TTC after 35

I thought I was ok with the loss, but due date hit me hard. (Loss mentioned obviously)

Our due date was a week ago. I bought a bottle of wine for me and DH, because I wanted us to do just a little something to acknowledge the day.

All along I've said I'm pretty ok with the loss itself, but the nature of it was scarey. I said I was disappointed and sad, but ok.

But this week has pretty much sucked. A woman at work had her baby. DH told me how glad he was that we didn't have a baby around giving us sleepless nights (when I burst into tears and pointed out what that sounded like he was all apologetic, but it still stung) and on the weekend I was in an elevator with a woman and the sweetest little 4 week old baby.

I'm not unhappy for these people. I wish them all the happiness in the world with their little ones. I just wish I had a little newborn to adore. Sigh.
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Re: I thought I was ok with the loss, but due date hit me hard. (Loss mentioned obviously)

  • I'm so sorry.  I am right there with you.  My EDD was Saturday and there was a lady at work who everybody was joking would "deliver right there".  During this discussion someone asked if I had kids and I said no.  Then she asked "why, you don't want kids?" and I burst into tears.  Really professional there.
    Sorry for the thread jack but I definitely get it.
    Me: 37                                               
    DH: 45
    BFP #1 3/19/14  EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
    BFP #2  12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
    Saw heartbeat 12/29.  Please be a rainbow.
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  • I'm so sorry @KateLouise‌ and @tlc35‌. Hugs to both of you.
    *** Child & current pregnancy mentioned ***
    Me - 41 (PCOS), Hubby - 43 (healthy)
    7/2013 - Sweet baby girl born (Clomid + TI)
    3/2014 - TTC #2, return to RE 7/2014
    12/2015: IVF #1 transferred two great looking embryos - BFP!
    First ultrasound: TWO beautiful little heartbeats!!
    Harmony: negative; level 2: babies look great and are boy/girl! :) 
  • I'm sorry. It sucks when things just "hit you"
    me:41   dh:43 
    Off Mirena Nov 2013, On Nuvaring end of Jan, Back off Sept 2014.  Never ending cycle starting end of Sept... 
    11/14 Provera failed... cycle continues 
    12/14 High FSH (57 "midcycle")  OBGYN had no clue... about anything 
    01/15 More lab results coming back from RE. U/S showed small (1")cyst on left ovary, thin lining, and couldn't locate right ovary so  possibly straight to DE and IVF 

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  • I'm sorry, sending healing thoughts.
    36, DH 31 TTC #1 since we got married, July 2014. http://FertilityFriend.com/home/522fa4/
  • I'm so sorry, I think your feelings and reactions are normal; never know when that lightning bolt of pain will hit.  I wish you continued healing and peace.
  • I understand what you are going through. It is tough, especially the first time. I can't say it gets easier but it becomes more bearable. At least it does for me but I still get emotional about it. Hugs

      Me:39, DH:40

    DD born 8/96, DS born 8/04

    TTC#3

    NTNP since 2006, active trying 1/13

    Natural M/C 3/13 at 7 weeks

    CP 2/14

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  • I'm so sorry, @katelouise and @tlc35.  Hugs to both of you.
    *****Signature/Ticker Warning******

    Me: 41, DH: 45
    DD, 6/15/2013
    TTC #2 beginning January 2014
    AMH 1.05; FSH range 7-11

    July 2014: IUI #1.  Follistim + Pregnyl.  2 follicles--BFN
    September 2014: IUI #2.  Follistim + Pregnyl + Ganirelix + Crinone.  4(?) follicles--BFN
    October 2014: IUI #3.  More Follistim + More Ganirelix + Pregnyl + Crinone.  4 follicles--BFP!  Beta #1=10 Beta #2=33 Beta #3=97 Beta #4=158.  M/C 11/1/14
    December 2014: IVF #1.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  9R, 9M, 9F.  3 5-day blasts transferred 12/15. BFFN.
    April 2015: IVF #2.  Microdose Lupron protocol.  16R, 15M, 12F. Transferred 2 5-day blasts 4/12 and froze 4--BFP!  M/C 5/25/15
    August 2015: IVF #3.  14R, 13M, 11F.  Froze 5 blasts for CCS testing.  3 normals.  FET planned for 10/2015.



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  • I am so sorry, triggers seem to be everywhere *hug*
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • I so sorry. Sending big hugs your way!
  • So sorry for your loss, hugs!
  • So sorry
    TTC#1 since Aug 2013, I'm 37, DH 41.  
    Maya Arvigo Abdominal massage (daily self care), plus TTC meditations.
    I'm very sensitive to diet (gluten, avoid processed foods) and environment. Have a history of inflammation and tendinitis before going off gluten in 2009.  
    July 2014 - RE Visit #1: Eggs look good, Endometrioma on R ovary, HSG showed blocked R tube close to ovary. DH SA normal 
    DX: Endometriosis probably the IF cause and gunking up tubes.  Since egg reserve is high, RE says I can wait a couple months and then get laproscopic surgery to remove endo & clear tube.  If that doesn't help then move to IVF. 
    Dec 2014 - Saw new RE - does not recommend surgery on tube as it isn't likely to help.  Doubts I have endometriosis.  My endometrioma shrunk to neglible size (yay!) 
    Seriously considering IVF in March/April
    12/17/14 - Natural BFP! 
  • Thanks ladies, I appreciate the support.
    @tlc35 I'm sorry you're having a rough time too! Ugh at thoughtless co-workers, you'd think people would know not to ask that kind of thoughtless question.
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  • So sorry things are so hard right now @KateLouise‌ and @tlc35‌. :( sending hugs
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  • So sorry :( 

    Must be hard. I hope you are doing better now (I'm getting to posts around here a little late)
    I hope that when we come to that time next year for me I will be able to sail though it as its my mother and my nephews birthday.......maybe it will since i can focus on that. However i think it will also serve as a reminder. :(
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    married 05-21-11 
    started TTC right away






    BFP- 10-16-14 EDD 6/13/15: MC 12-1-14 
  • Sending hugs to you @KateLouise and @tlc35 (and anyone else with moments of pain).

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  • I'm sorry. EDDs are tough.
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • So sorry for your loss. It sucks when things blindside us and trigger those emotions. I have not been in your position but I'm sending big hugs to you.
    ****Loss Mentioned***
    Me: 41 Him: 41
    TTC since December 2013
    HSG 9/18/14 = Tubes open but T shaped uterus
    IUI #1... 1/6/2015 + 50mg Clomid = BFN
    IUI #2... 1/29 & 30/2015 + 50mg Clomid +Tigger +Progesterone = BFN
    3/14 BFFP! Natural w/acupuncture & herbs only
    EDD = 11/22/15;  No heartbeat = 7/21/15
    Cooper Midnight Johnson born sleeping 7/25/2015



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