XP: I think the time has come :( (long)

QuigleyCat1 · November 2014

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Hello my beautiful friends. I want to apologize because I've been extremely absent on the boards lately and it's not because I'm too busy or because I don't care. It's because I've been trying to get up the courage to finally say goodbye. :,) This is very hard for me. TTCAL, TTCAL+6, PgAL, and my month boards have all been a part of me for the past three years and somewhat of a "home" to me. I don't take saying goodbye lightly. I have been given courage, strength, love, laughs and most importantly, support from all of you. I can only hope that I've given a sliver of that back to you all. There isn't a day that has gone by that I don't stop and remember what you all did for me with the Sunshine Mission. We all still use things purchased with the gift cards and so forth. I still look through all of my cards and trinkets from time to time that I keep in a special box along with Liam's hand and footprints. As you know, he will be remembered for our lifetime.

As for my husband and I...we are okay and settled with the fact of no more TTC. He knows that if it ever crosses his mind that he has promised to have that conversation. I think (at least for me) many moms keep that door open if but for the tiniest bit. I do not expect our minds to change and in fact I am very much alright with continuing our lives just as we are. In the last several months I've felt myself let go of the expectation. It no longer rules my life. It is something that I will never forget yearning for. It will always be a part of me. It'll always be my "what if". But if that's my ONLY "what if", then I think I may be in for a very sad future. I don't want to be sad forever. I want to enjoy my little family and all of my friends with no regrets. I have to! And what's more is that I WANT to enjoy it! Just a few weeks ago we adopted a retired racing greyhound. Her name is Punzie and, along with my DH, DS and Biscuit, has brought me so much joy. She is not a replacement for anyone or anything, but instead she is a focus for us and a very bright spot in our lives. I told my husband that I felt the need to rescue something, anything because I couldn't save Liam. Punzie provided me that opportunity. She's so sweet and we love her so much. So our family is complete with humans and non-humans! And we step forward to what our future holds for us.....

As for those of you who have ever supported me I can never repay you. Your words and actions have shown me what life is about. It's about being there for those who are in need. I promise to pay this forward in whatever ways that I can. I don't know how to hit the Post Discussion button to finalize these thoughts. I know that I'll check in from time to time and chime in, but I wanted to say a proper goodbye because this is no longer where I "belong". I owed it to you all to gather the courage for this post. I've come so very far from when we lost Liam, and it is largely due to these boards. So I thank you from the bottom of my heart, EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU! There were even some of you that went above and beyond...you know who you are...and I love you. Now I'm crying so I think that's my signal to hit the Post Discussion button.

You are all in my constant prayers for whatever life is holding for you.

Always on my mind, forever in my heart you all will be..........

jennlin · November 2014

I was actually just thinking about you yesterday. So glad you are doing well. Enjoy the heck out of your family, and know that we won't forget you, either!

deedee1017 · November 2014

It is so nice to hear from you. Please continue to check in. You belonged here and you will always have a place here with us. You are a part of the wolfpack. I believe whatever higher being you believe in has a plan for all of us. Sometimes it's not easy to understand where we have been, why we have been there or where we are going, but I trust that we always end up where we are supposed to be.

Thank you for sharing your journey with us. Thank you for updating us. Thank you for making us a part of your life. I am happy to have known you in one way or another.

I wish you and your family all the best. May all the wonderful things you deserve find their way to you. Lots of love, hugs, thoughts and prayers to you and yours.

Amjoy25 · November 2014

Crying at work is frowned upon, but it's happening.

Good luck to you! I will always think of the QCat as the MOST brave bumpie I have ever had to pleasure to not meet.

Enjoy your life, and your new endeavors, as you have so much to contribute!

Hugs. Best Wishes.

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huntjul · November 2014

Thanks so much for being a part of O13 and coming in to post this. I hope that you continue to find some peace in your life, as much as is possible. It sounds like the conclusions you've come to are the right ones for you and your DH.

Congrats also on the greyhound adoption. They are lovely dogs, and I have always considered adopting one (just cats so far though).

Hugs to you, Quigley. Many hugs.

taylormarie923 · November 2014

Sending my hugs to you. Take care and come back and check in with us from time to time because we will always be thinking of you.

KerCo51 · November 2014

I was just thinking about you this morning and wondering how you are doing. Thanks for giving us an update of your life. I wish you so much happiness and I continue to be amazed by your strength.

ajjf1026 · November 2014

I think about you often @QuigleyCat1‌. You are so strong & we are honored to have someone so special as apart of our Wolfpack. You are always welcome here. Anytime. We love you. Take care.

megs1409 · November 2014

I think of you and Liam often. You have amazed me with your courage and bravery. You've shown strength that I didn't think would be possible. I wish you and your family happiness and best wishes for all of your endeavors. Best wishes and hugs!

Flutterby00 · November 2014

So glad you stopped in and gave us an update, I think of your family every so often. I'm glad to hear you are doing well, many blessings to you!

acethebase · November 2014

I will keep your family in my thoughts and prayers! Thank you for keeping us updated. Take care of yourself and big hugs to you!

bionicb · November 2014

Hugs! Just know you are never far from our thoughts and are always in our hearts.

Peace and love to you and your beautiful family.

Jalee85 · November 2014

You have always been so brave and strong. Your words are always so moving I think of you and your family often. I am glad you feel that your family is complete now and enjoy every minute of it. Will never forget you!

5speckledfrogs · November 2014

I'm happy you've found a happy place! May in continue forever

bkeane619 · November 2014

(((Hugs Quigley))) wishing you and your family all the best.

egsquared · November 2014

I think of you and your family often, Quigley. I'm so glad to hear that you are finding peace. Many continued prayers and ((((hugs))))!

Shortie24 · November 2014

I also think about you and your sweet Liam. Thank you for posting an update. I wish you and your family nothing but the best in the future. You will always be apart of O13. :::hugs:::

shelley1002 · November 2014

Best wishes. Sounds like you have a great outlook.

cassey910 · November 2014

Wishing you the best! Hugs!

MissLauraPants · November 2014

I'm so glad I popped in here to see your post. I wish you everything but the best. Your story and journey with us last year will always be remembered. I think about it often and how it touched me. I'm so glad to hear that you rescued a greyhound. If you need this board it will be here.

Inn2 · November 2014

You will be missed. I wish you and your family all the very best.

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