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AW: Advice for Shooting Oneself

So I was all pepped up to just do this thing and not have to tell everyone about it. But by the time I was blubbering, crying, and laughing at once...I figured I needed to share info/advice for anyone else who finds herself in a similar situation. :)

Chapter 1: The Positive and Negative Effects of Lake Effect Snow on Infertility.
Pro: Great excuse for coming in for CD3 ultrasound appointment 30 minutes late even though I just slept through the alarm - scariest wake up moment ever!
Con: Planning and driving a route to get meds last-minute through the driving bans.

Chapter 2: You Know You're an IF-er When.
Bumping all evening but you forget to take your first Bravelle shot until 10pm.
Great, now 10 days of staying up way past my bedtime.

Chapter 3: Yes, It Hurts.
WT... how much can one stupid vial burn? Oh, the tears! The shouts! The battle with willpower to push that syringe pusher (sorry not a nurse here) all the way in! And then the sinking realization that 3 cycles of this means doing this 30+ more times before Valentine's Day. Then nausea, dizziness, and a near-fainting spell...can't wait for the next one.

Chapter 4: Milk It For All It's Worth.
Stumbling onto the bed for a cryfest, bloody cotton ball held pitiably, cold exposed belly smarting and red...DH didn't stand a chance.
Our conversations:

DH: Shoot me [he's not a native English speaker, that means 'give me a shot too'], it will make you feel better!
Me: The shot doesn't really hurt, it's the burning medicine.
DH: You said insurance pays for it, right? Go ahead, I will be fine!
Pause....
DH: Wait, what will it do to me?

Me: I can't believe I have to do this, like 30 more times before IVF!
DH: I will buy you 30 roses.
Me: You think my suffering tonight is worth one rose?
Pause...
DH: Well, you are saving medicine for later!
Me: So you're saying your wife should be tortured with burning needles to save money for the family?

DH: Try your butt!
Me: What?
DH: Shoot your butt tomorrow! It will not hurt.
Me: Then why did you whine and complain about your hCG butt shots?
DH: It's not manly.

Me: [changing into PJs] Oh, look at this, poor me! Big red shot in my tummy and a bandaid from the bloodwork.
DH: Hm. Nice body, though. That's kind of sexy. [?!?]
January 3T Siggy Challenge - New Year's Resolutions
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Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
Planning to start IVF in March!
***All Welcome***

Re: AW: Advice for Shooting Oneself

  • Sorry about the burning! However, you just made me crack up! I needed that after my day today. Thank you for sharing! Better luck tomorrow!
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  • DSculley1824DSculley1824 member
    edited November 2014
    Can this continue on past chapter 4? It was a good bedtime read. Ok, ok, in all seriousness now. I'm so sorry! I totally feel for you. Nothing about injecting yourself is fun...especially if it bleeds and it's cold out. And ugh lake effect snow can go away. It's only November! Snuggle up in bed, get all warm and cozy and try to have a good nights sleep :)

    Edited: Hit enter before I was done!

    ***SIGGY WARNING***

    Me (26) & DH (26)
    Dog Momma to 2 amazing furbabies
    Started dating: May 6, 2005 & Married: August 4, 2012
    Diagnosis: PCOS


    September 2013 - January 2014: Not trying but not preventing
    February 2014:
    Officially TTC (BBT, OPKs, etc)
    February-August 2014: Irregular Cycles, U/S showed Fibroids/Cysts, Provera required to get AF, BFNs
    September & October 2014: Testing Months with Reproductive Endocrinologist!
    DH's SA: Normal (116.4 million sperm, 97% motility, 36% morphology) - WHO criteria
    DH's Repeat SA: Poss. Low Morph. (138 million sperm, 73% motility, 8% morphology) - Kruger criteria
    HSG and SIS: Normal (tubes clear)

    Medicated Cycle:
     5mg Letrozole + Trigger Injection + TI = BFP!!

    ESTIMATED DUE DATE: AUGUST 13, 2015

    Beta #1: 12/8 - 1,040 Beta #2: 12/10 - 2,902 Beta #3: 12/16 - 19,321
    Ultrasound #1: 12/12 (5 weeks 1 day) - Gestational sac and yolk sac present
    Ultrasound #2: 12/18 (6 weeks 0 days) - Measuring good, heart rate 99
    Ultrasound #3: 12/26 (7 weeks 1 day) - Measuring good, heart rate 150




  • @rainbowbridge14 I only take 1 vial for the first 3 days, but that's where a lot of the blubbering came from - knowing it will probably get much worse even. :(

    Filling the ice tray now, thank you so much!!
    January 3T Siggy Challenge - New Year's Resolutions
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • Oh bunny I'm so sorry but that really was a great story. I really thinking icing the site will help...it did make the Menopur injections more bearable. YH is so cute to offer to take the injection with you.
    Me: +35 DH: +35
    TTC: Since January 2013 
    DX: PCOS. Severe Endometriosis, Unicornuate Uterus w/only left tube and left ovary, Pedunculated fibroid (on the outside of uterus) and Anovulation. All conditions diagnosed 8/13
    TX: Metformin
    DH DX: MFI - low morphology, low motility
    Ultrasound shows both kidneys in spite of UU. 
    HSG showed clear tube on the left side. 
    Lap Surgery performed 1/9/14 to remove fibroid and endo (Stage 3)
    • IUI# 1 June 2014 started 100 mg of Clomid - 7dpiui Progesterone: 13: BFN
    • IUI#2  July 2014 started 100 mg of Clomid - 7dpiui Progesterone: 5.75: BFN
    • Natural Cycle - so shocked to be in 2WW - 7dpo Progesterone: 15.5: BFN
    • Working with new RE starting injectables in late August.
    • IUI #3 August 2014  w/ Menopur: BFN
    • Finally ovulating on my own!!
    Waiting to start IVF hopefully
    **********All Are Welcome**************
    3T January Siggy Challenge: New Year's Resolution
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  • This story was the best thing to wake up to. Thank you for sharing! YH is absolutely adorable :)
    On another note, I wish it really was just a story, and I am sorry that the shot burned. I really really hope that you don't have to do 30 more of these!!
    ****SIGGY WARNING****

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    TTC since May 2013

    Me: 31, blocked tube
    DH: 35, azoospermia :(
    IUI #1 (50 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 9/7/2014: BFN
    IUI #2 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 10/3/2014:
    BFN
    IUI #3 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel, Estradiol) on 11/1/2014: BFN
    First RE appt. on 11/11/2014
    November 2014: Benched due to cyst :(
    IUI #4 (5 mg Letrozole, Follistim, Ovidrel, Crinone) on 12/26/2014: BFP!!!
    Beta 1 (1/9/2015): 292     Beta 2 (1/12/2015): 843


  • I'm so sorry for the burning with the shot!  But thanks for the story.  YH sounds too cute!  I love how flustered they get when they're trying to make us feel better but just don't quite know what to say, and we're in a mood so we very nicely turn everything back on them...marriage and IF are fun :)

    Hope you're feeling better and the shots get better (sorry if that's a stupid thing to say, I know nothing about them...)

    Me: 31 (PCOS) possible right tube issues DH: 36 (SA normal) 
    Started dating in 2006, Married 2012 
    TTC since November 2013 
    First RE visit due to irregular periods: June 2014
    Lap/Hysto to remove polyps, cyst and tube blockage 11/6
    Cycle 1 (Dec. 2014) TI with Clomid, Trigger, & Progesterone CX due to no response
    Impatiently Waiting CD1 to try again with Fermara Back on the bench due to giant cyst,
    who know I'd ovulate on my own after a cancelled cycle and end up with a mega cyst :(
    All Welcome
     
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  • This cracked me up. I really am sorry that you had a crappy night.... but at least you can laugh about it today..... RIGHT??? ;-)

    Married 5.21.2011

    TTC Since October 2012

    Me: 36, all normal, DH: 43, MFI

    IUI #1 & #2 - Sept & Oct 2014, BFN

    IVF with ICSI #1 January 2015 - BFP, M/C Feb 2015

    FET June 2015 = CP

    IVF #2 September 2015 - Discovered during ER I had ovulated early, 0 retrieved

    IVF with ICSI #3 January 2016 - BFP! Beta #1 - 839, Beta #2 - 3,192, Beta #3 - 15,000+ = TWINS!

    EDD 10/12/16

    BabyFruit Ticker
  • I am so sorry it hurt, but gosh, I loved everything about your convo with YH. I was laughing so hard that DH asked what I was laughing at. When I explained, he looked at me and asked if I was going to do that when we started up our next protocol. I just looked at him all innocent  O:-) and said no. 

    I hope next time is not to bad and if it is, I vote for chapter 4! :D
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
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    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • This put a smile on my face, thanks for sharing @bunnyberry. YH sounds sweet.

    Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).

    We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).

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  • Haha aww Bunny, I'm so sorry for the pain!!! That was a great story though and YH sounds awesome. I love that you were able to find humor in a negative experience, that's so important in life. I hope the shots get easier somehow!

    Me: 27 DH: 35

    TTC #1 Since July 2013

    Started RE Testing July 2014

    2 HSG tests: Right tube is blocked, possible endo.

    TSH elevated, started Synthroid 25 mg daily.

    October, 2014: Femara 5 mg + TI ---> 3 follies on blocked tube side ---> BFN

    November, 2014: Femara + Ovidrel + IUI#1--2 follies (on the good side), 46 mil. motile sperm=BFN

    Nov-Dec 2014: Femara + Ovidrel + IUI #2 (1 follie, 76 mil. motile sperm) + Endometrin=BFN

    January, 2014: Femara + Ovidrel + IUI #3 (1 follie, 38 mil. motile sperm)=???

    New RE appt. scheduled for 1/14.


    3T January Siggy Challenge: New Years Resolutions

    Mine: Lose the weight I put on from booze and cookies over Christmas.

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  • Oh Bunny I am so sorry it burns so bad. I love how the two of you talk to each other! it is so stinking cute.
    Me 36 Hypothyroid DH 35 Low T, treatment Clomid
    NTNP 1/2013
    SA Results: nothing to count...
    MFI RE 2/14/2014 Rx Clomid
    TTC 4/26/2014
    6/25/2014 DH Low T 132 Switched to Chorionic Gonadotropin hCG injections 2x wk
    7/15/2014 DH Testosterone check 607!
    8/15/2014 DH new SA 1 MILLION!!!!!!
    11/20/2014 DH new SA 2 Million
    DH continues treatment while moving towards Foster to Adopt


    Trying to Conceive Ticker
  • Thanks for sharing! I so needed something to make me feel better today!
    Married: 12/15/2012    TTC: 08/2014
    Husband: 26 SA: normal
    Me: 23 Low AMH and damaged ovaries due to chemotherapy.
    No AF or O in 3 years. HSG showed a slight T shaped uterus.

    High Risk OB 9/29- got the ok to get pregnant.
    RE Appt:  10/28/ U/S showed follicles, but also small damaged ovaries.
    B/W results CD0: all normal except low AMH at 1.3
    Cycle 1-November (TI)- Femera 2.5mg, 2mg Estradoil, and Trigger=BFN
    Cycle 2-December (TI)- Femera 2.5 mg ,4mg Estradoil, and Trigger= No O
    Cycle 3-January (TI)- Femera 5 mg, 2mg Estra
    doil, and Trigger=


  • Bwahaha!!! I love it! 

    I was a little worried at first! ;-) 

    Good luck this cycle!! I think injects is the big step that helps a lot of people!! :-D 
    **siggy warning**  **everyone welcome**

    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
    DS- 11.07.02
    DSS- 6.26.04
    Married- 6.29.13
    TTC Again- Sept. 2013
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
    Test Results/Diagnosis- HSG & SA totally normal
    DX: 3/2014 Prolactinoma/Hyperprolactinemia- Started cabergoline 2/2014
    5/2014 Possible mild PCOS in addition to hyperprolactinemia??
    7/2014 Adding probable tubal factor to the diagnosis list
    9/2014 And now adding hypothyroid to the list- Started synthroid 9/2014
    Cycles 1-4 - Sept.-March- All Anovulatory 
    IUI #1 March/April-  Clomid 50mg + Clomid 100mg +Trigger + IUI #1 = BFN
     IUI #2 April/May-Clomid 100mg + Clomid 150mg + Trigger + IUI #2 + Endometrin=BFN
    IUI #3- June- Follistim 75iu + Trigger + IUI #3  Benched due to a 40 mm cyst. :-(
    IUI #3- July- Follistim 75iu + Trigger + IUI #3 + Endometrin = BFP! on 7/25/14
    Slowly rising betas - Ectopic suspected on 8/8/14 & confirmed on 8/11/14
    Methotrexate on 8/12/14 -HCG negative on 9/2/14
    IVF #1- November- Antagonist protocol: 11/1: start stims, 200iu of Follistim; 11/12 ER 17R/14M/14F; 11/17 5 day transfer of two blasts, 2 blasts and 2 expanding morulas frozen; 11/22 BFP!! (On FRER at 5dp5dt)
    Betas: 9dp5dt 205, 11dp5dt 497, 14dp5dt 1,709
    u/s at 5w0d- 1 sac; u/s at 6w0d 1 baby with heartbeat, another sac without a heartbeat
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  • I am sorry the shot hurt so much! Your storytelling, though, is amazing - DH & I were both laughing out loud.
    Me (33), PCOS. Bloodwork normal, AMH slightly high, HSG clear 
    DH (40) SA good 
    Trying since 1/2012, RE 6/2014 
    Letrozole & TI June 2014-September 2014 -BFN
    October 2014 - IUI #1, lertozole - BFN
    November 2014 - IUI cancelled due to holiday, TI & Lertozole - BFN
    December 2014 - TI 
    January 2015 - IUI #2 - ?

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