So I have this pregnancy journal/memory book....

Re: So I have this pregnancy journal/memory book....

• gsancho member

  November 2014

  Start the book!  It will be so wonderful to look back on.  IF does such a number on us mentally, already...don't let it stop you from starting the journal.  

  
  

  I'm kind of a negative person, so my brain normally goes to the worst-case scenario...but I would think that heaven forbid something happened, if we tried again and had a baby, it would be meaningful to look back on the full journey.

  
  
  Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
  IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
  IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
  Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545  -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!

  Camila Josephine arrived 4/30

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• Ecarabeo217 member

  November 2014

  Start the journal!!! If all goes well (and we have all our digits crossed) then you'll kick yourself for not writing in it sooner. If heaven forbid it doesn't work out, you'll still be able to look back on it and remember that for this time, this LO was here and filled your world. Don't let IF brain steal any more of your hppiness!!! Now go grab a pen!

  Married 2007
  3 Clomid IUIs -- BFNs
  IVF #1 never made it to transfer
  On "egg health" cocktail DHEA/CoQ10/FRC/Pregnitude/Melatonin
  Starting IVF #2 for Feb 2013
  Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix
  Cancelled mid-cycle due to high P4 levels early on.
  OCPs again for IVF 2.5 mid-March. IVF 2.5 transferred two "gorgeous" 5-day blasts and BFFN. Even REI is baffled
  On indefinite hold until a huge stroke of serendipity led me to IVF 3 May 2014
  Testing found positive cardiolipins/APS, now on lovenox and intralipid infusions
  Transfer of 2 5-day blasts and (FINALLY) BFFP!! 1st ultrasound shows two sacs and two HB, but one is sluggish, almost expecting vanishing twin Subsequent ultrasound confirmed vanishing twin, but my other Little critter looks fantastic!
  "You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it."
  -- Margaret Thatcher
  
  
  
  

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• MKateG member

  November 2014

  Yes I agree, start now! I'm in my third tri and I wanted to do the same but just never started it. I wish I had started writing my feelings at the very start. :-)

  *loss and BFP mentioned*

  Me: Endo & No Tubes 

  DH: perfect!

  IVF#1 (Sept 2013) Long Lupron Protocol

             17 retrieved, 15 fert, 1 perfect blast trans, 10 frozen

              BFP--Ended-- Blighted Ovum

  FET#2 Tentative Sched: Start meds CD1=Feb 1, ET= Feb 19-20

            One Grade 4AA Blast transferred, 5dpt- BFP HPT, 6dpt- line darker

            Beta #1- 50, Beta #2- 30

            BFN- Chemical preg

  FET#3 CD1-4/11, start Injections on CD13, ET scheduled- 4/29

           CD12 u/s & bw- Lining 8.7, estrogen 335, cleared for ET in one week!

           CD19 ET- Two Grade 4AA Blast transferred one with assisted hatching

           4dpt- POAS = BFP!....POAS everyday after = DARKER! FX!

           Beta #1- 703!  Beta #2- 4,004! 

           First U/S, 5wk0d- TWO gest sacs, Both with yolk sacs and a fetal pole both measuring 3d ahead!

  ((Thank you LORD, praying these LO grow, grow, grow!)) 

  **Due date Jan 14th- Boy/Girl twins**

  
  

  
  

  
  

  
  

   

  
  

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• runawaylaurel member

  November 2014

  My mom gave me a pregnancy calendar when we told them at 8ish weeks and I haven't written in it one bit because I kept putting it off until something felt more "sure." Silly! Make up for my mistake and write in yours now. Enjoy every minute.

  *****************siggy/ticker warning*****************************

  
  

  
  

  -Me: anovulatory/ hypothalamic amenorrhea / H: all good
  

  -IUI  Medicated TI Cycle #1 (Dec): Menopur  + Ovidrel + TI  = BFN

  -Benched for work issues Jan/Feb

  -IUI 1.2: Menopur + Ovidrel = BFN

  -IVF #1- Menopur + Follistim = 12R / 7M / 4F -- first beta-260, second 520. EDD 2/22/15

  
  

  Welcome Dane 02/09!

  
  

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• Robeano member

  November 2014

  Write in it. It is such a healing thing to do. Regardless of the outcome you are still writing to this baby.

  Diagonsed PCOS TTC since May 2009
  

  First M/C December 2010 Second M/C August 2011
  Oct 2011~Second round clomid 50 mg; BFN
  Nov 2011~Third round clomid 50 mg: BFP
  Dec 11- Beta #1 91;Dec 13- Beta #2 186.2
  Dec 27- third miscarriage
  May 25th- Beta #1 369;May 27th- Beta #2 798
  Baby girl born Jan 23, 9lbs 3oz, 21 1/2" long
  May 27th-Beta #1 80; May 29th- Beta #2 304; May 31st- Beta #3 860
  

  

  

  

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• rella22 member

  November 2014

  I definitely think you should start it!  But I totally agree...IF makes you hesitate with EVERYTHING.  It's crazy when I see these people posting on fb their due dates that are long after mine and I'm thinking man that is seriously risky.  But I know they don't even think like that!!

  
  

  I may steal your idea and get a journal too..that would be cute to look back on

  ***SIGGY WARNING***

  
  

  
  

  
  

  me: 28 - all test normal
  DH: 33 - SA normal
  *unexplained*

  TTC since September 2011
  2011-Oct.2013 - trying off and on, ob/gyn, no meds
  November 2013-December-EOD, ob/gyn, no meds
  January 2014- ob/gyn ordered Clomid (50 mg) unmonitored, EOD-BFN
  February-Clomid 50 mg. unmontiored, EOD - BFN
  March-Switched to RE
  April- 100 mg Clomid/Ovidrel-BFN
  May - 100 mg Clomid/Ovidrel-BFN
  June-*BREAK/Switch RE*
  July- 5 mg Femara/Ovidrel + IUI #1- BFN
  August- 5 mg Femara/Ovidrel + IUI #2 - BFP!!!!

  EDD: May 7th, 2015: Team PINK

  
  

  
  

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• xc1148 member

  November 2014

  Ecarabeo217 said:

  Start the journal!!! If all goes well (and we have all our digits crossed) then you'll kick yourself for not writing in it sooner. If heaven forbid it doesn't work out, you'll still be able to look back on it and remember that for this time, this LO was here and filled your world. Don't let IF brain steal any more of your hppiness!!! Now go grab a pen!

  This EXACTLY!!! IF has taken so much already, don't let it take anymore!! I love going back to my early notes and reading about how excited/scared I was. The time will fly by and you won't be able to remember how you felt early on so start now!!!
  

  TTC since June 2011

  DH: perfect SA

  Me: 30, moderate endo, unexplained infertility

  IUI or IVF in December

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

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• CarSaidYes member

  November 2014

  We'll ladies. You've helped me once again. I pulled out the journal. Haven't written in it just yet but I went on line and bought the same one for my cousin (in blue) for her to journal in. When she gets hers we are going to start them together. She lives in VA and in in FL so I think it's a cool way for us to bond during our pregnancies. I can't wait for her to move back after she gives birth!!!

  Me: 26 (IC/PCOS-2000mg of Metformin daily)

  June 2014- HSG=clear

  DH: 27 (SA results were great minus the slightly low morphology)

  Started dating DH in 2002 at 14 years old

  Married on 03.01.2014

  Officially TTC since April 2014 

  January 2013- Surprise BFP, m/c at 6 weeks, D&C 2 Weeks later

  April 2014- First RE appointment

  July 2014- IUI#1-Canx due to scar tissue and polyps. TI with the help of Ovidrel. BFN

  August 2014- Hysteroscopy to remove scar tissue and polyp

  September 2014- IUI #1.1-100mg Clomid, Ovideral, 11.5 million swimmers=BFP

  EDD-6/3/15- Our sweet baby Ryan was born on 1/6/15 and is in the arms of an Angel

  Dx with IC on 1/6/15

  
  

  
  

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• ky29 member

  November 2014

  I was doing the same thing!  But I finally broke down a week or two ago and started it.  Although, I've neglected it since.  Sometimes I have to tell myself that writing in a book is not going to have any effect on this pregnancy. 
  

  
  TTC since March 2012
  DX: MFI (4% motility)
  Cycle 13: Natural cycle w/ HSG test = BFP
  Identical twins! 
  Lost my angel boys at 10.5 weeks
  Cycle 14-16: Natural Cycles = BFN
  Cycle 17: Follistim + Trigger + IUI = BFN
  Cycle 18: Natural Cycle = BFN
  Cycle 19: Follistim + Trigger +IUI#2
  Polyp found: SIS 11/11 - hysteroscopy 11/14
  Cycle 20: Follistim + IUI#2 = BFFN
  Cycle 21: Follistim (adj. dosage) + IUI#3 TI  = BFN
  IUI cancelled due to weather
  Cycle 22: Follistim + IUI#3.1 = BFN
  Cycle 23: treatment break, IVF consult
  Cycle 24 - 26: natural cycle w/ acupuncture + Chinese herbs = BFN
  Cycle 27: Follistim + IUI#4 = BFFN
  Natural Cycles until IVF
  Cycle 30: IVF#1 - Starting with Menopur + Follistim + Ganirelix
  17 retrieved, 12 fertilized, 5dt w/ 2 blasts, 5 frosties
  Betas:  #1-156(9dp5dt), #2-1200(13dp5) #3-6112(17dp5)
  Ultrasound #1 10/6: 1 bean!
  TEAM BLUE!
  My Chart
  ~~ALL WELCOME~~

  

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• chucktgirl member

  November 2014

  I did the exact same thing as you. I have a beautiful book at home - untouched. I kept a journal with my first pregnancy. It was a very pretty book. Unfortunately, I didn't get very far into it before my loss. I was devastated. I recently read the last few entries. It's awful. I bought the second pregnancy book, like yours, with my 2nd pregnancy, but never could bring myself to write in it. As it turned out, I lost that pregnancy, too. So I recently pulled that book out again. It's sitting on the couch, but even at 21wks, I just can't do it. I hope I find the strength to start it. Maybe this weekend. Thanks for sharing this familiar fear.
  

  
  

  
  My BLOG: www.ivfbabyquest.wordpress.com -Update - old blog.

  PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
  Me: 42, Hubby: 35, TTC since Jan 2010. Dx: DOR due to advanced maternal age. Also: Hypothyroidism (100mcg Levothyroxin). Positive for MTHFR (hetero-C677T), Factor V Leiden, and Fragile X (on DH side). Taking pre-natal vitamins.
  First natural PG 9/27/11; mc: 1/20/12
  First RE visit: 8/8/12, Saline Sonogram: 8/28/12, IVF injection class: 10/11/12, add FaBB Tab for FVL, +Vitamin D.
  IVF #1: 10/17/12 Baseline: FSH- 9.4, E2- 24, LH- 3.7, Prog- 0.3 The u/s showed 6 follicles in my right  & 9 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ nightly. 10/21/12: Add Ganirelix SQ every morning.
  ER 10/28/12: 13 Retreived. 7 Mature. 6 Fertilized. 5 Made it to PGS. ET 11/2/12: CANCELED. All 5 came back from PGS as having "severe abnormalities."
  IVF #2: 1/7/13 Baseline: FSH- 8.8, 4 follicles in my right & 6 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle & 150 Menopur SQ nightly. 1/11/13: Add Ganirelix SQ every morning. hCG Trigger 1/16/13
  ER 1/18/13: 9 Retrieved. 5 Mature. 5 Fertilized. 2 Made it to PGS. ET 1/23/13: CANCELED. All embryos (he even sent the ones not growing) came back from PGS as having "multiple severe abnormalities."
  IVF #3: NEW RE! 3/1/13 Baseline: FSH- 9.6, E2- 61, Prog- 0.94, 3 follicles in my right & 4 in my left. Rx: 150 Bravelle& 150 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/7/13: Add Ganirelix SQ in AM. hCG Trigger 3/9/13 SQ.
  ER 3/11/13: 6R, 2M, 2F. Day 3: one 8 cell, grade 0.  Five day ET 3/16/13: one early blast, grade Fair. 3/24/13 AF came a day before beta. BFN
  IVF #4: (Added acupuncture to this cycle.) 3/25/13 WTF & Baseline: FSH-11.8, E2- 56, Prog- 0.84 3/26/13 Start stims. 3/30/13 u/s: 5 follicles in my right & 4 in my left. Rx: 225 Bravelle& 225 Menopur SQ in PM. 3/31/13 Add Ganirelix SQ in AM.hCG Trigger 4/3/13 SQ.
  ER 4/5/13: 5R, 3M, 3F naturally. Day 3: two 8 cell, grade 0, one 8 cell, grade 2 (Scale 0-best to 3-worst). Five day ET 4/10/13: two blastocysts (the 3^rd stopped growing.) Beta 4/18/13: 2.5 BFFN. RE recommends we stop trying and focus on living childless, due to the extremely poor quality of my eggs.
  ***Decided to stop trying and live CFNBC. I couldn't adjust. So, six months later...
  IVF #5: Changed RE. Going to one of the big name clinics now. OWDU: 10/29/13. Update: HORRIBLE experience. Disgusted and distraught at their complete unprofessionalism and how much money and precious time they cost us. Sickening. Have now changed RE again. New Patient appt. 1/30/14.
  BFP! Out of nowhere, I got KU the old fashioned way! POAS 1/26/14 - Positive! FDLM 12/30/13. Beta #1 16dpo= 373. Beta #2 18dpo= 801. EDD 10/6/14
  2/4/14 1st U/S revealed a 5wk2day sac but no fetal pole. Started 200mgs of progesterone suppositories daily
  2/11/14 2nd U/S revealed a perfect 6wk1day "diamond ring" embryo with a beating heart! 138bpm! Add 1mg folic acid and 40mg Lovenox
  2/25/14 3rd U/S: perfect 8w1d embryo, 178bpm. 3/6 start spotting. 3/11 10w1d U/S shows no heartbeat. Scheduling D&C. The Stork has forsaken me again.
  IVF #5.2: New in-state RE. Supplement priming for 1.5 cycles prior to start of cycle, including DHEA 50mg (stopped 5/15), CoQ10 200mg 2x/day, L-Arginine- 1000mg 2x/day (stopped 6/5 due to cold sore!), myo-inositol- 2g 2x/day, melatonin- 3mg, and Neevo (prenatal for MTHFR).
  5/16/14 Day 2 bw cycle prior: FSH- 12.22, E2- 38.37, Prog- 1.35, LH- 9.46. 6/2/14 Day 19 bw: Prog- 23
  6/12/14 Baseline: E2- 122.7, Prog- 0.4. 5 follicles in left, 4 follicles in right. Start stims: 375IU Follistim & 150IU Menopur. 6/19 Increase Follistim to 425IU, Menopur still 150IU. 6/18 add Ganirelix. 6/23 Ovidrel trigger SQ. 6/25 ER: 8R, 8M, 5F naturally. Start Medrol & Doxy. 6/26 Start Endometrin. 7/2 Start Lovenox.
  7/8/14 Beta= 137.4 BFP!!! (My first from IVF!) E2- 1109, Prog- >60. Stop CoQ10, myo-inositol, and melatonin. 7/9 2nd Beta= 281.4. TSH- 2.70. Increasing Synthroid to 100mcg daily. 7/24 6w3d u/s measured 6w3d, hb: 121bmp! 8/5 8w1d u/s measured 8w3d, hb: 164bpm! Graduated from RE to OB. Now I just need to find an OB!
  EDD 3/18/15!
  

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