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OPP Tuesday *babies, pg, kids mentioned*

OPPs are why I'm happy my uncle is the only family I will see this holiday seasons because he doesn't have and never wanted kids. It's a nice break.
Love 2010 | Marriage 2011 | TTC #1 since 2012
PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole

Re: OPP Tuesday *babies, pg, kids mentioned*

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  • Hugs to everyone who needs them. I am mobile so tagging is hard.  

    My OPP is that we got a baby shower invite for my SIL. It is my brother's wife and my brother is like the biggest jerk every without even trying. He knew we were trying for a few months before they started and they got KU the first month. Whatever, someone has to be the 20% right, but he states in a casual way, "maybe we were just more ready then you." Cue hatred of everything to do with seeing the pregnancy progress now (it doesn't help that I have never liked her anyways and wish  they would not have gotten married). I don't wish ill-well or anything, I just don't wish to see anything about it. I live out of state so at least I won't be expected to go.  
    Me: 30   DH:31 
    Married 9/2010
    TTC 10/2013
    RE Help from 10/2014-10/2016 (11 failed IUIs, a corrective surgery, and a donor embryo cycle)
    9/2016-transferred two donor embies
    BFP 9/29/26 EDD June 11
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  • Hugs to everyone who needs them. I am mobile so tagging is hard.  

    My OPP is that we got a baby shower invite for my SIL. It is my brother's wife and my brother is like the biggest jerk every without even trying. He knew we were trying for a few months before they started and they got KU the first month. Whatever, someone has to be the 20% right, but he states in a casual way, "maybe we were just more ready then you." Cue hatred of everything to do with seeing the pregnancy progress now (it doesn't help that I have never liked her anyways and wish  they would not have gotten married). I don't wish ill-well or anything, I just don't wish to see anything about it. I live out of state so at least I won't be expected to go.  
    Arghh! I'll join you in frustration with rude brothers.

    So he thinks people with terminal cancer are not as ready to face the rest of their lives? Why is it that babies are the one thing everyone thinks are a reward for "readiness"? 
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • Wow hugs to all. I guess I won the brother lottery. He can be a douche about some stuff but it's out of ignorance, not malice. Overall, we are close.

    Anyway, my OPP is to standing in line at Starbucks and this lady behind me was going on and on about her stupid kids and about how's she planning on a third. I wanted to scream at her to shut up.

    Love 2010 | Marriage 2011 | TTC #1 since 2012
    PCOS | Anovulatory | Metformin + Letrozole
  • My opp is a little different. I have a good friend IRL who has been struggling with unexplained IF and she is now pregnant, which is absolutely wonderful for her, and I am genuinely happy for her and her husband. But now, it's sometimes hard not to feel a little more alone in an already lonely process. Thank god for all of you! Hugs to all.

    Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).

    We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).

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  • I'm so close to deactivating my facebook account because I'm so SICK of seeing all the EXPECTING IN 2015 posts. OMG I saw ANOTHER one today and almost flipped out in my office bathroom. 

    Me: 33, DH: 32

    TTC: 2 years
    Fertility blood tests all normal
    Tilted uterus
    3 day ultrasound 17 follicles
    HSG: 11/13/13- tubes open
    DH SA: SUPER sperm (145 million, 84% motility, 22% morphology)
    All infection disease and immunity blood tests NORMAL

    FIRST IUI May 2014: 100 mg Clomid days 5-9, third ultrasound CD 13 revealed four follicles 27, 24 and 20 and 13mm. Trigger shot May 28 with IUI May 29 and 30 (fingers crossed) - BFN started spotting 11DPO :(

    IUI #2 B2B 6/23 and 6/24, three mature eggs and 130 million sperm! FX this is the month!  BFN 7/8

    3rd cycle benched due to cysts - TI with OPK tests -  BFN

    3rd mediated cycle: Clomid+Trigger+TI  (three follies left side, one on right as usual....what the hell right ovary get it together and produce some damn follicles!) 7DPO progesterone level 43 with NO suppositories YAY for a natural strong ovulation. Beta canceled started spotting 13DPO - Third time is not a CHARM! 14 day cycle WTF! Everything looks normal - RE wants to start injectables next cycle so this cycle I'm benched

    Officially benched until March....but still plan on trying the baking soda douche due to my excessive and thick CM

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  • @emmuffy I have a similar situation. One of my good friends struggled with two miscarriages and a chemical pregnancy so for a while her and I were bonding over our struggles with IF. She got preggers this past summer and her baby shower is in January. I am THRILLED for her and so happy she got through her struggles, but I feel so much more alone now IRL. No one else I know has IF issues. 

    Me: 33, DH: 32

    TTC: 2 years
    Fertility blood tests all normal
    Tilted uterus
    3 day ultrasound 17 follicles
    HSG: 11/13/13- tubes open
    DH SA: SUPER sperm (145 million, 84% motility, 22% morphology)
    All infection disease and immunity blood tests NORMAL

    FIRST IUI May 2014: 100 mg Clomid days 5-9, third ultrasound CD 13 revealed four follicles 27, 24 and 20 and 13mm. Trigger shot May 28 with IUI May 29 and 30 (fingers crossed) - BFN started spotting 11DPO :(

    IUI #2 B2B 6/23 and 6/24, three mature eggs and 130 million sperm! FX this is the month!  BFN 7/8

    3rd cycle benched due to cysts - TI with OPK tests -  BFN

    3rd mediated cycle: Clomid+Trigger+TI  (three follies left side, one on right as usual....what the hell right ovary get it together and produce some damn follicles!) 7DPO progesterone level 43 with NO suppositories YAY for a natural strong ovulation. Beta canceled started spotting 13DPO - Third time is not a CHARM! 14 day cycle WTF! Everything looks normal - RE wants to start injectables next cycle so this cycle I'm benched

    Officially benched until March....but still plan on trying the baking soda douche due to my excessive and thick CM

    JANUARY SIGGY CHALLENGE...This is so me!

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    Love this man....he was so before his time in his thoughts and ideas about the world....been obsessed about him lately bringing it back to the early 90s.

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    Never thought I would like long hair....

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  • I totally agree with everyone!!! I'm nodding as I scroll down on my iPhone.

    oMG I am so glad we have this today. I just ran an all day event with a colleague who works freelance so I don't see her often. She told me she is 9 weeks pregnant. Now, she just got married in June and we talked about TTC in September (she was worried she was traveling too much to get any timing and was just starting to TTC). I was happy for her (that seems to be our theme here) but really. First frikken try. I tried to stay light. I hope this doesn't go on too much longer it's getting harder every OPP.

    Dreading the kid cards.
    TTC#1 since Aug 2013, I'm 37, DH 41.  
    Maya Arvigo Abdominal massage (daily self care), plus TTC meditations.
    I'm very sensitive to diet (gluten, avoid processed foods) and environment. Have a history of inflammation and tendinitis before going off gluten in 2009.  
    July 2014 - RE Visit #1: Eggs look good, Endometrioma on R ovary, HSG showed blocked R tube close to ovary. DH SA normal 
    DX: Endometriosis probably the IF cause and gunking up tubes.  Since egg reserve is high, RE says I can wait a couple months and then get laproscopic surgery to remove endo & clear tube.  If that doesn't help then move to IVF. 
    Dec 2014 - Saw new RE - does not recommend surgery on tube as it isn't likely to help.  Doubts I have endometriosis.  My endometrioma shrunk to neglible size (yay!) 
    Seriously considering IVF in March/April
    12/17/14 - Natural BFP! 
  • @murrt‌ - I'm so sorry! I can totally relate to having coworkers who got married when you did (or after) and are now KU or with kids. One of my work BFF's has a beautiful 1 month old boy ...I love her but it's still painful.

    Hugs ladies .... I read all of your posts with fascination as I feel I can relate in some way to most of them! I hate that we all have to face these things on a daily basis ... but I'm glad we have each other to vent to.

    I have 2. Last Fri night we went to my in-laws house for dinner and to stay the night. They were so excited because they had our nephew (hubby's brother's 2 yr old) staying with them while his parents went on a 1 week vacation to Argentina. Our nephew is so cute I can't stand it. He can be fussy at times but he is just such a character. And he recognizes me and hubby now so it makes us feel closer to him. Well when it was time for him to go to bed he asked for "auntie" (me) to put him down. I was torn between really wanting to and thinking it'd be too hard. In the end I agreed to. The little monkey would NOT go to sleep! He kept whispering "Auntie here?" When I thought he was asleep and tried to slip out he threw his leg across me and "Nooo auntie! Here." He just made me melt ...I teared up in the dark and held him. He just has the most adorable little voice. Eventually my MIL came to relieve me and try putting him to bed. Now I keep thinking about him. He's just stolen my heart ....I'm in love. We've spent a lot more time with him in recent months (we usually don't see him as much because his parents are in Chicago).

    And ....one of my BFF's is going through her 1st round of IUI next week. She's taking Clomid this week. She is 35 and was diagnosed with low ovarian reserve (based on her AMH). We both lean on each other since we are going through a similar phase in life and dealing with fertility issues. But sometimes I'm ashamed at my inner thoughts when it comes to her. I have a hard time seeing her as having a true fertility issue when she's been trying for 8 months (but logically I KNOW - she's AMA and diagnosed with low ovarian reserve ... so she has some hurdles). Also when I think about her IUI, I get so anxious. I brace myself to hear that her 1st IUI worked. And how shitty that will make me feel. It would be so wonderful for her if it actually ends up working her 1st try! And yet all I can think about is how much I would want to avoid her if she got her BFP. :( Makes me feel so selfish
    **Formerly EastBayBride508**

    Me 34   Him 33

    Me - Left salpingo-oophorectomy at 19 due to large cyst/torsion  and 2 large uterine fibroids found at age 30
    Him - Borderline low sperm count (correcting through Fertility Blend supplement)

    Married 8/20/2011
    TTC #1 since Jan 2013
    First appointment with RE 10/2013.  
    April 2014 - Clomid 100mg CD3-7.  HCG shot CD10 IUI #1 done on 4/12/14 (CD12) ....BFN
    May 2014 - Break cycle to repeat saline sonogram and re-group.  Travel to Kauai 5/7-5/12 (Yay!!)
    June 2014 - Clomid 150mg CD4-8.  HCG shot CD14.  IUI#2 done on 6/9 and 6/10 (CD15-16) w/ Prometrium suppositories during TWW .... BFN
    July 2014 - Clomid 150mg CD3-7.  Ultrasound CD12 - 4 mature follies! HCG trigger shot CD12 AM.  IUI#3 on CD13 w/ Prometrium suppositories during TWW ....BFN
    July 2014 - Repeat ultrasound done to measure size of fibroid - 8x9cm (the size of a grapefruit!) Surgery referral made.
    August 2014 - MRI done which revealed 2 fibroids: a 13x15cm fibroid as well as an 8x7cm one.  Super freak out mode over surgery plan.  OB-GYN/surgeon said surgery would most likely have to be a laparotomy (open abdominal surgery)
    August 2014 - After a 2nd opinion, plan to take Lupron x 2 months to shrink fibroids then laparoscopic/robotic myomectomy.  Surgery date is set for Nov 21st!  
    November 2014 - Robotic myomectomy done (2 large fibroids removed, mild endo found).  Benched x 3 months

    PAIF/SAIF welcome
  • @BlueJoan, thank you! I've actually been thinking for a while that I want to start seeing a therapist myself. To gain a healthier perspective on my feelings about all the IF stuff. I keep putting it off but reading your response, I think I want to make a new years resolution to make it happen this time. It would be a great gift to give myself I think!

    And I'm sorry about being lapped by your friend. That absolutely does sting, I know the feeling! It's like you're torn between being glad they didn't have the same struggles and frustrated at the unfairness of it. (((Hugs)))
    **Formerly EastBayBride508**

    Me 34   Him 33

    Me - Left salpingo-oophorectomy at 19 due to large cyst/torsion  and 2 large uterine fibroids found at age 30
    Him - Borderline low sperm count (correcting through Fertility Blend supplement)

    Married 8/20/2011
    TTC #1 since Jan 2013
    First appointment with RE 10/2013.  
    April 2014 - Clomid 100mg CD3-7.  HCG shot CD10 IUI #1 done on 4/12/14 (CD12) ....BFN
    May 2014 - Break cycle to repeat saline sonogram and re-group.  Travel to Kauai 5/7-5/12 (Yay!!)
    June 2014 - Clomid 150mg CD4-8.  HCG shot CD14.  IUI#2 done on 6/9 and 6/10 (CD15-16) w/ Prometrium suppositories during TWW .... BFN
    July 2014 - Clomid 150mg CD3-7.  Ultrasound CD12 - 4 mature follies! HCG trigger shot CD12 AM.  IUI#3 on CD13 w/ Prometrium suppositories during TWW ....BFN
    July 2014 - Repeat ultrasound done to measure size of fibroid - 8x9cm (the size of a grapefruit!) Surgery referral made.
    August 2014 - MRI done which revealed 2 fibroids: a 13x15cm fibroid as well as an 8x7cm one.  Super freak out mode over surgery plan.  OB-GYN/surgeon said surgery would most likely have to be a laparotomy (open abdominal surgery)
    August 2014 - After a 2nd opinion, plan to take Lupron x 2 months to shrink fibroids then laparoscopic/robotic myomectomy.  Surgery date is set for Nov 21st!  
    November 2014 - Robotic myomectomy done (2 large fibroids removed, mild endo found).  Benched x 3 months

    PAIF/SAIF welcome
  • Just checked FB and see that my childhood friend just had her second.
    TTC#1 since Aug 2013, I'm 37, DH 41.  
    Maya Arvigo Abdominal massage (daily self care), plus TTC meditations.
    I'm very sensitive to diet (gluten, avoid processed foods) and environment. Have a history of inflammation and tendinitis before going off gluten in 2009.  
    July 2014 - RE Visit #1: Eggs look good, Endometrioma on R ovary, HSG showed blocked R tube close to ovary. DH SA normal 
    DX: Endometriosis probably the IF cause and gunking up tubes.  Since egg reserve is high, RE says I can wait a couple months and then get laproscopic surgery to remove endo & clear tube.  If that doesn't help then move to IVF. 
    Dec 2014 - Saw new RE - does not recommend surgery on tube as it isn't likely to help.  Doubts I have endometriosis.  My endometrioma shrunk to neglible size (yay!) 
    Seriously considering IVF in March/April
    12/17/14 - Natural BFP! 
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