I miscarried last Tuesday at 10 weeks 2 days. What's been boggling my mind is that the Sunday night prior, I had a dream that I was hemorrhaging and miscarrying. I woke up bawling my eyes out because I was so freaked out. My husband reassured me it was JUST a dream. Well that morning when I woke up, I started spotting. He's a physician and wasn't overly concerned. Even called my GP and she wasn't concerned either. However, I just had a feeling that something was wrong. What made things even worse was that I had a job interview the next day (the Tuesday I miscarried). That was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through in my life. Right after my interview, I went to the hospital to get an U/S and blood work. (I had an U/S done at 6 weeks at HcG was 35,000 and heart beat was seen). Anyways, the U/S showed an empty sac and my HcG levels at a measly 12,000
. I am completely devastated and heart broken. I have been crying since. Sometimes I feel like I am getting stronger..and then my emotions just kick in out of nowhere and I'll start to cry. I now notice pregnancies everywhere and even one of my best friends is pregnant (our babies would have been 5 months apart had I not MC). I am SO SO worried to get pregnant again because I don't want to have to go through another miscarriage but I so badly want to get pregnant again (and will try as soon as it is okay for me to). Any advice or words of wisdom would be appreciated. In honour of my little peanut, I named a star after him/her through the star registry. Now every time I see the Big Dipper, I will know my peanut is watching over us.