Deep breathe... This IS real life! (Intro)

Feegan · November 2014

First and foremost, I can't even begin to thank the TTCAL ladies for all their love and support over the last six months, especially my November and IF check-in ladies that were rocks for me through some incredibly dark moments along the way. All you ladies over at TTCAL are all so wonderful and kind and caring and I just can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me just by being there, anytime I needed you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

It's taken me a week and three doubling-beautifully beta's to find the courage to intro over here, but I think I finally believe that this is real life and I am indeed pregnant again. This was our fourth IUI since our loss in late April, which was a MMC at 9 weeks. I was 100% convinced I was out this cycle and only tested because a friend talked me in to it. I started to throw the FRER in the trash before it even had a full minute to sit there, thinking "who am I kidding," when I saw the second line I've been dreaming of since our loss. I then spent five minutes repeatedly looking at myself in the mirror, looking down at the test, and looking back at myself in the mirror again. A beta later confirmed I wasn't seeing things. DH and I just keep looking at each other with these big stupid grins. We are so thankful and I have been focusing on celebrating every day of this pregnancy, in a way I was never able to with the last. "Today I am pregnant!"

I am so looking forward to getting to know you ladies and reconnecting with some of the graduates from TTCAL I "met" during my time there. Thank you all in advance for your ears, your support, and your stories, because they gave me hope every time I lurked over here.

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