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♡♡AMA Check-in 12/22♡♡

Hello everyone,

This check-in is for Monday, December 22nd, 2014. I am sorry about the lack of personal messages this week I am on day 7 of a 9 day work week and my mind is fried. I hope this week is enjoyable for everyone. 
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This is a check-in designed for us that are AMA (35+) and dealing with that added challenge in our TTCAL journeys. This check in occurs every second and fourth Monday of the month. Please feel free to share your insights, vents, thoughts, and anything else. Mostly this check-in is to remind all of us that we are not alone and to offer support to each other.  New members: Post an introduction and your current TTC status and I will add you to the list! Welcome  Current members: Post your updates, link to your chart, upcoming appointments, and if you get a BFP, please PM me! If you get a BFP and do not PM me,  I will not post your BFP in the check-in.
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Please provide an update on how you are and what’s going in your life. 

QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year?

To anyone who missed last week’s check-in: how are you? 


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Hugs for everyone.

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Re: ♡♡AMA Check-in 12/22♡♡

  • edited December 2014
    Happy Holidays everyone!!! And I really do hope they are good. With the world being in turmoil, I just hug my loved ones closer and am focusing on what I do have instead of what I don't.

    I've had big updates, in a way. My endometrial biopsy shows that I have a progesterone deficiency. The doc thinks that that is why I lost my 1 otherwise normal pregnancy. Have a follow up with him in mid-January. This month we are holding off on TTC. I'll miss next cycle too. I was supposed to be building up my spiritual energy these last two months to get ready for a hormonal cycle, which I had one bad experience with and has caused much fear. But I have no other choice but to pursue it.

    I have also been having really weird health issues which is triggering my PTSD from my last rare, awful, weird brain condition. I have no idea how such a health person can be so unhealthy. So I am spending half my week in doc appts, not to mention the money and severe stress. Again, trying to be positive and not looking forward to the 10-hour drive to my parents house.

    So that is my good and bad news. Many blessings for the season and keep the faith. Hope you all are and will do well.
    *****Losses Mentioned*****BFP MENTIONED*****ALL WELCOME******ALL ABOARD!!

    Me: 42, DH: 46, Married: 11/12
    Losses: MMC#1 11/12 BO, MC#2 11/13 at 8w BO?, MMC#3 8/14 chromo healthy M @12 weeks, stopped growing at 10.
    Negligible AMH, FSH finally went high. Pursued DE.

    DD born at 38w2d on 5-27-16. Finally!!

    Pregnant again with OE. EDD 11/9/17 Girl!




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  • Hey @Rubysi, thanks for the check in  :x

    Hugs to all the AMA ladies! 

    @Furrypaws, I have everything crossed for you this cycle! >:D<

    @peregrinefalconx so many hugs you to you, lady. I am so sorry for your PTSD situation. I hope your mid-January appointment goes well and you can move onto TTC soon <3 

    AFM: I was REALLY hoping to have an update this time around, at least with some sort of plan from my RE appointment on the 17th. Most may have seen that the appointment was a big cluster and it wasn't even with an RE but a high risk pregnancy Dr. RAGE! My OB swears that's their normal process and if so, I am not sure I want to go back. 

    I have my RE appointment now on Jan 21st so another month wait, after the recent 2 month wait for the one on the 17th. 

    This leads me to the conversation I had with MH on our 13 hour road trip Friday night. I asked him what he REALLY wants and thinks. Come to find out he's a bit frustrated that our lives have been on hold during the TTC journey, and I completely understand that. He also said that he was petrified during my April MC and he's scared of losing me if I do get pregnant and something bad happens. I talked about possibilities of what may happen depending on the testing results and he admitted he is not willing to keep going if we will need to do certain things. 

    I had some anxiety about the end of the road but it hit me a bit harder after our talk. I honestly am not sure wtf I think right now. 

    QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year?
    I kind of gave up on that because I found that every year I had the same ones..which means I wasn't really successful the year before. lol It's just too easy to forget about these things a couple of months into the year. 

    There are things I have in the back of my mind that I would like to do/accomplish. 

    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • Please provide an update on how you are and what’s going in your life. Not a whole lot to update. We are TTC, but putting it on the back burner a bit. It's not exactly NTNP, because I use a fertility monitor, but we are going to just have sex when we feel like it (wow, what a concept) and try not to obsess about FW. We'll see how this goes. I'm just trying to reclaim some healthy head space. I'm going to acupuncture again, too. It really helps me relax. 

    QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year? Last year my resolution was to have a healthy baby. Well, we all know how that turned out... I think I'll skip the resolution this year. 



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    DX: I'm a Recurrent Loser
    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • Hi @rubysi‌, thanks for the check in! I hope you are doing well this week.

    AFM: I am feeling much better than I thought I would be at this point. I took some Motrin before bed last night and that is all I have had in 24 hours. The biggest challenge is that I get worn out easily. I am on the bench until mid-March, but hopefully the time will go quickly.

    QOTW: I really don't make resolutions. I think you set yourself up for failure by tackling it once a year. If you want to change something just do it.

    @peregrinefalconx‌ ((Hugs)) Lady.
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

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    About Me: 

    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • Hi @rubysi!  I'm off this week, but trying to spend less time on the PC and more time on my house, so I apologize for the lack of personal messages!

    I'm on CD6 of a new cycle.  Just hanging out and Oing around New Years.  Nothing much new. 

    Many, many ((((HUGS)))) ladies!  I know this is going to be a tough week for all of us and please know that I'm keeping you all in my thoughts.


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     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

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  • furrypaws said:

    Hey hun! :-h  Thanks for the ckin... @rubysi

    I guess I'm in the 2ww. This cycle has been all over the place w/ potential O dates. I got dotted cross hairs this am. So who knows. I don't know how to feel right now. I think I'm just kind of blank.

    I know this time of year is shitty for many of us. I just hope we can all get through it. But I know I will...because I have you ladies. :):heart:

    All my hugs and loves to you all!

    I looked at your chart with the full intention of giving some insight and realized I am completely brain dead. I offer great big hugs instead.

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  • Happy Holidays everyone!!! And I really do hope they are good. With the world being in turmoil, I just hug my loved ones closer and am focusing on what I do have instead of what I don't.

    I've had big updates, in a way. My endometrial biopsy shows that I have a progesterone deficiency. The doc thinks that that is why I lost my 1 otherwise normal pregnancy. Have a follow up with him in mid-January. This month we are holding off on TTC. I'll miss next cycle too. I was supposed to be building up my spiritual energy these last two months to get ready for a hormonal cycle, which I had one bad experience with and has caused much fear. But I have no other choice but to pursue it.

    I have also been having really weird health issues which is triggering my PTSD from my last rare, awful, weird brain condition. I have no idea how such a health person can be so unhealthy. So I am spending half my week in doc appts, not to mention the money and severe stress. Again, trying to be positive and not looking forward to the 10-hour drive to my parents house.

    So that is my good and bad news. Many blessings for the season and keep the faith. Hope you all are and will do well.
    It is nice to get some answers. Many hugs and happy holidays. Be safe on your long drive.

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  • Nikolie93 said:
    Hey @Rubysi, thanks for the check in  :x

    Hugs to all the AMA ladies! 

    @Furrypaws, I have everything crossed for you this cycle! >:D<

    @peregrinefalconx so many hugs you to you, lady. I am so sorry for your PTSD situation. I hope your mid-January appointment goes well and you can move onto TTC soon <3 

    AFM: I was REALLY hoping to have an update this time around, at least with some sort of plan from my RE appointment on the 17th. Most may have seen that the appointment was a big cluster and it wasn't even with an RE but a high risk pregnancy Dr. RAGE! My OB swears that's their normal process and if so, I am not sure I want to go back. 

    I have my RE appointment now on Jan 21st so another month wait, after the recent 2 month wait for the one on the 17th. 

    This leads me to the conversation I had with MH on our 13 hour road trip Friday night. I asked him what he REALLY wants and thinks. Come to find out he's a bit frustrated that our lives have been on hold during the TTC journey, and I completely understand that. He also said that he was petrified during my April MC and he's scared of losing me if I do get pregnant and something bad happens. I talked about possibilities of what may happen depending on the testing results and he admitted he is not willing to keep going if we will need to do certain things. 

    I had some anxiety about the end of the road but it hit me a bit harder after our talk. I honestly am not sure wtf I think right now. 

    QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year?
    I kind of gave up on that because I found that every year I had the same ones..which means I wasn't really successful the year before. lol It's just too easy to forget about these things a couple of months into the year. 

    There are things I have in the back of my mind that I would like to do/accomplish. 

    I am sorry the conversation was frustrating but it is important to know what they are thinking. I think it is wonderful he worries about you. Good luck with the RE.  Get the tests and then you will have a plan. Hugs.

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  • Please provide an update on how you are and what’s going in your life. Not a whole lot to update. We are TTC, but putting it on the back burner a bit. It's not exactly NTNP, because I use a fertility monitor, but we are going to just have sex when we feel like it (wow, what a concept) and try not to obsess about FW. We'll see how this goes. I'm just trying to reclaim some healthy head space. I'm going to acupuncture again, too. It really helps me relax. 

    QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year? Last year my resolution was to have a healthy baby. Well, we all know how that turned out... I think I'll skip the resolution this year. 



    I like your plan of sex when you want to. A healthy head space would be good for all of us. Hugs.

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  • Hey lady, thanks for the check-in and I hope you get to rest soon! I know retail must be so stressful this time of year. Not much new here. I haven't been temping, but OPKs suggest an earlier O this cycle - thank goodness we've been able to HIO at home and won't feel compelled to at the ILs. Heading there tomorrow evening. Not sure how I will get through the next few days without drinking heavily. I know this sounds so "bah humbug" but I'll be happy when this week is over. QOTW: I usually come up with a some loose resolutions but make little headway on them. Lame.
    I hit the bah humbug stage a week before Thanksgiving.  Good news on the early o. Enjoy those drinks and it will be over before you know it.

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  • Hi @rubysi‌, thanks for the check in! I hope you are doing well this week.

    AFM: I am feeling much better than I thought I would be at this point. I took some Motrin before bed last night and that is all I have had in 24 hours. The biggest challenge is that I get worn out easily. I am on the bench until mid-March, but hopefully the time will go quickly.

    QOTW: I really don't make resolutions. I think you set yourself up for failure by tackling it once a year. If you want to change something just do it.

    @peregrinefalconx‌ ((Hugs)) Lady.
    I glad you are doing better. Take it easy enjoy the holidays and hugs.

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  • rmpar29 said:
    Hi @rubysi!  I'm off this week, but trying to spend less time on the PC and more time on my house, so I apologize for the lack of personal messages!

    I'm on CD6 of a new cycle.  Just hanging out and Oing around New Years.  Nothing much new. 

    Many, many ((((HUGS)))) ladies!  I know this is going to be a tough week for all of us and please know that I'm keeping you all in my thoughts.


    >:D< >:D< >:D< >:D< >:D< >:D< >:D<
    Good luck with the house...hugs

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  • My update...very, very, tired. I have worked 63 hrs over the past 7 days and have 18 more hours to go. I had an employee quit with no notice and cannot wait until this week is over. I will be hiding the 4 days after Christmas. Snuggles with the dh. 

    QOTW :  I gave up on resolutions when I realized they were essentially lies I told to myself. 

    I am so sorry if I failed to make sense today. Hugs I love you all. Happy Holidays. 

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  • Awee I hope the 18 hours goes quickly *hug*
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • rubysi said:
    My update...very, very, tired. I have worked 63 hrs over the past 7 days and have 18 more hours to go. I had an employee quit with no notice and cannot wait until this week is over. I will be hiding the 4 days after Christmas. Snuggles with the dh. 

    QOTW :  I gave up on resolutions when I realized they were essentially lies I told to myself. 

    I am so sorry if I failed to make sense today. Hugs I love you all. Happy Holidays. 

    Good Lord! Get some rest, Ruby! I hope the next 18 hours go by quickly and relatively painlessly.
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

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    About Me: 

    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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    My Ovulation Chart
  • Thanks for checking in , @rubysi! I hope you make it okay through the next 28 hours--that sounds crazy! I'm typing this while locked in the bathroom...my family arrived a week ago, and I won't have access to my computer since my brothers are sleeping in the home office. It's been nice to have them all around, but I can tell my mom is watching me for signs that I am "really okay," and that irritates me even though it shouldn't--she just means well. I don't feel like talking "about it" at all--I just want to "work through" any moments of sadness by myself, if that makes sense. Looking forward to DH starting his xmas break. I know I have not been active at all, but I've been thinking lots about you lovely ladies. Hope you are staying sane through the season, and that you'll have happy and joyful moments. No more resolutions for me! I never keep them...

    Thinking about you @VesperLynch‌. I hope you survive the holidays and families intact :)
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

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    About Me: 

    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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    My Ovulation Chart
  • ((HUGS)) to everyone! I have been at my ILs for two days now and am going crazy. They are very nice just set in their ways and avid drinkers. I am still waiting to get my blood test so me not drinking is a major concern in this house. MH has started passing off e.Pty beer bottles to me so it looks like I drank.

    Q: I honestly always forget the resolution I made within a month.
  • @rubysi

    Thanks! and everyone have a lovely holiday as well!  Oh, I've had the same resolution my whole life pretty much: to floss more often. And it's never happened!
    *****Losses Mentioned*****BFP MENTIONED*****ALL WELCOME******ALL ABOARD!!

    Me: 42, DH: 46, Married: 11/12
    Losses: MMC#1 11/12 BO, MC#2 11/13 at 8w BO?, MMC#3 8/14 chromo healthy M @12 weeks, stopped growing at 10.
    Negligible AMH, FSH finally went high. Pursued DE.

    DD born at 38w2d on 5-27-16. Finally!!

    Pregnant again with OE. EDD 11/9/17 Girl!




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  • rubysirubysi member
    edited December 2014
    Thanks for checking in , @rubysi! I hope you make it okay through the next 28 hours--that sounds crazy! I'm typing this while locked in the bathroom...my family arrived a week ago, and I won't have access to my computer since my brothers are sleeping in the home office. It's been nice to have them all around, but I can tell my mom is watching me for signs that I am "really okay," and that irritates me even though it shouldn't--she just means well. I don't feel like talking "about it" at all--I just want to "work through" any moments of sadness by myself, if that makes sense. Looking forward to DH starting his xmas break. I know I have not been active at all, but I've been thinking lots about you lovely ladies. Hope you are staying sane through the season, and that you'll have happy and joyful moments. No more resolutions for me! I never keep them...
    Your mom is doing it because she cares. Enjoy your family time it will be over soon. Hugs

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  • ((HUGS)) to everyone! I have been at my ILs for two days now and am going crazy. They are very nice just set in their ways and avid drinkers. I am still waiting to get my blood test so me not drinking is a major concern in this house. MH has started passing off e.Pty beer bottles to me so it looks like I drank. Q: I honestly always forget the resolution I made within a month.
    Hugs, just a couple more days. Happy Holidays. 

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  • *hugs* @VesperLynch Hopefully things will calm down a bit for you. 

    @yellowcat10, I have been at my IL's since Friday and I have 11 days to go  :-SS I have the opposite problem though, they are not avid drinkers so I look like a lush...because I am going to drink ALL the alcohol!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • medic7979 said:
    ((HUGS)) to all the ladies who need them.  

    Not too much new here.  11 DPO and waiting to test until Christmas. Probably a bad idea, I know, but a BFP would be the best gift ever.  I've been having some light cramping the last 2 days so I'm actually not all that hopeful to be honest. 

    Finished up all the shopping and almost all the wrapping.  We aren't hosting so there isn't much I have to do so that's nice.  Short and sweet this update will be, I'm hungry and DH and I are craving white castles!!  YUM!  Off to get our sliders.  =) 

    QOTW : Do you make resolution (s) at the new year?  Not usually. 


    FX you get your Christmas gift ;)

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