On dec 9 last year we learned that the heart had stopped beating on our first Fetey. It was supposed to be a 12 week ultrasound and the baby measured 8 weeks. They gave me two rounds of cytotec which didn't work till late at night on the 11th.
I thought i was gonna make it through okay. Last night around 11 as i walked out of the restroom where it happened one year ago i just burst into tears. My hubby rushed to me and just held me. Then he got out these paper lantern candle things he made a few weeks back and lit the candles and held me on the love seat while I cried. Then he promised we could do this lantern thing every year as a family holiday to remember Fetey. We talked of all the sad things from the year then all the happy things then all the things we learned over the year. We stayed that way for well over an hour.
I feel conflicted today. Happy to feel lots of kicks from peep-fetey 2, but feeling so sad over my first. Just wanted to share with someone who may understand.
-Megan
Started dating Hubby May 17 2005. Married since Aug 20 2011
Me:30 Hubby:31
TTC since May 2012
HSG Dec 2012 Fill no spill on left side, right side normal (most physically painful experience of my life..)
Metformin Started May 2013
PG#1: BFP 10-21-13. EDD 6-17-14 mmc 12-9-13 m/c occurred with cytotec on 12-11-13
PG#2: BFP 07-25-14. EDD 4-5-15 *Hoping this is my rainbow*
Diagnosed with PCOS, Hypothyroid,IBD/UC, (UC in remission as of July 2014)
*I will always love you Fetey the first.*
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Re: One year ago. Loss mentioned.
***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage.
BFP #1 12/23/13 MMC 01/24/14 @ 9w5days
BFP 6/29/2013 - EDD 3/16/14 - MMC 9/5/2013
April 2014 - - 1st ICI Cycle - BFP 5/15/14 EDD: 1/20/15
A/S 8-22-14 - Its a BOY!!
12/15 Checkup & heard his beautiful heartbeat
ALL WELCOME -
BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15
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BFP# 1 7/7/12 Beautiful DD born still at 36 weeks 5 days on 3/2/13
Diagnosed with PCOS in 2005. Started Metformin July 2013
Please be our rainbow!!
**All AL Welcome**
BFP #2: m/c at 7w, February, 2014
BFP #3: It's a BOY! Please be our rainbow! Due February, 2015
*everyone always welcome*
Married August 2003
My Ovulation Chart
Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
Me: 28
DH: 34
IUD out 8/29/13 and TTC since then.
BFP 12/29/13
Bleeding 1/17/14 with LO showing 10 days smaller.
NMC 1/26/14
Continued trying every month. Began seeing RE 7/2014.
12/2/14 got first Rx for Clomid for following cycle.
12/3/14 BFP!!!
No heartbeat at 8w4d. D&C scheduled for Jan 7, 14
TTC #1 since January 2013
BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013
BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014
BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!
Me 36 DH 39
BFP 11/28/14 ~ MMC 12/29/14
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