I hadn't been on TB for a while since my grammy's passing. It has been difficult. During her stay at the hospital, my mom, aunt, and myself never left her side. We stayed 3 nights in her room with her. My uncles and other family members were in and out, but we never left the hospital. It was a very high stress, crazy emotional ride with lots of family (which included drunk uncles, which led to some family drama that my gram and us did not need) and a crazy "aunt" who is a nurse and "knew everything" and treated my gram like a case study instead of my loving grandma. We about lost it and my mom, aunt, and I were pissed.
During that time I kept getting braxton contractions. Less than 4 an hour, but they were pretty painful and I was worried, but I figured it was stress related. During that time as well, I was get getting a sharp pain a few inches above my belly button off to the right side. I kept ignoring the pain because I did not want to leave my gram's side. Her last words to us were on Friday night and they were "Tell everyone I love them, tell them!". She passed 11/24/14 at 9:45 pm peacefully. My mom, aunt, and myself were there, as well at 2 of my uncles. After she passed, I put some flowers in her hair. My sister, who has been ill for 3 years and was not able to be there. It broke my mom's heart. After my gram's passing, my mom took the biggest flower from her hair and we went to see my sister. We gave the flower to my sister and put in in her hair. It brought some closure for my mom. It sounds like a small thing, but it was a beautiful moment. My mom pressed that flower. My aunt, mom, and I have the others and we pressed them as well.
She had such a beautiful memorial service and my mom, aunt, my sister and myself got a keepsake urn without any of her remains and we filled it with dry rose petals from her services. I also put some family pics and an ultrasound pic of this baby in her box for burial. I don't know if I can ever get over the fact that she will not meet this baby. We still don't have a first name, but her middle name will be Lorraine, after my grandmother. We are leaning towards Olivia, since my grandma liked that name.
As for me, I finally went in to get checked on Tuesday after her burial service. They said it could be benign fibroid tumors in my ute, but should not affect the pregnancy or baby, so that's a relief. The braxton hicks contractions also stopped. Now if only I can get rid of this cold I caught.
We got the pathology back from the Dr from my grandma's lung. He said the type of cancer she had was very aggressive and metastasized fast. He said he also found some in her lymph nodes. He told us she has a 1% survival rate due to her age and the fact that is was already end stage when she got sick. He told us we made the right choice by not fighting it. He also said, a young, healthy person with this type of cancer would only live about 6 months with treatment. I am thankful she did not suffer and was still going out to the casino 2 weeks before she passed.
I wanted to thank you all for all your love, support, and kind words! It meant so much to me!!
So, what did I miss while I was gone?



As soon as I saw you, I knew an adventure was going to happen - Winnie the PoohMarried 8/22/09
Pregnancy 1- EDD 11/21/10 NMC @ 6 weeks
Pregnancy 2 - Rainbow DS born 1/15/11
Pregnancy 3 - EDD 5/2/14 NMC @ 6 weeks 9/4/13
Pregnancy 4 - EDD 6/11/14 BO @ 9 weeks D&C 11/8/13
AF arrived 12/18/13
BENCH IS BURNED 2/2014
TTA until May/June
WOW!!! I'm pregnant!!! BFP 6/8/14 Rainbow on the way EDD 2/14/15
If there ever comes a day where we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever -
Winnie the Pooh




Re: I'm back...update on mi vida loca
DS - Born 6/17/12
DS#2 - Due 2/11/15
As soon as I saw you, I knew an adventure was going to happen - Winnie the Pooh
Married 8/22/09
Pregnancy 1- EDD 11/21/10 NMC @ 6 weeks
Pregnancy 2 - Rainbow DS born 1/15/11
Pregnancy 3 - EDD 5/2/14 NMC @ 6 weeks 9/4/13
Pregnancy 4 - EDD 6/11/14 BO @ 9 weeks D&C 11/8/13
AF arrived 12/18/13
BENCH IS BURNED 2/2014
TTA until May/June
WOW!!! I'm pregnant!!! BFP 6/8/14 Rainbow on the way EDD 2/14/15
Winnie the Pooh
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TTC 10+ | Stage 4 Endometriosis
3 Laparscopy's
BFP - 06.15.2014
EDD - 02.16.2015
Olivia Lorraine is a beautiful name. I'm sure she would love that she shared her name with your lil one.
Welcome back and hope those BH slow down now that you are settling back into daily routines.
My grandma died right before my DS was born. We were sad that she couldn't be there to meet him. We also always joke that my DS has an old soul. A part of me thinks that she died at that time so that he could have a piece of her soul. Sounds kind of strange and maybe a little creepy, but whatever. Anyway, know that your grandma will always be there with you and with your daughter as well.
I too am sorry for your loss
. Your grammy sounded like a fun lady. I am glad that you are healthy and nothing major was going on. That’s a beautiful name if you decide to name your daughter that!
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