*~September Sapphires Check-In~* (Nov 11th)

Re: *~September Sapphires Check-In~* (Nov 11th)

• ashlee113085 member

  November 2014

  Thanks for the check-in @eliida! How are you doing this week? Have you had any luck in your job search?

  
  

  So I actually talked to my doctor yesterday and she was very supportive and listened to my fears and explained a little bit about the test. Since I am in my 2ww, she said that I should make sure that I take a hpt before going to my appt, just in case. She also said that in her practice there are super specialists for hysteroscopy if we do find some scar tissue, so that I can stay within her practice. It makes me feel a little bit better, I'm still really nervous though. At least with all of this other stuff, I don't have time to overanalyze any "symptoms" in my 2ww . 

  
  

  On another note, I had been seeing a therapist, but she really wasn't helping me that much. I actually felt like I was getting more depressed. So, I got a referral for a psychologist who works a lot with pregnancy loss. I have my first appointment on November 22. I am pretty excited to see how that goes. Anyway, not much else going on. I am hosting everyone in my family over for Thanksgiving this year, so I am trying to practice. If anyone needs some hearty comfort food, I will be cooking up a storm the next few days!

  
  

  ((hugs)) to all of you ladies. I know it's been rough and I hope that this week is much better!

  
  

  QOTW: That's a really difficult question! I admire all of the teachers that I work with. They are incredible and do such great work. 

  
  

  
  

  

  
  
  
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• purplehaze11 member

  November 2014

  Thanks for the check in @eliida‌ . The pain has been a little better lately, although work is still crazy. Just counting down until surgery and trying to keep myself busy until then.

  DD 15.07.2012

  BFP #2 01.18.2014, MMC 04.10.2014 15w5d

  BFP #3 07.18.2014, MC 07.31.2014 5w6d

  DX: RPL due to submucosal uterine fibroid. Hysteroscopy 12/16. All clear!

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• eliida member

  November 2014

  @ashlee113085 I'm so glad that you were able to talk to your doctor and alleviate some of your concerns. I'm proud of you for finding a new psychologist. That first step into therapy can be so difficult that often many of us resign ourselves to continuing to see someone when it isn't working or quitting completely. Kudos on taking this next step for yourself. BTW--I always do a practice run before cooking for big events, too!

  
  

  @LauraO11 I wish I had a way to speed up the clock for you. FX crossed you'll be able to keep busy. I can't remember--are you in the US or Canada? If it's the US, do you have any plans for Thanksgiving?

  
  

  AFM, I have my first appointment with my new doctor tomorrow. I'm pretty excited and trying not to build it up too much. I know that she doesn't have a magic wand, but she might? Really, though, I'm just relieved for the opportunity to talk to someone new about all this.

  
  

  QOTW: Generally, I admire people who are able to see the best in others and accept them for themselves. I can be really sensitive sometimes and take things personally that I shouldn't. Lately I've been working on this and trying to learn from friends who know how to just take people for who they are.

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• megrae12 member

  November 2014

  Hi, ladies! Thanks for the check in @eliida, I hope you are well. 

  
  

  We decided to take a med break for the next two cycles. When they started talking about the new protocol, I started having a mild panic attack. There is no rest for the weary (or the grieving) in IF. I just couldn't handle it. So we talked and decided to NTNP. Mom is doing ok. She will need to be on IV antibiotics til at least the end of this month. MIL is doing ok. She started radiation so it's sapping her strength. 

  
  

  **OPP mentioned***

  
  

  
  

  On a completely horrible note, about two days after this loss, we found H's cousin (who is like his sister) is pg with her second. I lost it, ugly cried for a long time. It was bad. So bad, in fact, that H declared we did not have to see them for Christmas. I am glad and I wonder if I should feel bad for that. I just had now idea how I was going to deal with Christmas with them. 

  
  

  QOTW: The person I admire most is my mom. She is literally the strongest person I know. She has been through hell and back and always, despite the odds, finds ways  to survive. I want to be like that. I want her indomitable spirit.  

  

  

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  DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!

  BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 

  Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 

  Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP

  BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15

  On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

  
  

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• eliida member

  November 2014

  @megrae12‌ You are strong. The way you support others while managing your own grief inspires me. In regards to the holidays, you have nothing to feel bad about. I'm already dreading it myself. You sound relieved to take a brief step back. I hope this gives you time to grieve and de-stress.

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