It's been a while since we've talked. I know it can be hard to talk about the same struggles over and over again, but I'm really hoping that time has given us a chance to share some successes and have more insitefull (sp?) advice for anyone still struggling.
Re: PPD/PPA Check-in
I'm doing a better job of recognizing when my anxiety is getting ramped up.
If anyone is so inclined, check out the 'Stuff you should know' podcast for 'How Anxiety Attacks Work'. It was really good to hear the science behind my body's reaction.
DD is very interactive and that helps so much.
sending LO to daycare really set me off. I worry so much about LO being with strangers.
Struggling through the pain, sadness, frustration, anxiety, everything - is a worthy motivation, but sometimes your body chemistry is just broken for a while and you need medical intervention. It is nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about. Though I've dealt with those feelings too, especially after my first. But it completely changes my personality and emotional capability back to normal, so I don't give a shit if other people try to judge me for it
If you are concerned, go talk to your OB. they have seen a lot of moms and should be able to work with you on what's normal or what needs intervention
We are so overwhelmed with work and not sleeping. I can't sleep because I'm up worrying about sleeping all night. Feel very disconnected from lo. Very disconnected. She's not too likable right now. I feel bad for saying that but it's true