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Late Term and Child Loss
Selinaca
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Loss after two weeks old
Selinaca
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I had my son in September of 2013. After birth his dad and I didn't listen or use any protection during that time and I became pregnant very quickly again. My baby girl was only 7 months younger than my son because she was a preemie. She was a tiny little girl who was healthy in all aspects of life. I had my 3rd natural birth on May 24, 2014 and had my little Kailani Vanessa Jack. Everything was going fine until two weeks later. During those most memorable two weeks ever I was the happiest mommy ever. She filled my life and memories with so much love and joy. She had smiled at me even being so young! She was so perfect and beautiful. My last picture I took of her was her smiling at me. On June 7th, 2014 we laid down for bed, her in her bassinet right next to me bed within an arms reach. I had dozed off after taking care of my 2 year old, 7 month old, and a newborn. I had been breastfeeding, so at 12:30 am I woke up to feed her. The most horrible thing was to come. I had got up to get her and found she wasn't breathing. I was so freaked out I screamed for my friend staying with me Shaylynn. My baby was gone! She had no life in her. We called 911 and they got there within minutes. But it was to late nothing could bring her back. My poor baby was gone, my shinning light of joy was no longer with me. I couldn't take it and broke down and still do every now and then. They said she had passed from SIDS nothing could of saved her. They also said it occurred around 12:15 am. I kick myself everyday thinking if only I had woken up earlier she'd still be with me. I am a young mother so to experience this young hurts even more. I have no family support or had any to help me through it. Her father blamed me and still to this day does. I think in a way she knew she was going to leave this earth soon and made me the happiest mommy ever with all her smiles and love. I am now again 13 weeks pregnant and hoping for another girl. Not to replace mine but to bring me back that light of love. I now have a 13 month old and a 2 year old. I don't talk about my SIDS baby often because most people don't care to listen. She was a fine healthy loving child up until the end. My last words to her were ¨Goodnight my sweet Kai mommy loves you.¨ Man I miss my daughter she would of been almost 6 months now. Loosing a child hurts forever and a day. I pray no other parent has to go through the loss of their own child. But it can happen to anyone. Moms cherish your baby because you never know when the last day will be for either of you. My little Kailani Vanessa RIP
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Re: Loss after two weeks old
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how horrifying that is, I lost my daughter two months ago to what is basically been determined as SIDS for older children. My daughter was 3 1/2, would have been four in December. I'm completly devasted as I know you are as well.
October 2011 - DS (7)
July 2014 - Stillborn DD (24 weeks)
August 2015 - DD (3)
April 2018 - 5 week loss
**TICKER WARNING**
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl Kailani. I also lost my beautiful daughter. Brooke, to SIDS when she was almost 12 weeks old. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her and tell her I love her. If you would ever like to talk please free free to PM me. This group is great and has helped.
Brooke Elizabeth born Feb 17, 2013 grew wings May 9, 2013 @ 11 weeks & 4 days old from SIDS
I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter. I LOVE the name Kailani by the way. What does it mean? I know Kai means ocean or sea in Hawaiian, but what does lani mean?
I also lost my son to SIDS. He was 3.5 days old, on our first morning home from the hospital. I second what @BrittanyM said. Feel free to PM if you want to talk or need encouragement. This is not an easy road to walk, especially being pregnant with all of the new fears that come along with that.