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TTC After a Loss
nikiswimr
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Sorry I need an AW moment (**possible trigger warning**)
nikiswimr
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So I've been kind of going along since my loss, but I'm approaching the two year mark of TTC (1/2015 will be 24 months for us), and my first IUI was just a failure, so I'm feeling a little fragile at the moment.
We had Christmas with MHs family today and his cousin (who is 6 years younger than me) announced her pregnancy (one month after I was supposed to be due). Now the family is in raptures about the first grandchild, but even though my baby is no more, he/she was truly the first grandchild.
Just a rough day all around. I kind of need some virtual hugs today. I've been secretly crying in the bathroom.
We had Christmas with MHs family today and his cousin (who is 6 years younger than me) announced her pregnancy (one month after I was supposed to be due). Now the family is in raptures about the first grandchild, but even though my baby is no more, he/she was truly the first grandchild.
Just a rough day all around. I kind of need some virtual hugs today. I've been secretly crying in the bathroom.
Me: 32 DH: 32
Met: 4/25/2004, Married 8/14/2010
Off BC 1/2013
TTC (actively) since 5/2013
5/2014 started testing with RE, me: HSG normal, normal AMH, no cysts; DH: great sperm
Unexplained IF + unexplained anovulation (post-pill vs hypothalamic)
7/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFN
8/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFP #1: 9/12/2014, EDD 5/22/2015, MMC 10/11/2014 8w1d
11/2014 Clomid + Novarel + IUI 12/5/14: BFFN
12/2014 Comid + Novarel + IUI 1/3/15: ???
**PgAL/PAL welcome**
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Re: Sorry I need an AW moment (**possible trigger warning**)
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
And please don't feel like you should apologize for needing a little TLC from us. You have every right to ask for support.
My Ovulation Chart
Me: 31 DH: 36
Dated Since ‘02, Married in ‘06
BFP#1 05/16/06, EDD01/16/07, MC 06/12/06 at 8 weeks
BFP #2 08/14/14, EDD 04/22/15, MC 09/17/14 at 9 weeks
My Chart
W born September 2020
#3 due November 2022
~TTC #1 Since 3/2014
~BFP #1 6/2014 EDD 2/11/15
~MMC 7/31/14 @12weeks ~D&C /2/2014
@negritosmami that's good perspective and yes, it does suck.
Married: 9/25/10
TTC # 1 since 5/2013
BFP # 1: 2/7/14, mmc 3/12/14, D&C 3/19/14
Boy, Trisomy 13, Karyotyping and Genetic Testing all normal
Hysteroscopy and D&C 6/2/14, retained tissue
Off the bench 7/14
BFP # 2: 10/3/14, Blighted ovum, D&C 11/12/14
Girl, no chromosomal abnormalities detected
RPL Testing: Pre-diabetic, ANA+
"I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it." - e.e. cummings
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN