Sorry I have been MIA quick ?

mrskimmell · November 2014

I haven't been on in what feels like for ever! Been so over whelmed, I have been trying so hard to stop by and post every once and a while but I know it hasn't been enough I am SO SORRY! I hope every one has been doing well lately! Enjoying the weather change maybe?! (Not me, no way no how! please bring summer back?!) ANYWHO! So I had a question this is a feeling I haven't yet been faced with. We have been TTC for 25 months. Only recently diagnosed with Endo in Sept, and had surgery in Oct. Had a funky ovulation cycle in Oct, but things seemed to have settled down. Had a super SUPER short ovulation window 2 ish days (is that normal?) this month. I am not suppose to test until the 20th, and well ok I am weak and I tested this morning any way. As I have an overstock of sticks under my bathroom sink and I seriously have been walking around my house putting my hands on my stomach and praying to God whole heartily and in my religion any way "speaking this into existence" saying "please there someone be in there" am I crazy for doing this? should I be sad that I tested so early and got a neg? should I even bother caring what that test said? In Feb we are moving from N.C. to T.X. (any ladies in the sanger, lake dallas, fort worth, area?!) I know I am rushing but we will lose the insurance we have no my husband will be changing jobs and I will be out of a job for a while until I can find something so I have no clue what insurance I will have or what they will cover. I just want this to happen before we move. I'm feeling so desperate? I'm not really sure I am not at all use to these feelings I have no clue where I am at... I see my RE next month on the 3rd, he said if I am not KU by then we have to start some sort of other treatment. I just can't keep trying the wait and see. I have no clue. Sorry if this is all over the place. Any advice or anything really would be amazing. Thank you guys for being outstanding and helping out so much, even for a slacker like me who hasn't been around nearly enough!

LindseyM2012 · November 2014

I'm sorry you're in a rough place right now. I don't think you're crazy for hoping, wishing, praying, etc. We all do that in our own way. We all go through these ups and downs. IF is hard, it makes so many of us feel so vulnerable and helpless and it seems like it is hitting you hard right now. It is normal to care what the tests say, because you clearly want a positive so badly.

The good news: you have an RE appointment on the books in two and a half weeks. That means you'll probably get one or two cycles in before you move. Have you already done the battery of tests when you got diagnosed with endo?

Another piece of good news: Texas is one of the states that mandates some IF coverage (mostly IVF), so you may want to see if your husband can find out what his new insurance will be and do some research. I don't see why his new employer wouldn't be able to give him the name of their insurance carrier. From https://www.ncsl.org/research/health/insurance-coverage-for-infertility-laws.aspx :

Tex. Insurance Code Ann. § 1366.001 et seq. (1987, 2003) requires that all health insurers offer and make available coverage for services and benefits for expenses incurred or prepaid for outpatient expenses that may arise from in vitro fertilization procedures. In order to qualify for in vitro fertilization services, the couple must have a history of infertility for at least five years or have specified medical conditions resulting in infertility. The law includes exemptions for religious employers.

AnonymousNurse · November 2014

Sorry you're having a tough time. Some of what you said is confusing me, though. What do you mean by a 2-day ovulation window? How are you tracking your cycle? How many DPO are you?

BunnyBerry · November 2014

I definitely spent a recent IUI cycle holding my belly and imagining there was somebody in there! I don't think it's crazy. It turned out to be a little sad and made me bitter when the cycle failed so I haven't wanted to hold to or talk to my belly since that cycle...but it's tempting, because I also think, what if there is someone there and I've missed a week or two of getting to know her/him?

I hope you have success quickly, but sometimes waiting is all we can do until the right cycle comes along.

Hope you end up with great IF coverage if needed!!

If you mean you had just 2 days of OPK+, that's totally normal. Or if Fertility Friend gave you just 2 green days for probable O, that's normal too - it just means they think you're more regular. My cycle after surgery, FF just gave me 2 days for predicting AF and 2 days for predicting O, I guess because it's based on recent cycles and so they were just looking at maybe one or two recent ovulatory cycles after my long surgery cycle on BC pills?

Hopefully taking care of the endo will make the difference you need!

Want a personalized experience?

Sorry I have been MIA quick ?

Re: Sorry I have been MIA quick ?

Choose Another Board

Search Boards