Back on the roller coaster and starting to worry.

Erma81 · November 2014

So here I am again, 7dp5dt of a hatching blast (frozen cycle). I had intralipid twice before transfer, even an endometrial scratching, but the worry starts to kick in. This is our 6th attempt. I POAS this morning, BFN. I've had mild cramping since transfer day, but much milder than with previous cycles. No bleeding yet, but AF is expected in 2 days, and I think I saw a bit of colour in the progesterone that leaked out on my panty liner (sorry for tmi). Today the cramping is still mild but more constant, and located on my left side (could be my ovary, but what do I know). I want to believe this is our cycle, and I had been very hopeful so far, but the cramps combined with the BFN and the not-so-white-anymore discharges are starting to get the best of me. I know nobody can know, this could still go either way. I just wish I could have a definite yes or no right away, preferably a yes. Sigh, this IF is driving me nuts!

Pookster1020 · November 2014

No advice but wanted to wish you luck. This process is really just gruelling mentally and physically.

Erma81 · November 2014

Thank you, I really appreciate. Unfortunately there's not much to do but wait. And cross everything! I'm trying to think that since I have never been pregnant before, I cannot know what it will feel like to be pregnant, so for all I know, a successful cycle feels the same as a failed cycle. There's just no way to tell yet. It's not over until it's over, right? Thanks for the nice words, that's really what I need right now

emmuffy · November 2014

Sending you some good luck wishes. Hang in there

Erma81 · November 2014

Thank you so much!

Erma81 · December 2014

Well no blood, until yesterday evening (12dpt5dt). Just a little bit however, and brownish. My hopes were sky high. My OTD was today, but BFN. 6 failed cycles. 6. Where do you go from there?!?

hmz819 · December 2014

I'm so sorry! Does your doc have any ideas? You said you were on intralipids. Did you have a full immune work up? I think looking into an immune work up with a reproductive immunologist would be my next step.

Erma81 · December 2014

Thank you, I appreciate. She wants to look more at my uterus. She told me that our embies are wonderful and that they checked everything to be checked with them. They are not the problem, and that's positive, because we have some good babies to work with. She wants to look more at my uterus though because something happens that prevents implantation. She has booked a bunch of new tests for me. Everything looked fine with the u/s and biopsy of my uterus, but we're obviously missing something, and she wants to find out what it is. She told me not to give up hope, she is convinced we will eventually find what keeps our embies from sticking in there. She is such a great doctor, and she cares so much. I'm very thankful I have that kind of doctor, it makes the whole thing a bit easier to deal with. As for now, on my doctor's orders, no more googling myself until I cannot think clearly anymore, all I'm allowed to do is to think about myself and my husband and spend a happy holiday. We'll start working on that IF again next year. 2015, here we come, I'm ready to knock down that IF b***h!

Dyork · December 2014

Sorry it didn't work out. But I'm glad that your RE is pin pointing the issue and keeping a positive outlook. Good luck for 2015!

vballbaby · December 2014

I'm sorry, sounds like a long road you've been on, it's no wonder you're weary! Your Dr. sounds optimistic so try and stay positive!

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