AW: pity party for one please

Re: AW: pity party for one please

• O2girl member

  December 2014

  jj32 said:

  Oh love, you are right, it sucks, it plain fucking sucks. I wish I could give you a big ol hug IRL. (((Hugs))) I can make a blanket fort for you so you can hide away. PS: the cupcake looks delicious.

  I would like a blanket fort.

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• MSU_Girl1202 member

  December 2014

  Oh sweets, it's so not fair. I completely understand where you're coming from.
  Today was my EDD...and my birthday...and everyone at work expected me to be so happy, but it was so hard to force a smile when I was miserable all day.
  I will join you in your bitterness and misery. I'm so so sorry that we have to go through this.
  Sending the biggest ((hugs))
  

  Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
  08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
  10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
  04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
  05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
  03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
  4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off

  5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
  7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
  9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d  
  10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
  2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
  3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
  6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
  2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
  

  6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  MSU_Girl1202 said:

  Oh sweets, it's so not fair. I completely understand where you're coming from.
  Today was my EDD...and my birthday...and everyone at work expected me to be so happy, but it was so hard to force a smile when I was miserable all day.
  I will join you in your bitterness and misery. I'm so so sorry that we have to go through this.
  Sending the biggest ((hugs))
  

  Oh honey! Xoxoxo I'm so sorry for you too!

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• blackbird818 member

  December 2014

  I'll join you, lovie. I totally get it. It hit me hard recently since my second mc thinking about the fact that I should be getting ready to celebrate a 1yr old's b-day next week but instead I'm mourning the lose of another angel.
  
  I shared this recently on fb
  
  
  
  I think it sums it pretty well.
  
  It fucking sucks. But don't be too hard on yourself...you've been thru hell and lost it all. So we can be bitter together, my sweet lady bc fuck it we have that right. >:D<

  TTC since Sept 2012
  M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
  AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
  Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
  Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
  BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
  

  
   
   
  
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• Menrandes member

  December 2014

  *huge hugs*  I'm sorry hun.  It sucks.  This journey is hard and it's normal to be bitter.  I wish I could say something to help, but just know we are all here for you!
  
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  blackbird818 said:

  I'll join you, lovie. I totally get it. It hit me hard recently since my second mc thinking about the fact that I should be getting ready to celebrate a 1yr old's b-day next week but instead I'm mourning the lose of another angel.
  
  I shared this recently on fb
  
  
  
  I think it sums it pretty well.
  
  It fucking sucks. But don't be too hard on yourself...you've been thru hell and lost it all. So we can be bitter together, my sweet lady bc fuck it we have that right. >:D<

  >:D<
  I'll take the hugs and give them right back. Thank you. And yes that sums everything up perfectly. Xoxoxo

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  Menrandes said:

  *huge hugs*  I'm sorry hun.  It sucks.  This journey is hard and it's normal to be bitter.  I wish I could say something to help, but just know we are all here for you!
  
  

  Thank you. Xoxo

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• blackbird818 member

  December 2014

  Big BIG ((((HUGS)))) @MSU_Girl1202
  
  It's a tough month for Dec. ladies *sigh*
  
  
  happy birthday hun. I know this must be even harder. (my bday is Dec. too...last year with my EDD, Xmas & my 30th bday all within a 3wk span was emotional torture)
  

  TTC since Sept 2012
  M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
  AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
  Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
  Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
  BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
  

  
   
   
  
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• kittymeowbark member

  December 2014

  SO SO many hugs lady. It truly does freakin sucks.
  
  Hopegfully a blanket fort, wine, and chocolate can make you feel a little better.
  
  
  
  
  
  

  Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
  TTC since 2012
  BFP#1~  EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
  Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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• flyoffeve member

  December 2014

  (Hugs)

   

  Me: 31 DH: 36
  Dated Since ‘02, Married in ‘06
  BFP#1 05/16/06, EDD01/16/07, MC 06/12/06 at 8 weeks
  BFP #2 08/14/14, EDD 04/22/15, MC 09/17/14 at 9 weeks

   

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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  blackbird818 said:

  Big BIG ((((HUGS)))) @MSU_Girl1202
  
  It's a tough month for Dec. ladies *sigh*
  
  
  happy birthday hun. I know this must be even harder. (my bday is Dec. too...last year with my EDD, Xmas & my 30th bday all within a 3wk span was emotional torture)
  

  I so want to wish you both a happy birthday...... But they seem like useless words of fluff considering the grief that surrounds it. So I just wish you both peace.

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• kittymeowbark member

  December 2014

  @blackbird818 said:

  I'll join you, lovie. I totally get it. It hit me hard recently since my second mc thinking about the fact that I should be getting ready to celebrate a 1yr old's b-day next week but instead I'm mourning the lose of another angel.
  
  I shared this recently on fb
  
  
  
  I think it sums it pretty well.
  
  It fucking sucks. But don't be too hard on yourself...you've been thru hell and lost it all. So we can be bitter together, my sweet lady bc fuck it we have that right. >:D<

  
  WOW that quote is so true. I am in tears right now.
  

  Yelena + Rubere Married: 05/13/2011
  TTC since 2012
  BFP#1~  EDD: 06/21/2014  ~  TFMR --Holoprosencephaly 
  Said goodbye on 2/10/2014 at 21 weeks. We miss our baby girl "J"
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• MSU_Girl1202 member

  December 2014

  @blackbird818: Sending you big ((hugs)) too lady. That quote seriously made me tear up because it's so true.
  
  @O2girl: Thank you! I think that's one of the things that's been bothering me today...is that people keep wishing me a happy birthday and me having to smile back at them, but there's no way my birthday can be happy this year. I'm ready for January...
  

  Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
  08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
  10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
  04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
  05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
  03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
  4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off

  5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
  7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
  9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d  
  10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
  2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
  3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
  6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
  2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
  

  6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  

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• TowerClimbersWife member

  December 2014

  No sugar coating it. I'd like to kick this whole situation in the C U Next Tuesday
  
  All The (((Hugs))) in the world to you!
  
  Let us know how we can support you.
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  MSU_Girl1202 said:

  @blackbird818: Sending you big ((hugs)) too lady. That quote seriously made me tear up because it's so true.
  
  @O2girl: Thank you! I think that's one of the things that's been bothering me today...is that people keep wishing me a happy birthday and me having to smile back at them, but there's no way my birthday can be happy this year. I'm ready for January...
  

  I get it! My birthday was a week after I found out that the last FET didn't work either..... And people kept wishing me a happy birthday and honestly all I wanted to respond with was daggers and "is it happy? Is it? Because I'm sorry it's not for me". So I get it.

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• MSU_Girl1202 member

  December 2014

  O2girl said:

  @blackbird818: Sending you big ((hugs)) too lady. That quote seriously made me tear up because it's so true.
  
  @O2girl: Thank you! I think that's one of the things that's been bothering me today...is that people keep wishing me a happy birthday and me having to smile back at them, but there's no way my birthday can be happy this year. I'm ready for January...
  

  I get it! My birthday was a week after I found out that the last FET didn't work either..... And people kept wishing me a happy birthday and honestly all I wanted to respond with was daggers and "is it happy? Is it? Because I'm sorry it's not for me". So I get it.

  This EXACTLY.
  I hate that you have to go through this too, but so nice to know that someone 'gets it'.
  

  Married 07/2006, TTC since 2010
  08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN  ,
  10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
  04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
  05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN  , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
  03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
  4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off

  5/31: Femara 7.5mg --> cancelled cycle, no follies
  7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
  9/20/14:  Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d  
  10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
  2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
  3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
  6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
  2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
  

  6/21/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
  

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• O2girl member

  December 2014

  MSU_Girl1202 said:

  
  

  O2girl said:

  
  

  MSU_Girl1202 said:

  @blackbird818: Sending you big ((hugs)) too lady. That quote seriously made me tear up because it's so true.
  
  @O2girl: Thank you! I think that's one of the things that's been bothering me today...is that people keep wishing me a happy birthday and me having to smile back at them, but there's no way my birthday can be happy this year. I'm ready for January...
  

  I get it! My birthday was a week after I found out that the last FET didn't work either..... And people kept wishing me a happy birthday and honestly all I wanted to respond with was daggers and "is it happy? Is it? Because I'm sorry it's not for me". So I get it.

  
  

  This EXACTLY.
  I hate that you have to go through this too, but so nice to know that someone 'gets it'.
  
  
  @MSU_Girl1202‌ I hate this for you too! I hate it for all of us!

  Me: 38
  DX:  Adenomyosis, Compounded MTHFR, PAI-1 4G variant
  
  DH: 34
  MFI due to Testicular Cancer
  
  Married March 2012
  IVF w/ICSI #1
  10 little polar bears
  FET #1 with 2 polar bears ~Nov 6, 2013 BFN
  FET # 2 with 2 more polar bears ~March 19, 2014 BFP!!!
  Beta 1= 276
  Beta 2= 662
  4/19/14 ~ baby A became an angel
  5/02/14 ~ baby B became an angel
  5/3/14 ~ D&C
  FET #3 with 1 male polar bear ~October 3, 2014
  October 13, 2014 ~ BFN
  Fur Children:  Memphis 3y, Dutch 3y, Marcel 2y, Meadow 1y
  
  
  
  
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• yellowcat10 member

  December 2014

  ((HUGS))

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• MrsOscarFelix member

  December 2014

  ((Hugs))

  Married 9/13/14

  

  Me: 24 / DH: 24

  BFP#1 10/15/14 - EDD 6/19/2014 - MC 10/23/14

  BFP #2: 12/18/14 - EDD: 8/31/15 - MC 1/4/14 5w6d

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• MellyMel15 member

  December 2014 edited December 2014

  I'm so sorry, @O2girl. That's so hard. I know I'll feel sad too when my due date rolls around in May. I don't have any great advice or words of wisdom. Just hang in there... that's all you can really do. Sending you big hugs and lots of (virtual) cupcakes. 

  
  

  P.S.- That picture of you and your husband in your signature is really cute. You guys are a good-looking couple!

  * Me: 31, DH: 33 * Married 10.16.10 * Parents of our furbaby Sophie *
  

  BFP: 8.28.14 | EDD 5.6.15 | MMC Discovered 9.25.14 (8 weeks)| D&C 9.30.14

  
  

  

  
  

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• BookishMomma member

  December 2014

  Sending big hugs from one December 5th would-be-mama to another. It sucks and you can say that as much as you want here.

  

  
  

  DX: I'm a Recurrent Loser

  Me (35) + DH (37) - Married Sept. 2007

  BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11

  BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d

  BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d

  BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 

  BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d

  BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]

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• eliida member

  December 2014

  I'm so sorry, O2. This is all just so fucking hard. I wish I had magic words--or better yet a magic wand. So many (((hugs))).

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• megrae12 member

  December 2014

  Big ((hugs)) sweetie. EDDs suck, EDDs around bdays suck monkey balls. My EDD for my first lost is three days before my bday (in April). Feel free to vent and be bitter, you will get no judgement from me.

  

  

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  BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 

  Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 

  Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP

  BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15

  On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

  
  

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• rslh10 member

  December 2014

  So many ((hugs)) to you, Lady. 

  
  

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  Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10

  BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13

  DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)

  SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)

   Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 

  Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14

  Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN

  Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN

  
  

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• Km380 member

  December 2014

  You are right it all fucking sucks. @blackbird818‌ that quote is perfect and brought me to tears. (((Hugs))) to all of you, I wish I had more to offer but I know there is nothing I could say to make it better. Just know we're here for you

  PgAL welcome

  
  

  Married 6/11/2011
  

  Me & Hubby: 34

  TTC journey started 12/2012

  BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

  BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

  Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

  Also have hypothyroidism

  Started TTC again 12/2013

   

  IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

  IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

  Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

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• renegadewhit member

  December 2014

  You don't deserve this, and it's not fair. You've earned your pity party, because edds are the worst. I'm sorry this sucks so bad. ((Big hugs))

  
  

  I'll be at a new place providing support. 

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• schuebja member

  December 2014

  Sending you lots of hugs!

  Together since April 2004.  Married since June 19th, 2010.

   BFP #1: January 31st 2012: CP. 

   BFP #2: June 1st 2012, Due:2/8/13. Avery was born via unplanned c section on 2/13/13. 

   BFP #3: Sept. 25th, 2014. Due: 6/5/15.  MMC on 10/23/14. Confirmed complete molar pregnancy per D&C 10/29/14, 

  HCG officially negative 12/10/14.  Benched until June 2015.

                                                      

   

  
  

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• buggirl72 member

  December 2014

  Oh honey, it is not crazy to think about any of those things.  You will always wonder about your little ones. It will be harder at their EDD and, with it being so close to the holidays, it will always make this time of year bittersweet.  It's okay to imagine what they would be like and what your life would have been like.
  
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  The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
  

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• sunflwra member

  December 2014

  Huge hugs hon.  I think back on times when I was younger and was so worried not wanting to get pregnant and then we get to this time in our lives when it's all we want and it ends up not being up to us.  It just sucks- I'm so sorry you're having a tough time.

  BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011

  BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident

  BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown

  To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.

   

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• ellebelle2384 member

  December 2014

  I'm so sorry lady.  I wish I could magically make things better but I know there is nothing to do that.  Instead we are here for you whenever you need us.  Vent away all you want.  (hugs)
  

  Me: 31     DH: 33
  Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
  BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11

  BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
  

  
  

  TTC #2 since 12/13
  BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14

  BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15

  BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
  BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
  IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
  IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
  PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
  FET 9/23/15 = BFFN

  Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!

  Beta 9dp5dt = 92
  
  

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• Frenchteachermama member

  December 2014

  This just fucking sucks. Sending you a million ((Hugs))

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

  
  

  My FF Chart:

  http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/490dd7
  TTC #3 since June 2013
  BFP #1 7/21/2013--EDD 3/30/14--D&C 9/24/13
  BFP #2 1/28/14--MC 2/7/14
  IUI #1 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
  IUI #2 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN
  IUI #3 5mg Femara + trigger = BFN

  IVF #1, Stimmed for 12 days, ER 8/22/14, 9 retrieved, 7M, 7F!!  Freeze all due to fluid in uterus.

  FET end of October 2014 cancelled due to fluid in uterus due to possible c-scar defect

  Surgery scheduled 12/12/14 to fix possible isthmocele

  3/26/15 transferred one 8 cell grade 4 embryo and one 6 cell grade 3 embryo = slow rising betas for 2+ weeks = ectopic MTX shot 4/29/15

  Repeat c-scar surgery June 2015

  2nd and last IVF cycle August 2015, stimmed for 12 days, 2 egg retrieved, both mature and both fertilized.  Transferred both 8-cell embryos on Day 3, beta 9/5/15 = BFFN

  MOVING TO ADOPTION!  

  
  

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• stephy1221 member

  December 2014

  Hugs hon, sorry you are feeling so low right now. Facing the EDD is so tough, Wish there was something more I could say or do.

           

  
  

  Oct Angel*BFP 1/25/14 * EDD 10/6/14 * US#1 2/26/14 *US#2 3/3/14 no heartbeat*d&c 3/12/14*

  
  

  BFP 1/17/15 * EDD 9/30/15

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• alm288 member

  December 2014

  I'm so sorry - it blows! I was at Christmas markets this weekend watching all the happy families thinking we should be one of them too! I've been over a year on this board and it sucks to not be moving all. Totally understand (((Hugs)))

  TTC: Since July 2013
  BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)

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• Crunkal member

  December 2014

  Sending loads of hugs.

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• ctk181 member

  December 2014

  So many hugs. I'm sorry. The universe sucks sometimes and it is really not fair.

  Married: 4/28/12

  BFP: 7/2/14 ;  1st US 7/21/14 Baby measuring 7w5d, HB of 138;  Discovered MMC 8/18/14 at 11w2d, baby measuring 8w5d, no hb ; 8/19/14 D&C

  
  

  
  

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• PinkCamino member

  December 2014

  So many ((hugs))
  

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• Nikolie93 member

  December 2014

  @blackbird818 that quote touched me  
  
  So sorry you're feeling down, I so wish there was more we could all do to make it better. 

  
  

  I was good all day yesterday with the EDD of my first MC but last night it hit me hard. I realized that I just had one of these 3 weeks ago and it's just not fair, it fucking sucks, for all of us. 

  
  

  more *hugs* to you. 

  I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 

  
  

  
  

  
  

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• bunnybun4 member

  December 2014

  so sorry it is hitting you hard right now.  it all sucks and is unfair.

  

  8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

  -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

  11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

  8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

  IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

  12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

  Everyone Welcome.

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• catvaughn5002 member

  December 2014

  I'm so very sorry.  I know how bad it sucks.  I keep thinking well I would be 3 months pregnant now, would have announced, etc.  I HATE thinking about what could have been.  Just know that you are not alone and you have a wonderful group of ladies that know exactly how you feel.  ((hugs))

  Me: 26 DH:28

  TTC - Sept 2014

  # 1 BFP - October 5, 2014 EDD June 5, 2015 CP - October 14, 2014

  
  
  
  

  
  

  
  

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