I don't usually post on this board but I have a question that clients of midwives/midwives/doulas may be able to help me with and I'm guessing this board has lots of you
I'm pregnant with my second. I EBF by first for 9 months. Both pregnancies, I have the same midwife who is very pro-EBF. For numerous personal reasons including work, mental health and desire I don't want to breastfeed this time. My plan right now is to breastfeed immediately after the birth and for the first few feeds so that baby gets colostrum and to send baby to the hospital nursery overnight during our hospital stay where I will direct the nurses to feed baby with fomula with a Haberman bottle. I plan on dropping feeds as either supply doesn't meet the need or baby doesn't latch (although from what I read, using Haberman bottles should help baby make the switch back and fourth) until baby is FF; reason for this is because I think some breastmilk is better than none and to I'd rather do it gradually to help with engorgement. If baby's latch and my supply allow for it, it would be nice if baby had a morning feed as his only feed until the milk dries up, however long that takes.
Anyway my thing is, I'm very anxious about letting my midwife know about wanting to do formula. The feeding plan I have above is thought out and researched. I'm certainly not against BF, but I don't want to EBF at all.
Any tips on discussing the issue with my midwife? I'm worried she'll judge, try to convince me otherwise, be unsupportive...as I said, I know the benefits of breastfeeding but they don't outweigh my desire to FF this time around.