I'm posting from mobile for the first time so please excuse any formatting issues. I have not posted in a really long while for many reasons, but I'm feeling really desperate and hopeless right now.
A little background:
DS 2 was diagnosed with ASD back in February when he was twenty months old. When he was first diagnosed I guess I convinced myself that it wasn't that bad and he would eventually be fine. The professionals all told me that he was a mild case and with therapy had a real chance of going to regular kindergarten.
Well, he's now two and a half and still not talking. That wouldn't worry me as much if his receptive language was decent, but it's not. He understands very, very little spoken language. I'm downright terrified that he will never get better. Terrified.
He does have some skills. For example, he can do puzzles, match colors, sort shapes, eat at the table with utensils, etc. He is also very social. He loves playing with his three year old sister, he loves playing chase with the boys at the park, he is very attached to me and the rest of the family, gives hugs and kisses, etc. None of these things are done on command though because if you tell him to do anything he does not understand, even if he's paying careful attention. It's scary how little of language he understands.
I'm just really scared and losing hope of a somewhat "normal" life for him. I'm scared about what will happen to him when I die. Who will take care of him? Will he end up in an institution? Someone please tell me there's still hope. That things will get better.
Sorry for the long post from a stranger, but I really need to feel like I'm not alone and that it's not hopeless for my beautiful baby boy
DD born 6.13.11 at 37w5d
DS born 5.23.12 at 36w5d
BFP 6.9.13|heartbeat of 128bpm 7weeks|7.23.13 ultrasound revealed no heartbeat|natural m/c and d&c 7.25.13
DS born 5.20.14 at 38 weeks
All are welcome