Induction tonight - scared

runningmama22 · November 2014

Hi ladies,
I know I don't post a ton.. Have been trying to a little more lately! I'm just posting this because I'm scared... My blood pressure was high yesterday, high this morning, and the OB said "ok, time for baby to come out! Your body is done being pregnant and baby is safer out than in." ... Im 39wks and 5 days today. I'm supposed to call at 7:30 tonight to get my instructions to come in to the hospital for induction. I'm scared because.. Well 4836473875 reasons, but mostly because my cervix isn't quite "there" yet (1-2cm, 50% dilated, and soft) and they have to place cervadil overnight. Idk why I have this irrational fear of this cervadil, but I'm really scared!! Any words of advice would be much appreciated... I'm doing this alone (mom will be there and then best friend will come for the "fun" part tomorrow) but I've been kind of quietly in fear all day. I really like the post with all the encouraging phrases, have been looking at those a bit today... Sorry I'm rambling, thanks for reading, it's really just this damn cervadil that has me terrified.

kstirton · November 2014

YAY!!!! You'll be meeting your baby tomorrow!! THAT IS SO EXCITING! Try to focus on that. Everything will be JUST FINE, your doctor knows what they are doing!

Autumnsnow · November 2014

I don't have any advice but right now I'm waiting for them to start the cervadil. They are just letting me eat something first. I can try and keep you posted in how it's working for me. I'm barely dilated.. Only a fingertip. I'm trying to keep calm and just keep telling myself that I'll finally get to see my munchkin. Good luck and hope things go smoothly for you.

schrijiver · November 2014

I was induced last week. I didn't need cervadil bc I was already far enough dilated. Start to finish it took a little less than 13 hours. The only tough part was the 45 minutes between them breaking my water and asking to get the epi. You will be fine and you will get to see your LO soon!! T&P for you!!

runningmama22 · November 2014

@Autumnsnow‌ good luck to you!! Ok we are both going through this tonight... I will try to update too! Don't feel like you have to though if you can't, we can compare notes later too! I think my doctor expects me to "sleep" some tonight. The worst part of pregnancy for me has been cervical checks, so I'm just like terrified of things near the cervix... Blah!!

@schrijiver thank you for the encouraging words!! Seeing LO will all be worth it... I'm hoping by the time they break my water maybe I'll already have an epidural, but ya know, hard to "plan" anything when it comes to labor it seems!!

runningmama22 · November 2014

@kstirton‌ thank you for that!! I am excited, I am going to try to keep focused on that feeling as much as possible versus the fear, and maybe it will help! I hope so

runningmama22 · November 2014

@wildflower810 thank you!! I do have some music on the iPhone ready to go... Pillow is in the car with a navy pillowcase so it doesn't get mixed up with hospital stuff... Pictures are a good idea!! I'm going to go look for some.

CarrieAnne09 · November 2014

You can do it!! I've never been through labour or induction but just remember the amazing prize on the other end. Also remember everything you're going through is temporary. Once it's done it's over and you get a beautiful baby!!

phdprocrastinator · November 2014

I'm looking at an induction sometime this weekend. I have no advice on how it will be - this will be my first, too! - but I've been told to expect to be super bored in the beginning as you're just waiting for the meds to do what they need to do. This makes me think that I won't be in too much pain if my friends have been reading during the cervadil portion of the induction.

Bring reading materials!

Autumnsnow · November 2014

I was just going to say what @NinerGirl52‌ said. It looks like a flat paper tampon. Don't know it will be the same for you but it stung when she was putting it. My cervix is really high and she said not open at all. She's really little so (tmi) she really had to get in there to get to the cervix. After that it was fine lol. You don't feel it in there. Can't get up or drink for 2 hrs and its in for 12 hrs.

runningmama22 · November 2014

Thank you ladies!!! And the hospital just called - not happening until TOMORROW now. Nothing like getting all psyched up and then bumped. Kind of annoyed but everything for a reason I guess, so frustrating.

Stephaniegiboney · November 2014

@‌runningmama22

I was not induced but was hospitalized for pre term labor before delivering. I felt the same way, I was SO scared at each step of the way. But after I got through a step, (dilating enough to have my water broken, epidural, pushing, stitches, etc) I would say "that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be". Just trust the medical staff and I promise you will get through it and you will be so proud of yourself and so happy to meet the LO.

smboswell1 · November 2014

I was also induced at 50% and 1 cm. They gave me a pill and it wasn't bad! You will probably have some contractions over night, buf they won't be too bad! Good luck!!

runningmama22 · November 2014

@carrieanne09 thank you!! good perspective, trying to keep it!

@phdprocrastinator, I spoke too soon, I am on for tomorrow now or Saturday if they bump me again... the nurse just called from L&D and said when the weather gets like this they always have more women come in... it's a cold front, not sure really what it has to do with anything, but now I have another day to be anxious... blah!! I will try to find some reading materials. I blew through 3 books last weekend because I was trying to kill time... need to find some new ones.

@ninergirl52 thank you for sharing your own experience!! Ok, now that I know what it is it sounds a little less scary. My doctor didn't explain what it was... but "cervadil" just sounded like horror to me, since cervix anything is bad these days!! I didn't know they could do multiple rounds of it - that's good to know. I now have to go in tomorrow, either morning or evening, won't know until morning. But if it's two rounds potentially, I guess either morning or night would be ok... She asked me what my preference was, and I just said "as soon as there's room"... sigh.

@OLJ1010 thank you!! Thank you for sharing your experience... that makes me feel better too. It's good to hear that it works for some people, and that so many people actually go through it. It was never how I expected things to go... my mom had her water break as first sign of labor with all babies, and she was early every time too, so it's just not the picture I had in my mind. I'm sure I'm not the only one who that happens to though.... none of this labor stuff seems to go according to any one particular plan!

@autumnsnow ok, stinging I can deal with... and that's awesome if you can't feel it when it's in!! I almost wish my OB had shown me what it looks like today - might have scared me less, possibly. I'm now on for tomorrow instead because they were "full" tonight. Nurse called at 6:30 before I could even call in as instructed at 7:30... sooo I'm sitting here another night at home just waiting. I hope they don't bump me tomorrow, because there was actual reason for inducing, with the high BP, so I'm a little worried about that now (I'm sure thats just great for the BP!! lol)... I am thinking about you tonight and hope everything is smooth and easy and amazing for you!!

I am obsessed with your signature gif btw. Where is that from!! I have never seen it before since I always mobile bump. Lol. It is amazing.

Stephaniegiboney thank you for sharing that.... that's a great way to look at it, and it's a really helpful reminder to me. I always have a tendency to look at everything as a huge issue that needs to be fixed/solved/resolved NOW, and breaking it down into pieces makes it so much more manageable, especially when it's totally out of my control. I do trust my docs, so that's a plus...

KatieKarasin I COULD, but BD and I aren't together so that might be awkward. If he was a normal human being I'd call him and tell him to come take care of his fatherly duty - HAH jk - but we aren't really very close now...

smboswell1 thank you!! Ok, that sounds similar to how my cervix is from what I've been told... Hopefully it isn't too awful. I'm going in tomorrow now

They just bumped me since it's "full" in L&D tonight apparently..