*stab stab*
But only because she was a total cunt. Not at all for any other reason. I knew it was totally and completely over between BD and I, but she was just the worst kind of person. I don't know if I told you guys that I found out she was arrested for assaulting BD, but she's currently in jail.
Anyway, last year for Christmas at BF's house, his parents spent well over $400 for DD and me.
I can NOT think of anyone I know who can put that kind of money into gift giving. Not my parents, not my extended family, none of my friends. His parents cash flow intimidates me and freaks me out. They took us to dinner Thanksgiving (even though our plan was to bring them dinner) and they dropped $200 on a meal without a second thought. All I have for cash, I spent on chocolates (BOGO at Jewel) and some wine to go with them because the wine was on sale. Like, that is their gift. I'm terrified. Also, we're going to go to BF's aunt's house for Christmas Eve and I'm just not at all prepared. I guess I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, and have been since November. So it's like either just try to relax or fucking drop the shoe!
I can't relax though! Christmas is so hard to deal with because for about 7 years (last year not included), Christmas was ruined for me. I'm not used to good things happening and I am definitely not really a gift receiver/giver. I don't like gifts, I feel weird about getting them, I feel like I just don't know how to shop for others... I worry about passing that on to DD...
And I totally get this is the stupidest thing to be concerned about and I'm probably WAY WAY overreacting but damn... I just can't relax. Also, I took off 12/29, 12/30, and 12/31 and my office is closed 12/25, 12/26, 1/1, and 1/2 so I have an end of the year staycation coming up.
^^ new fave gif
What is going on with everyone?! Also, tips to help me back down to Earth from all this Christmas business would be great.
Re: Thursday!
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...with a side dose of...
Throwing leaves
Throwing leaves
This has been a rough week and im ready for it to be over. Im just exhausted. Can i be done being an adult now.
BFP: 07/14/2014, EDD: 03/04/2015