TTC After a Loss

(Procedure Update) Can I pull a chair up?

kreardon11kreardon11 member
edited December 2014 in TTC After a Loss
Thank you so much ladies for the love. The d&c is over now and doc said it went really well, and this time the tissue looks normal with no signs of moles. I could have kissed her. The first thing I said to her was "I want Mexican food." DH has been great taking care of me. The emotional side of it all hasn't quite hit me but I expect it to soon, as I remember from last time. Last night I was in a very dark place. I see my therapist Saturday. I have a consult with an RE Tuesday. I'm hoping he's a good fit. Thanks again for the love ladies. You have no idea how much positivity it brought me <3 --------- Hi Ladies, <div>
It is with a heavy heart that I pull up a chair here after our second loss this year. We are very sad, as we were so optimistic this time, but we would be lying if we didn't think it was a real possibility. I have my D&C tomorrow, and we begin RPL testing after that. We're hoping were not benched for too long, but are going to take the time we need to heal and look for some possibly reasons as to why this keeps happening. 

The history.... 

In Feb '14 we got pregnant. We were thrilled to be parents. At our 8 week appt, we discovered a blighted ovum. I was sent home to miscarry but never did. I opted for a D&C because I just wanted to be over with it. Pathology reported it was a molar pregnancy with twin gestations. We were then benched. After the benched was burned we got pregnant again on the first try. I went in at 4 weeks to confirm pregnancy via bloodwork. At 6 weeks, we saw the HB via ultrasound. At 10.5 weeks we went in again to find that the fetus stopped growing shortly after 6 weeks - no HB. From the looks of it, my OB is pretty certain it is a missed miscarriage, however, the D&C will let us know the prognosis for sure. 

At the advice of many, I'm going to begin searching for an RE. My OB is great and I'm confident in her, but I'm ready for the next step in our journey. 

I'm looking forward to giving support because we're all on the same jouney here. In my heart I know that I will be a mother one day, and my hope is that we all are - however, and whatever roads we have to take. 

Also - Thank you @meredithcarole for the starting the hug train. It made me cry this morning to see all the love <3<3. 

Cheers, I brought wine. (Cuz I can drink again.......thank god.....) 

[Edited to add a shout out<3.]

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Married my partner in crime 06/11/11
DH: 29, Me: 28
Started TTC 10/01/2013
BFP#1: 03/05/14 | EDD: 11/11/14 | MC: 04/10/14 | D&C 05/01/14 [Molar]
BFP#2: 10/15/14 | EDD: 06/25/14 | MC: 12/02/14 | D&C 12/04/14 [MMC]
Current Status: RE appt 01/20/15 & Cleared to TTC
Plan: Baby Aspirin, More (raw) folate, PNP, Iron, diet
DX: MTHFR hetero C677T, ANA+ Homogeneous, Anemia. Ige sensitivities: gluten, egg, dairy
All AL Welcome<3
“Once you are real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.”
We will never forgot our angels<3


Re: (Procedure Update) Can I pull a chair up?

  • I am so very sorry that you find yourself back here *hugs* 

    I am also one that recently took the leap to see an RE, as hard as it was. Good luck!
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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  • Huge ((hugs)) so sorry you're going through this.
  • I'm so sorry for your losses.  I hope that you are able to make an appointment with an RE and get some RPL testing.  Welcome to the board and good luck with your D&C.  (((((HUGS)))))
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    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

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  • I am so sorry, sweetie. I hate you are back here. ((Hugs)) hunny. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and that you find yourself back here ((hugs))
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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
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  • I'm so sorry you have to be back here. I hope additional testing and meeting with an RE provides you some answers.
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    BFP #1 DS born 10/16/12 at 39w6d
    BFP #2 DD lost 11/17/14 at 17w2d
  • So sorry you have to join us.  (hugs) and I hope that your meeting with the RE will be a productive one.

    BFP #1 ended with H born 2/2/13
    BFP #2 ended in loss @7weeks 10/15/14
    BFP #3 due 8/21/15 *please stick*
  • I'm so sorry for your losses and that you find yourself back here. 
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  I hope you are able to see an RE soon.
                                                                                              BFP #1 3/2/12, T born 11/7/12
                                                                                                 BFP #2  7/2/14, CP 7/6/14
                                 BFP #3 8/28/14, MMC 10/2/14 @ 9wks - misoprostol 10/6/14, D&C 11/3/14 for retained tissue
                                       BFP #4 12/25/14, EDD 9/7/15 - please stick baby, you are so loved and wanted!!!!!                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                   
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  • I'm so sorry that you find yourself back here. Hopefully the RPL testing with give you some answers. Take care of yourself. Sending tons of hugs!!
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  • I'm so very sorry you find your self back here again. I hope your RE can help you find some answers.I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. ((HUGS)).
  • I'm so sorry you have to be back here. I'm a should-have-been June '15 mama, too. Lost ours at 7w2d after previously seeing a heartbeat. I hope you are able to get some answers and a plan with the RE.
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    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • I'm very sorry for your losses.  I hate that you are back on board but hope that you can find the extra support you need here. ((hugs))
    Me: 26 DH:28
    TTC - Sept 2014
    # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014


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  • I'm so sorry for your losses and that you're back here. Sending huge ((hugs)).




    Me-27 DH-29

     TTC#1 January 2013

    BFP February 27th 2014, MMC ended in D&C

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  • ((Hugs)) sorry for your losses
  • Oh honey! I'm so sorry! Huge ((((((hugs))))))
    Me: 38
    DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant

    DH: 34
    MFI due to Testicular Cancer

    Married March 2012 <3
    IVF w/ICSI #1
    10 little polar bears
    FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN :(
    FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
    Beta 1= 276
    Beta 2= 662
    4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
    5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
    5/3/14 ~ D&C
    FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
    October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
    Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y



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  • (((Hugs))) again, lady.  There are no words.  It is so unfair that this happens.  I will be thinking about you tomorrow.  FX the procedure goes easily.  
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    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

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  • I'm so sorry for your losses. I hope your D&C goes smoothly tomorrow and that you are able to get some answers soon.
    Together since April 2004.  Married since June 19th, 2010.
     BFP #1: January 31st 2012: CP. 
     BFP #2: June 1st 2012, Due:2/8/13. Avery was born via unplanned c section on 2/13/13. 
     BFP #3: Sept. 25th, 2014. Due: 6/5/15.  MMC on 10/23/14. Confirmed complete molar pregnancy per D&C 10/29/14, 
    HCG officially negative 12/10/14.  Benched until June 2015.
                                                        
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. (hugs)  I will be thinking of you tomorrow and hope everything goes smoothly.
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
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    TTC #2 since 12/13
    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
    FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
    Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!
    Beta 9dp5dt = 92

  • So many ((hugs))
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    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
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  • So so sorry for your losses.  Sending you hugs and hoping you find support on this board.
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  • I am so sorry you find yourself back here.

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  • kreardon11kreardon11 member
    edited December 2014
    Update in OP
    ________________________
    Married my partner in crime 06/11/11
    DH: 29, Me: 28
    Started TTC 10/01/2013
    BFP#1: 03/05/14 | EDD: 11/11/14 | MC: 04/10/14 | D&C 05/01/14 [Molar]
    BFP#2: 10/15/14 | EDD: 06/25/14 | MC: 12/02/14 | D&C 12/04/14 [MMC]
    Current Status: RE appt 01/20/15 & Cleared to TTC
    Plan: Baby Aspirin, More (raw) folate, PNP, Iron, diet
    DX: MTHFR hetero C677T, ANA+ Homogeneous, Anemia. Ige sensitivities: gluten, egg, dairy
    All AL Welcome<3
    “Once you are real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.”
    We will never forgot our angels<3


  • Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you today. Please update us on how your procedure goes, ok? Sending hugs and healing vibes.
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    DX: I'm a Recurrent Loser
    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • I'm glad the procedure went well and I hope you like your new RE.  Good luck!
                                                                                              BFP #1 3/2/12, T born 11/7/12
                                                                                                 BFP #2  7/2/14, CP 7/6/14
                                 BFP #3 8/28/14, MMC 10/2/14 @ 9wks - misoprostol 10/6/14, D&C 11/3/14 for retained tissue
                                       BFP #4 12/25/14, EDD 9/7/15 - please stick baby, you are so loved and wanted!!!!!                                                                                           
                                                                                                                                                   
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  • BookishMommaBookishMomma member
    edited December 2014
    That's good that your doctor didn't see any evidence of mole. Will your doctor send the tissue to pathology for testing? Rest up and take care of yourself, honey.

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    DX: I'm a Recurrent Loser
    Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007
    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • Sending you tons of hugs. Wishing for your heart to heal.
    Married: August 16 2014
    EDD: July 12, 2015  MC: November 30, 2014 8weeks
    Clover Grace
     our little angel.

  • I am so glad the D&C went well, that is the first step! A therapist is a very good idea when you find yourself in a dark place. 

    I hope you find answers with your RE, good luck with the visit *hug*
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • That's good that your doctor didn't see any evidence of mole. Will your doctor send the tissue to pathology for testing? Rest up and take care of yourself, honey.


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    @bookishmomma yes sending to inspect for moles, confirm mmc, and do chromosomal testing. I'm praying all comes back okay and we might get some answers.

    ________________________
    Married my partner in crime 06/11/11
    DH: 29, Me: 28
    Started TTC 10/01/2013
    BFP#1: 03/05/14 | EDD: 11/11/14 | MC: 04/10/14 | D&C 05/01/14 [Molar]
    BFP#2: 10/15/14 | EDD: 06/25/14 | MC: 12/02/14 | D&C 12/04/14 [MMC]
    Current Status: RE appt 01/20/15 & Cleared to TTC
    Plan: Baby Aspirin, More (raw) folate, PNP, Iron, diet
    DX: MTHFR hetero C677T, ANA+ Homogeneous, Anemia. Ige sensitivities: gluten, egg, dairy
    All AL Welcome<3
    “Once you are real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.”
    We will never forgot our angels<3


  • I'm so sorry that you are back here again. I hope you physically bounce back quickly . . . emotionally will take longer. (((hugs)))
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
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