Thought it'd be nice to see how everybody is doing Anybody with any unexpected emotions or feelings? Anything that's been surprising to you after meeting your rainbow?
I'm not depressed or concerned about PPD, but I have a lot of tears. A lot. I cry at everything. I cry when I tell John I love him, I cry when DH holds him and says something cute/sweet, I cry when I think about my csection, I cry when I think about my pregnancy. My tears are out of control: ME---> ( I realize my tears are of complete happiness, but it's hard to explain my emotions to anybody else. I think in a way I'm still letting go of past grief and anxiety.
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
Re: 'AL Mommas & Rainbow Babies
My daughter passed from a terminal diagnosis and I recently had a dream that she came to asking why she wasn't here at home too so my guilt can sometimes be too much. I feel like my husband and I constantly check my son to make sure he is ok which is probably a normal new parent thing but sometimes it can get so overwhelming.
@aragosta I'm am so sorry it has been hard on you. Your story is so much different than just a typical loss and I admire you for seeking help. Big hugs my friend and I will continue to include you and your family in my thoughts and prayers, cause you deserve the happiness that comes with your baby.
ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN
@aragosta I agree with @Ashris13. Taking care of yourself is extremely important and I'm glad you were proactive and had a counselor lined up.
@jess123456 ohhh the guilt. I forgot about that, but I have it too. Guilt for my angel babies, guilt for "waiting" to have kids (other irl factors at play here). I wasn't expecting the guilt that I've experienced.
@Ashris13 IF struggles and loss is a huge punch at self-definition. With RPL I was pretty convinced that my rainbow would never get here. It's a strange/unknown area now of not being defined by loss anymore.
(((Hugs))) To everybody.
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart