TTC After a Loss

XP: I think the time has come :,) (long)

*DS mentioned

*

*
*
*

Hello my beautiful friends. I want to apologize because I've been extremely absent on the boards lately and it's not because I'm too busy or because I don't care.  It's because I've been trying to get up the courage to finally say goodbye.  :,)  This is very hard for me.  TTCAL, TTCAL+6, PgAL, and my month boards have all been a part of me for the past three years and somewhat of a "home" to me.  I don't take saying goodbye lightly.  I have been given courage, strength, love, laughs and most importantly, support from all of you.  I can only hope that I've given a sliver of that back to you all.  There isn't a day that has gone by that I don't stop and remember what you all did for me with the Sunshine Mission.  We all still use things purchased with the gift cards and so forth.  I still look through all of my cards and trinkets from time to time that I keep in a special box along with Liam's hand and footprints.  As you know, he will be remembered for our lifetime.

As for my husband and I...we are okay and settled with the fact of no more TTC.  He knows that if it ever crosses his mind that he has promised to have that conversation.  I think (at least for me) many moms keep that door open if but for the tiniest bit.  I do not expect our minds to change and in fact I am very much alright with continuing our lives just as we are.  In the last several months I've felt myself let go of the expectation.  It no longer rules my life.  It is something that I will never forget yearning for.  It will always be a part of me.  It'll always be my "what if".  But if that's my ONLY "what if", then I think I may be in for a very sad future.  I don't want to be sad forever.  I want to enjoy my little family and all of my friends with no regrets.  I have to!  And what's more is that I WANT to enjoy it!  Just a few weeks ago we adopted a retired racing greyhound.  Her name is Punzie and, along with my DH, DS and Biscuit, has brought me so much joy.  She is not a replacement for anyone or anything, but instead she is a focus for us and a very bright spot in our lives.  I told my husband that I felt the need to rescue something, anything because I couldn't save Liam.  Punzie provided me that opportunity.  She's so sweet and we love her so much. :)  So our family is complete with humans and non-humans!  And we step forward to what our future holds for us.....

As for those of you who have ever supported me I can never repay you.  Your words and actions have shown me what life is about.  It's about being there for those who are in need.  I promise to pay this forward in whatever ways that I can.  I don't know how to hit the Post Discussion button to finalize these thoughts.  :(  I know that I'll check in from time to time and chime in, but I wanted to say a proper goodbye because this is no longer where I "belong".  I owed it to you all to gather the courage for this post.  I've come so very far from when we lost Liam, and it is largely due to these boards.  So I thank you from the bottom of my heart, EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!  There were even some of you that went above and beyond...you know who you are...and I love you.  Now I'm crying so I think that's my signal to hit the Post Discussion button. 

You are all in my constant prayers for whatever life is holding for you. <3

Always on my mind, forever in my heart you all will be..........

Lilypie - (dLe1)

 

      ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

       We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

 Lilypie - (AW2u)
 

 Lilypie - (L84X)Lilypie - (D4Hj)

 

 

 

 

Re: XP: I think the time has come :,) (long)

  • So many hugs Quig. FX for peace moving forward.
  • Loading the player...
  • Oh, Quig. So many ((Hugs)) and so much love. I am tearing up reading this. I am so happy you have found peace with this decision. I know you did not reach it lightly. I will be thinking about you and know I am here if you ever need anything. 
    Multiple TTCAL 1IF 3
    imageimage
    DX: stage 2 Endo 2012, PCOS 7/2/14,  HSG 6/11/14, Lefty open!!
    BFP#1, EDD: 4/27/14, Missed EP confirmed: 9/23/13, R tube removal: 9/25/13 
    Clomid/TI #1=BFN, 
    Clomid/TI#2=BFN, Clomid/TI #3=CP
    BFP #2 CP, EDD 7/12/15
    On a treatment break: 2 natural cycles. Saving money, sigh*

    Goodbye my sweet babies. We miss you so much
    All Welcome


  • Quigley, your post brought tears to my eyes.  I wish you all the best moving forward.  {{hugs}}

    image
    BFP: 3/9/2014  EDD: 11/11/2014  MMC: 4/10/2014  D&C: 4/11/2014
  • So many hugs Quig. FX for peace moving forward.
    Thank you for all of your love and support, PC.  So much love to you my friend.  :,)

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

     Lilypie - (L84X)Lilypie - (D4Hj)

     

     

     

     

  • Wishing you all the best moving forward!

    ***Siggy Warning - loss mentioned***

    image

    Pregnancy Ticker

    *S15 Siggy January Siggy Challenge - Happy Dance*

    image

    ME: 32   DH: 38

    BFP#1 - 7/18/14; EDD 3/23/14; MMC 8/11/14 (passed naturally on 8/17/14)

    BFP#2 - 12/29/14; EDD 9/10/15 *PLEASE BE OUR RAINBOW!*

    image


  • Hey honey, I've thought of you from time to time and wondered how you were.  I'm glad that you've found some peace in recent months and that you, and your family, are ready to move on.  Sounds like your new furbaby is exactly what you all needed.  Many ((((HUGS)))) coming your way and I wish you all the best for the future. 
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

    My chart here  All ALers welcome!
    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickersLilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    June 3Missing Our January Snowflake
  • Oh sweet, Quig. (((Hugs)))) I am crying reading this, but I understand. I wish nothing but the best for you & your entire family. Sending you love & peace for no regrets!! We will miss you. xo

    TTC since Sept 2012
    M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
    AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
    Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13

    Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely

    BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14

    imageimageimage
     
      imageimageimageimage

    My Chart


    ***** All ALers welcome *****

  • Wishing you luck and peace moving forward. ((Hugs)) You will be missed!
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
    Stalk my ute

  • So many hugs Quig. FX for peace moving forward.
    Thank you for all of your love and support, PC.  So much love to you my friend.  :,)
    So much love for you lady. Find me on FB okay? ;)
  • Many, many (((hugs))) @QuigleyCat1‌

    4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
    All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal

    5 IUIs = BFN

    All AL are welcome
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic

  • Sending lots of love and lots of hugs.  I get it and i'm always here if you need to talk.  xo
    ----
    *I am no longer regularly posting on TB because of the fucked up debacle of Jan 2015 when administrators banned long-term members and mods with no notice and completely dismantled a community full of women who cared about each other.  If you see me posting it's only to give support to a poster who needs it or to post something important enough that I need to say.  I am no longer responding to  anything other than issues that affect people who I care about*
    37 years old, MH is 42
    TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor 
    August 2012 through June 2013:  6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
    7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
    8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
    3/15/14 IVF #1:  Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN. 
    Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
    6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN   
    8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy

    Done with medical intervention and getting used to the idea of CFNBC.  




    All welcome
  • Quigley, your post brought tears to my eyes.  I am sad to see you leave our community, you have given so much support and knowledge, but I am happy that you have made a decision that you are at peace with.  I think your adoption of Punzie is a fantastic way to channel your love and energy.  Moving forward does allow you other experiences and you have a wonderful family to have those experiences with.  I wish you light and peace as you move on.  Thank you so much for all you have done for those who came here after you.  (((Hugs)))
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge: Animals in the Snow

    image

      
    About Me: 

    AMA 35 :  DH 33
    BFP#1 1/26/14 (EDD: 10/7/14).  MMC 3/10/14 D&C 3/14/14
    RE Consult 11/3/14 - AMH 2.25 "great" . FSH 7.10 . Low Vitamin D
    Myomectomy 12/17/14.  Benched until March.

    image

    My Ovulation Chart
  • I know you will be greatly missed around here, but I am so proud of you for making your own decision. I wish nothing but the best for you in all life holds for you!
    image
    Me: 33 DH: 31
    DD: 10 (born August 2004)
    Married 03/01/14
    TTC#2
    BFP: 05/17/2014 EDD: 1/25/15 MMC: 06/30/2014
    BFP: 01/31/15 MMC: 02/25/15 





  • That was certainly not an easy decision to make. Wishing you the best of luck moving forward. (((Hugs)))
    TTC: Since July 2013
    BFP #1: EDD 05/27/2014 (D&C 10/17/2014)
  • So many hugs. I wish you and your family the best.

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    8/12-Suprise BFP- Sweet Bunny Born Sleeping 11/21/12 (19 weeks)

    -5/7/13- MMC (8 Weeks)

    11/6/13- BO discovered at 7 weeks- natural MC 11/25/13

    8/14- Surpise IF dx...low AMH (.24)- moving on to IVF

    IVF #1- 11/14- 6R5M4F=2 perfect frosties

    12/19/14- FET of 2 embabies = BFP!!!  One Little Bean EDD: 9/3/15

    Everyone Welcome.

  • Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Enjoy your family to the fullest! Wishing you nothing but the best for the future. <3

    DH & I are both 28    Together: 12 years    Married: 09/24/2011

    BFP#1: January '12 - DD1 09/16/2012

    Preterm labor 31 weeks. Monitored for Hellp and diagnosed with oligohydramnios July '12

    BFP #2: 06/25 - EDD 03/05/15 MMC confirmed 8/1 - D&E 8/4 retained tissue discovered 8/20

    BFP #3 11/24 - 12/15 Heartbeat detected - DD2 07/29/15

  • Thank you for your support. I wish you and your family the very best. ((Hugs))


    PS- Greyhounds rule.
  • Quigley, you are such a beautiful, amazing person and I will miss your presence on this board. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and, more importantly, thank you for sharing Liam with us.

    I think of him often and I am sure I am not the only one that remembers your little boy. 

    Enjoy every moment of every day with your family. XO

    The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
    Image and video hosting by TinyPic
  • Oh honey, having recently come to this crossroads myself, I can totally relate to your hesitation to hit that 'post' button and share this difficult but necessary step along your path. All my love and (((((hugs))))) to you and I wish only the best for you and your beautiful family! >:D<


         

    imageimage

    Married August 2012. Me: 41  DH: 42 
    Daughter from previous marriage: 20

    BFP 12/19/12: Ectopic discovered at 8 weeks, right tube removed 01/18/13
    June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
    Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014

    TTC journey over as of the end of October 2014

    TTCAL BLOG

    All ALers welcome!

  • gscoville said:
    Oh honey, having recently come to this crossroads myself, I can totally relate to your hesitation to hit that 'post' button and share this difficult but necessary step along your path. All my love and (((((hugs))))) to you and I wish only the best for you and your beautiful family! >:D<

    I'm just seeing your siggy now.  I'm so sorry that you've come to this end as well.  I see that it is still extremely fresh for you.  Sending you so many hugs, sweetheart.  I hope that as days go by you'll find more peace with this hard decision.  Please feel free to PM me here because I would still check in from time to time.  Keeping you in my thoughts *hugs*

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

          ***BFP 1-22-13, baby boy dx with Trisomy 13 at 15 weeks.

           We let him go to Heaven on 4-27-13 at 17 weeks 1 day***

     Lilypie - (AW2u)
     

     Lilypie - (L84X)Lilypie - (D4Hj)

     

     

     

     

  • ((Hugs)) quig. You will definitley be missed around here. I'm so happy that you have found peace and wish you nothing but happiness.




    Me-27 DH-29

     TTC#1 January 2013

    BFP February 27th 2014, MMC ended in D&C

    Working on our rainbow!

    image

    Curious about my ute?


    image



  • I am always so sorry to hear when these types of decisions are made. It's such a difficult one and I wish you all the best in moving forward. I am having similiar thoughts so even though I have't been around long and I do not know you, your post touched me. *hugs*

    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



  • Big ((hugs)) Wishing you the best.
    image
    Hubs & I -29 • Met 5/18/04 • Married 5/8/10
    BFP #1 DS 2/7/11 (Born @ 34 wks via ECS due to Pre-e) TTC #2 since Aug '13
    DX Low AMH (.58) March '14 • FSH-7.5 • E2-35.5 (Nov '14)
    SA- Great numbers • SIS- Clear (Nov '14)
     Cycle 1- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-BFP • EDD 1/12/15 
    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
    Cycle 2,3,4- Clomid CD3-7 & Trigger-- BFN
    Cycle 5- Letrozole CD3-7 & Trigger BFFN
    image
    • Everyone Welcom
    TTCAL January Siggy Challenge • Animal Snow Interactions
    image


  • Thank you for sharing your story with us.  You are truly an inspiration.  I am wishing you the best as you move forward.  

    You will be missed.

    December 4                     image

    Married-1/2012
    TTC-8/2013   BFP-4/18/14  EDD: 12/29/12 MC-5/17/14 @ 7w4d
    BFP #2-11/13/14  EDD: 7/26/14  Beta #1: 11/14/13 (135 progesterone: 19.5)   Beta #2" 11/17/14 (733 ) 
    Hoping for good news!

    Everyone Welcome

  • Big huge hugs.  You have been so supportive and you will be missed, but you are making a wonderful conscious decision.  I hope that you continue to find joy and peace in your little family and your new rescue.  Please take care of yourself. (hugs)
    Me: 31     DH: 33
    Dx: Me: Recurrent Pregnancy Loss; DH: Low Morphology (2%)
    BFP#1: MC 3/1/11 at 6w1d - EDD 10/21/11
    BFP#2: 5/3/11 - EDD 1/9/12 - DD Born 1/6/12
    image
    TTC #2 since 12/13
    BFP#3: MC 2/8/14 at 4w5d - EDD 10/13/14
    BFP#4: MC 5/6/14 at 4w4d - EDD 1/9/15
    BFP#5: MMC discovered 8/4/14 at 9w1d - D&C 8/5/14 - Baby Boy with Trisomy 16 (maternal origin) - EDD 3/8/15
    BFP#6: CP 11/6/14 at 4w2d - EDD 7/14/15
    IVF #1 with ICSI & PGS: May/June 2015, ER 6/3/15, 17R/17M/15F
    IVF #2 with ICSI & PGS: July 2015, ER 7/16/15, 16R/11M/9F
    PGS results = 6 normal embryos (4 boys, 2 girls)
    FET 9/23/15 = BFFN
    Natural FET 11/4/15 = BFP!
    Beta 9dp5dt = 92

  • Big, big hugs to you and your family.  I can absolutely understand being ready to live in the positive and enjoy your life and family but also the painful decisions that have to be made to get there.  Wishing you so much happiness- you will be missed.

    BFP #1- 4/2011; DD Brynn born 12/2011

    BFP #2- 7/13; EDD- 4/2/14; Lost DS at 20 weeks (11/16/13) due to cord accident

    BFP #3- 3/14; EDD- 11/28/14; Lost DD at 15 weeks (6/7/14)- cause unknown

    To my angels- I held you every second of your lives and I'll love you every second of mine.

     

  • (((((Huge Hugs)))))) I'm so excited for you about adopting Punzie! I hate to see you leave but completely understand. More ((((Hugs))))))
    TTC since 4/28/07
    Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
    BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

    June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!

    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    Lilypie Trying to Conceive Event tickers


    imageimageFollow Me on Pinterestimageimageimage



    ***PGAL/PAL WELCOME***

     

     






        

  • Quigley, sending you tons of hugs and my love. I'm sure you don't remember me since I've had a screen name change after you lost Liam but I have thought of you a lot and cried many years for your sweet boy. I'm so glad you are at peace with your decision to leave TTC in the past and wish you and your family great happiness in the future.
    November 2010 - 10.5 week loss  o:) 
    October 2011 - DS (7)  <3 
    July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)  o:) 
    August 2015 - DD (3)  <3 
    April 2018 - 5 week loss o:) 

  • Lots of love and hugs to you and your family. Your story brought me to tears. I'm sorry your journey has brouht you here but am glad you are at peace with it, and that you got your rescue. I hope the future holds peace and happiness for your family

    PgAL welcome


    Married 6/11/2011

    Me & Hubby: 34

    TTC journey started 12/2012

    BFP #1 6/5/2013, MC confirmed 6/26/2013 @ 7 wks

    BFP#2 8/25/2013 MC confirmed 10/16/2013 @ 12 wks (D&C 10/18)

    Diagnosis: unexplained RPL, unexplained IF.

    Also have hypothyroidism

    Started TTC again 12/2013

     

    IUI#1:Clomid CD 3-7, Trigger'ed CD 12. IUI CD 14. BFN

    IUI #2:Letrozole CD 3 - 7, Follistim CD 9, Trigger CD 10, IUI CD12. BFN

    Current plan: IVF with PGD. Antagonist - Vivelle Protocal. Stim start 12/1. ER 12/14.

    http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/502498

    image imageimage

    image


  • Hugs and good luck to you on your journey.
     Daisypath Anniversary tickers        Daisypath Happy Birthday tickers

    Oct Angel*BFP 1/25/14 * EDD 10/6/14 * US#1 2/26/14 *US#2 3/3/14 no heartbeat*d&c 3/12/14*

    BFP 1/17/15 * EDD 9/30/15

    image







  • all the best to you ((hugs))


    ::The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar that even the ultimate fullfillment of that hope cannot fully erase:: Thomas Hardy

    BFP #1: 07/08/11  EDD: 03/22/12  Missed miscarriage @ 8w: 08/11/11, stopped growing @ 6w6d
    BFP #2: 03/26/12  EDD: 12/07/12  We have a HB at 7w!! (04/20/12)  CSD born 12/12/12 
    BFP #3: 08/05/14  Chemical Pregnancy at 4w3d 08/06/14
    BFP #4: 10/02/14  EDD: 06/10/15  Miscarriage at 6w6d 10/22/14




    TTCAL Siggy Challenge
    image



  • Big huge hugs! Wishing you and your family all the best! More hugs and love sent your way!
    Lilypie Kids Birthday tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
  • I wish you and your family peace and love moving forward.

    P.S. - I love my adopted retired racing greyhound. They are the sweetest, quietest and calmest dogs I've known.

    * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

    TTC #1 since June 2012
    Current Status:  IVF with ICSI and PGS
    Genetic, RPL, SA and Fertility testing = Normal/Good
        HSG = All Clear
    BFP #1 12.30.2012  ||  Blighted Ovum 02.05.2013  ||  D&C 02.11.2013
    BFP #2 09.10.2013  ||  c/p 09.12.2013

    BFP #3 12.1.2013  ||  mm/c  01.15.14  ||  D&C 01.21.14  chromosome abnormality
    May 2014:  Residual HCG and retained tissue found
    05.13.2014:  Hysteroscopy D&C to find and remove retained tissue
    June 2014:  Tissue sample results indicate a partial molar pregnancy
    May - Aug 2014:   TTA for monitoring and testing
    08.21.2014:  Hysteroscopy to remove minor scar tissue - the result of 3 D&Cs
    Sept/Oct: IUI #1  Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN
    Oct/Nov: IUI #2  Femara + Ovidrel = BFN
    Nov/Dec: IUI #3  Femara + Bravelle + Ovidrel = BFN

    My Ovulation Chart  || *~*~All AL Welcome~*~* ||  DIY Blog

    imagehttp://i59.tinypic.com/v5ztqr.jpg  image

    image image 

This discussion has been closed.
Choose Another Board
Search Boards
"
"