/12 Beta: 2 = Chemical
Pregnancy
IVF #2 - March 2014 - Mini IVF - Retrieved 5 eggs, 4 fertilized, 4
Frosties - 8, 9, 7, and 7 cells all in good condition.
IVF #3 - May 2014 - Mini IVF - Retrieved 2 eggs, 2 fertilized, 2 Frosties - 6 and 8 in good condition.
FET #1 - September 2014 - Transferred 2 embryos - both 8 cells - BFN
FET#2 - November 2014 - Transferred 2 embryos - BFN
FET#3 - February 2014
I am so terribly sorry. This is so incredibly unfair.
*early loss mentioned*
Me: 34 dx: endo and DOR
DH: 38 dx: normal
Endometrioma removed from left ovary 4/'09
Started TTC Aug. 2012
BFP Jan. '13 - (no heartbeat at 8w appointment) spontaneously MC at 9w
Nov. '13 AMH level 0.98
April '14 IUI w/clomid BFN
May '14 IUI w/clomid BFN
June '14 AMH level 0.5
IVF #1 July '14, 4R/4M/3F 2 8 cells transferred on day 3, nothing made it to freeze, BFN
IVF #2 Nov '14 EPP stimmed for 12 days 9R/4M/4F 2 7 cells transferred on day 3, nothing to freeze, BFN IVF #3 May '15 cancelled after highest possible meds dosages for over two weeks. converted to IUI, BFN DE IVF #1 Dec '15 transferred one BB2 blast, BFP due August 2016
I commented on the Loss board, but I'll say it again here - I'm so terribly sorry. This is just so unfair. Try to be kind to yourself over the next few weeks. (((Hugs)))
Me:35, blocked left tube, RPL, AMA DH: 34, low morph & borderline count
TTC since 8/2012
1st ever BFP 11/4/13 - CP 11/6 @ 4w4d
12/2013: 50 mg Clomid + trigger + IUI TI + progesterone = BFN (all follies on left side)
I'm so sorry. It's a total mindfuck, and having to wait on top of it sucks. If you ever need to talk, pm me. Be kind to yourself and take care of yourself first.
***TTC since June 2011 ***DH to see urologist Feb. 2013 ***BFP #1: Feb. 2nd, 2013; M/C #1: Feb. 12th, 20135w3d ***1st RE appt. April 10th, 2013 ***IUIs #1-4 all failed ***IVF Consult October 7th, 2013 ***IVF #1- January 2014: ER 1/20, ET of 2 embryos 1/23, Beta 2/5 *none to freeze*
***Feb 14th, 2014- M/C #2 @ 5w5d
***RPL Bloodwork---- diagnosed with Factor V Leiden and MTHFR
***appt. w/ Genetic Counselor- April 18th
***hysteroscopy/laparoscopy scheduled for May 22nd- looks good
Re: I'm back (losses mentioned)
TTC #1 January 2009
January 2010 SA results: Count 16 million, Motility 40%, Morphology 2%
January 2010- Surprise BFP! DS born 10/1/2010
January 2013 TTC #2
September 2013 Repeat SA: Count= 1.7 million, Motility= 24%, Morphology= 2%
November 6th 1st Appointment with RE: diagnosed with severe MFI
Testing to try to determine a cause & possible treatment for MFI
CD 3 blood work for me. RE does not want to repeat my HSG/lap at this point,
but may want to before moving forward with any fertility treatments.
After seeing the uro, DH is currently taking lots of supplements and clomid to try to boost his count. We will have a repeat SA in February to see if it works.
Follow up SA numbers are: Count= 4 million, Motility= 40%, Morphology= 1%
Uro wants us to have another follow up SA 5/9 to see if we see further improvement than we are back to the RE to make a game plan.
SA 5/9/2014 Count: 12 Million, Motility: 60%, and Morphology 2%. We will be doing iui #1 in late June
IUI #1 6/28 clomid + ovidrel, post wash count 3 million total sperm= BFN
IUI # 2 7/21 clomid+ ovidrel. post wash count 900,000 total sperm= BFN
IVF planned for early November- cancelled due to cyst
December IVF #1- 22 eggs, 20 mature,16 fertilized
12/9 Transferred 1 4AA Blast, 6 frosties
*****Everyone is welcome******
BFP#1 1/31/12, EDD 10/6/12 Harrison Gray born sleeping @ 18w6d. You changed our lives little guy.
BFP#2 EDD 10/29/13, C/P 2/25/13, Bye little Ish, we barely got to know you.
BFP#3 EDD 12/21/13, Baby Boots born 11/23/13 My rainbow baby!
January PAL Siggy Challenge: Good Advice
***************************Loss Mentioned***************************
Me 37 y/o, DH 45 y/o; DH vasectomy reversal (his 2nd marriage) 11/8/12; TTC since 12/8/12. IVF due to MFI. DOR diagnosis April 2015.
IVF #1 BCPs/Antagonist w/ICSI Jan 2014 = BFN
IVF #2 MDL w/PICSI March 2014 = BFN
IVF #3 EPP/Antagonist w/PICSI May/June 2014 = BFP!; MMC 6w4d
IVF #4 No suppression/Antagonist Nov 2014/Converted to IUI #1 = BFNIVF #4.1 Feb 2015 = cancelled
IVF #4.2 April 2015 - Lupron Stop Protocol with ICSI = PGD testing of embryo indicated it was abnormal
IVF #5 June 2015 EPP with Antagonist
Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).
We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).
I hate this post so much.
I am so sorry for your losses. ((hugs))
TTC #1 since August 2011
My Blog
September 2012: Start IF testing
DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA
October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos
November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues. Converted to freeze all due to lining issues. 2 blasts frozen on day 6!
January 2015: FET #2 Cancelled due to lining issues
April 2015: FET #2.1
PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
*************Siggy Warning. Loss mentioned.************
Me: 36, DH:37
Married 4/2010, TTC since 7/2011
Dx: Officially Unexplained (I have Polycystic Ovaries diagnosed via ultrasound, but few classic PCOS symptoms, he has mild MF issues. So... not issue free, but nothing so severe as to explain IF)
I also deal with post-surgical Hypothyroidism following Thyroid Cancer in 2009, but under control with Levothyroxine
4 months Clomid (thinned lining) and 10 months Letrozole (every indication that I responded perfectly)
6 failed IUIs in 2013, 3 with trigger
IVF #1 in March 2014
ER 3/21/14, 31R/21F, 12 frosties!
ET 3/26/14, 1 perfect blast transferred: BFN
FET#1 5/28/14, 2 "beautiful" early blasts transferred. BFP!!
Beta #1 (6/11/14) 798; Beta #2 (6/18/14) 7,966.
1st u/s (6/25/14) showed 2 sacs, 1 empty & 1 with a beautiful little bean doing what it needs to do!
EDD 2/14/15, missed miscarriage, DX: Trisomy 21. D&C 8/1/14
FET#2 Transferred 3 embies, 2 looking pretty good, one not so much. BFN.
IVF#2 January 2015, tentative ER 1/23
Me: 41, DH: 45
DD, 6/15/2013
TTC #2 beginning January 2014
AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11
July 2014: IUI #1. Follistim + Pregnyl. 2 follicles--BFN
September 2014: IUI #2. Follistim + Pregnyl + Ganirelix + Crinone. 4(?) follicles--BFN
October 2014: IUI #3. More Follistim + More Ganirelix + Pregnyl + Crinone. 4 follicles--BFP! Beta #1=10 Beta #2=33 Beta #3=97 Beta #4=158. M/C 11/1/14
December 2014: IVF #1. Microdose Lupron protocol. 9R, 9M, 9F. 3 5-day blasts transferred 12/15. BFFN.
August 2015: IVF #3. 14R, 13M, 11F. Froze 5 blasts for CCS testing. 3 normals. FET planned for 10/2015.
My Ovulation Chart
My TTC Story:
Me: 40,DH: 48, Married 10/07/2011, TTC since 09/2011, 03/2012 Started Clomid, 04/2012 Clomid, 05/2012 Clomid, 06/2012 Went to RE, he found a plum size fibroid in uterus, husband has low sperm count, 06/06/2012 Removed fibroid, 08/2012 Hysteroscopy
IVF #1 October 2012 - Retrieved 8 eggs, 5 fertilized, 10/13/2012 Transferred 3 embryos - 8, 5, and 4 cells, the other 2 eggs did not survive freezing, 10/26/2012 BFP!! Beta: 11, 10/26/12 Beta: 2 = Chemical Pregnancy
IVF #2 - March 2014 - Mini IVF - Retrieved 5 eggs, 4 fertilized, 4 Frosties - 8, 9, 7, and 7 cells all in good condition.
IVF #3 - May 2014 - Mini IVF - Retrieved 2 eggs, 2 fertilized, 2 Frosties - 6 and 8 in good condition.
FET #1 - September 2014 - Transferred 2 embryos - both 8 cells - BFN
FET#2 - November 2014 - Transferred 2 embryos - BFN
FET#3 - February 2014
*PAIF/SAIF Welcome*
IVF #3 May '15 cancelled after highest possible meds dosages for over two weeks. converted to IUI, BFN
DE IVF #1 Dec '15 transferred one BB2 blast, BFP due August 2016
***SIGGY WARNING***
Our Story
Me- 35, mild hypothyroidism
DH- 29, low count due to a chromosomal abnormality, only option is IVF/ICSI with PGD.
Married 5/13
TTC since 8/13
IVF/ICSI #1 ER 9/14 - 14R, 6M, 6F, 5 blasts off to PGD- 1 normal female, 2 balanced males
FET 12/8 of 2 frosties - 1 male/1 female - stick babies stick!
Beta #1 10dp5dt 444! Beta #2 14dp5dt 2,340! U/S 1/5-- TWINS!!! EDD 8/26/15
"You'll never see the rainbow if you can't survive the storm"
me: 39 DH: 36 dx: unexplained (ugh)
ME - 31, DX with dual hydrosalpinx (2012) , confirmed again in 2014, starting IVF 1st Cycle Dec 2014
Bloodwork done 8/8/2014 LH - 2.8, FSH 6.1
DH - 31, testing scheduled for 8/22/2014, 60-70% motility, no problems found
All Welcome
***Losses mentioned***
***TTC since June 2011
***DH to see urologist Feb. 2013
***BFP #1: Feb. 2nd, 2013; M/C #1: Feb. 12th, 2013 5w3d
***1st RE appt. April 10th, 2013
***IUIs #1-4 all failed
***IVF Consult October 7th, 2013
***IVF #1- January 2014: ER 1/20, ET of 2 embryos 1/23, Beta 2/5 *none to freeze*
***Feb 14th, 2014- M/C #2 @ 5w5d
***RPL Bloodwork---- diagnosed with Factor V Leiden and MTHFR
***appt. w/ Genetic Counselor- April 18th
***hysteroscopy/laparoscopy scheduled for May 22nd- looks good
***IVF #2- July 2014
***7/26 Retrieval- 3 eggs , 2 fertilized , none to freeze
***7/28 ET- 2dt of 2 embryos, stick little embies!!!
***8/11 beta- BFN
***WTF- DE IVF best option now
***DE IVF- January 2015
Missing my 5 angels