Thank you so much ladies for the love. The d&c is over now and doc said it went really well, and this time the tissue looks normal with no signs of moles. I could have kissed her. The first thing I said to her was "I want Mexican food."
DH has been great taking care of me. The emotional side of it all hasn't quite hit me but I expect it to soon, as I remember from last time. Last night I was in a very dark place. I see my therapist Saturday.
I have a consult with an RE Tuesday. I'm hoping he's a good fit.
Thanks again for the love ladies. You have no idea how much positivity it brought me

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Hi Ladies, <div>
It is with a heavy heart that I pull up a chair here after our second loss this year. We are very sad, as we were so optimistic this time, but we would be lying if we didn't think it was a real possibility. I have my D&C tomorrow, and we begin RPL testing after that. We're hoping were not benched for too long, but are going to take the time we need to heal and look for some possibly reasons as to why this keeps happening.
The history....
In Feb '14 we got pregnant. We were thrilled to be parents. At our 8 week appt, we discovered a blighted ovum. I was sent home to miscarry but never did. I opted for a D&C because I just wanted to be over with it. Pathology reported it was a molar pregnancy with twin gestations. We were then benched. After the benched was burned we got pregnant again on the first try. I went in at 4 weeks to confirm pregnancy via bloodwork. At 6 weeks, we saw the HB via ultrasound. At 10.5 weeks we went in again to find that the fetus stopped growing shortly after 6 weeks - no HB. From the looks of it, my OB is pretty certain it is a missed miscarriage, however, the D&C will let us know the prognosis for sure.
At the advice of many, I'm going to begin searching for an RE. My OB is great and I'm confident in her, but I'm ready for the next step in our journey.
I'm looking forward to giving support because we're all on the same jouney here. In my heart I know that I will be a mother one day, and my hope is that we all are - however, and whatever roads we have to take.
Also - Thank you
@meredithcarole for the starting the hug train. It made me cry this morning to see all the love

<3.
Cheers, I brought wine. (Cuz I can drink again.......thank god.....)
[Edited to add a shout out<3.]
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Married my partner in crime 06/11/11
DH: 29, Me: 28
Started TTC 10/01/2013
BFP#1: 03/05/14 | EDD: 11/11/14 | MC: 04/10/14 | D&C 05/01/14 [Molar]
BFP#2: 10/15/14 | EDD: 06/25/14 | MC: 12/02/14 | D&C 12/04/14 [MMC]
Current Status: RE appt 01/20/15 & Cleared to TTC
Plan: Baby Aspirin, More (raw) folate, PNP, Iron, diet
DX: MTHFR hetero C677T, ANA+ Homogeneous, Anemia. Ige sensitivities: gluten, egg, dairy
All AL Welcome
“Once you are real you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.”
We will never forgot our angels
Re: (Procedure Update) Can I pull a chair up?
I am also one that recently took the leap to see an RE, as hard as it was. Good luck!
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
TTC since March 2014
BFP#1 5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
BFP#2 9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
BFP#3 12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2
Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
Stalk my ute
Me-27 DH-29
TTC#1 January 2013
BFP February 27th 2014, MMC ended in D&C
Working on our rainbow!
Curious about my ute?
DX: Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
DH: 34
MFI due to Testicular Cancer
Married March 2012
IVF w/ICSI #1
10 little polar bears
FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
Beta 1= 276
Beta 2= 662
4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
5/3/14 ~ D&C
FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
Fur Children: Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
January 2015 Siggy Challenge TTCAL
Animals Interacting with Snow
My Ovulation Chart
Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
our little angel.
I hope you find answers with your RE, good luck with the visit *hug*
BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)