Bi-Weekly Wine and Cheese Party

buggirl72 · November 2014

It's that time again. This is our bi-weekly check in. Feel free to let us know how life is; you can b!tch, you can moan, you can brag, you can cry, whatever you want. Enjoy!

Rachaeleigh · November 2014

Thanks for the check in @buggirl72‌

So many hugs @HoldingOutHope‌. Will you pursue any more IUIs? I know that you don't really have difficulty conceiving, just wondering
Also, any specific reasons why not try IVF? Again, just curious. I think we will, but it's so Damn expensive!

I'm in middle of IUI cycle 5. We tried clomid this cycle, u/s showed a 17.5 and a 12mm follicle on Fri. Tonight I trigger, IUI tues.
Clomid hasn't been that bad for me, mostly upset stomach at times

buggirl72 · November 2014

So many ((((hugs)))) @HoldingOutHope. I find the more I embrace the end of the road side of this journey, the harder this (TTCAL) board becomes. I stopped temping at the point that the thought of picking up my BBT made me tired. With that, I accepted that our timing might be terrible or non-existent because I'm also not doing OPKs. It's hard in some ways but I also think NTNP can be good if you are willing to peacefully let yourself know that some cycles may be a bust because of poor timing.

@Rachaeleigh - Good luck! I'm surprised that this is your first cycle with clomid. It's seems like that is generally the go to first medication that REs/OBs do. I hope you don't have to move to IVF but I'm glad you and your H are preparing for that.

AFM - not much on the TTCAL front here. My last round of blood work still had elevated LH and FSH that are in post-menopause levels but I keep having what looks like a normal cycle. Who knows. I'm almost tempted to temp more as a scientific experiment.

On the non-TTCAL side, Mr. Bug goes in tomorrow morning to have a cancerous mole removed from his forehead. He is FREAKED OUT! I think he is more worried about the procedure (pain, needles, IV, more needles, possibly having a Spock eyebrow when it's done) then the possibility that this will get graded as a melanoma once they take more and biopsy it. The doctor was great and gets how nervous he is - it's one of the reasons she scheduled it just three days after his consult with her - she could tell this was a get-in-and-get-it-done necessity. Tomorrow morning will be interesting.

I was off the past week so I was able to paint our guest room. No more dark purple/merlot! It's now a soft grey and I just need to do touch-ups. The previous owners were the worst painters in the world! They got paint all over the baseboards and ceiling - dark, purple paint. Once I get the touch-ups done and get the curtains hung, I'll post before and after pics.

Rachaeleigh · November 2014

@buggirl72‌ yeah, my previous RE started us on injects. The only reason that I'm giving oral meds a try is that my current RE was pretty adamant about doing so before investing so much in IVF

skategirl128 · November 2014

Big hugs @HoldingOutHope‌

@Rachaeleigh‌ good luck!

@buggirl72‌ good luck to your DH tomorrow! Post pics- sounds like you are doing a good transformation!

As for me nothing is really new over here. We are all doing well- I started new medications to deal with my own health concerns and I'm already starting to feel better. Life here is super busy though- looking forward to it slowing down in a couple weeks! Big hugs ladies!

Rachaeleigh · November 2014

@HoldingOutHope‌ that makes a lot of sense. We're just trying to get pregnant at this point, but then my history of RPL always creeps into my mind

@skategirl128‌ I'm glad that you're feeling better!

meredithcarole · November 2014

Hi Everyone.

@HoldingOutHope‌ I am sorry that you are feeling so worn out and that you feel like you are nearing the end of your road. I hope the new RE has something more substantial than progesterone to offer. ((Hugs))

@buggirl72‌ I am really glad YH is going through with the medical procedure. I certainly hope the results of the biopsy are good.

@Rachaeleigh‌ I hope that the trigger goes well and this cycle with Clomid works.

AFM: tomorrow morning is my first RE appointment. I am a little nervous and don't really know what to expect. It seems that people have a lot of variation with what happened at their first appointment. The doctor does have 21 pages of information from me and H as well as my medical records from my OB. I also included the radiology report from my ultrasound 3 years ago where they found fibroids. The largest had grown from 5 cm then to 8.5 cm as of my mc in March. I hate to think where it is now.

NTTCR: I am moving to a new position on the 16th at work. I am hoping it is less stressful.

buggirl72 · November 2014

@skategirl128 - I'm glad the new medications are working and that you are felling better! @meredithcarole‌ - good luck today at the new RE! Sounds like you are going in very prepared. On my first appointment, the RE went over a lot of options which were all dependent on what testing showed. He also went over supplements he wanted H and I to start taking. Be prepared to take notes and have a lot of information come your way.

meredithcarole · November 2014

@skategirl128 I am sorry, I accidentally overlooked your post when I was on my iPad last night. I am glad you are feeling better.

@eurydicenymph I am sorry the new position is causing you a little bit of angst. You're right, this isn't how any of us thought it would be. (((hugs)))

megrae12 · November 2014

Hi ladies. I am just pissed. We had a CP and it sucks. We have to have the what's next discussion with each other and my RE. I know he is going to push for IVF. We can't afford that at all. Like I don't think we will ever be able to afford that. IUIs are not an option right now b/c of my pay cut at work. So, for all intensive purposes, we will prolly not be doing anymore medicated cycles until we can save money. That hurts. I dunno what this means for us and when I look into the future I see the door closing faster than I can run. It's a hard pill to swallow and I am not in a good place to deal with it. I am so ready for this year to be over, it has been the worst ever. Between my mom almost dying more times than I can count and MIL and now all this crap, I am done! If anyone needs me, I will be hiding from life in my blanket fort.

meredithcarole · November 2014

I am so sorry @megrae12‌

Smootiepie · November 2014

@HoldingOutHope - oh hon, I'm so so sorry. There are no words I can give, only ((Hugs))

@Rachaeleigh - GL sweetie, sorry about the side effects.

@buggirl72 - hope everything went well for Mr. Bug. Let us know once he gets some results.

@skategirl128 - taking care of yourself is always priority #1. Glad to hear you are doing better.

@meredithcarole - hope the appt went well and you can start getting some answers.

@EurydiceNymph - so many ((Hugs)) lady.

@megrae12 - my heart absolutely broke when I saw your post on the main board this a.m. Hide in that fort as long as you need to, you won't get any shit from any of us.

AFM - we had our IVF consult yesterday. So much info, so much money, so many mixed feelings about it. DH and I didn't have much time to talk about it last night because of dinner plans, so I'm hoping tonight we'll get to talk it all out. It's looking like we'll probably go this route, mostly because I think we would regret not giving it one last shot. DH does need to do one last SA next week to make sure we wouldn't be IUI candidates, but I'm not going to hold my breath on that one...

BookishMomma · November 2014

@holdingouthope I'm so sorry you are in a dark place right now. I'm glad you and your H are on the same page, though, about what you are willing to do and not do. Also, I want you to know that even if you do not have hope, I am still holding out hope for you. Truly. ((Hugs))

@meredithcarole I stalked your update on TTCAL about your RE appointment. I'm sorry you have to have a more intense surgery than anticipated, that news must have really sucked, but it sounds like you are in good hands.

@skategirl128 I'm glad you are taking care of yourself and feeling better.

@rachaeleigh FX for you this cycle. I'm glad the Clomid side effects aren't too bad for you.

@buggirl72 I hope your DH's procedure went smoothly and that he's recovering ok. Can't wait for before and after paint pics!

@EurydiceNymph ((Hugs)) I'm sorry your new work environment is a tough place for you to be. I often rely on work to be my "escape" from TTC related stuff, so it must be tough to be surrounded by kid talk all the time.

@megrae12 There are no words, honey. I want to TP the whole year of 2014. Sending so much love your way.

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**pregnancy mentioned**

As for me, I'm in a bit of beta hell at the moment and trying hard to be optimistic, but also trying to protect my heart. If you're curious and feeling strong, you can head over to PGAL to see the actual numbers. If not, let's just say they are on the lowish and slowish side but still rising. For a glimpse into my state of mind lately, this morning at my neighborhood polling place, the first thing I saw was this blissful, hugely pregnant woman standing in line rubbing her belly with a sweet smile on her face. I wanted to punch her for being so blissful. Seriously, that was my first thought. And I am actually pregnant myself at the moment. But I hated that she can be blissful and I can't. Even though I knew nothing about her history or what she's been through. WTF is wrong with me?

meredithcarole · November 2014

@bookishmomma I saw your post on PgAL. I am sorry you are in Beta Hell. Nothing is wrong with you (if you actually did punch her we may need to talk about that a bit more

). I think it is totally normal to resent someone's bliss when it has been robbed from you. ((Hugs)). I hope LO is just kind of a chill kid.

@smootiepie Good luck with the SA next week. If the IUI won't work then it sounds like the IVF is your best option.

meredithcarole · November 2014

@Kateisoptimistic‌ I am sorry your cycle tricked you a bit this last go around. It's always disappointing,but false hope makes it worse. ((Hugs))

As for my RE appointment, I wrote a novel on the main page, but the summary is: fibroids have to come out and I am not a candidate for robotic surgery so we are looking a potentially up to a 6 week recovery.

ETA: stupid autocorrect.

BookishMomma · November 2014

*sign warning*

@kateisoptimistic I'll help you with stocking up on wine. Here you go.

buggirl72 · November 2014

@EurydiceNymph - Big ((((hugs)))). The holiday season can be hard for so many reasons. One thing that has helped me is to focus on what I can control. H and I are are going to have an awesome Christmas, just the two of us. I'm planning for that because that and looking forward to it.

@megrae12 - I'm so sorry. ((((hugs)))) money should not be a deciding factor in this and I hate so much that it is.

@Smootiepie - I'm so glad your consult went well and you and your H are considering IVF. It's such a big step and I hope you both are on the same page about it.

@Bookishmomma - Lot's of (((hugs))) and positive vibes being sent your way.

@Kateisoptomistic - So many ((((hugs)))) being sent your way. Moving on to an RE is such a big step and I know how scary it is. I hope you get in quickly and can get a plan in place.

@snegde - OMG! I literally laughed out loud when I read the "brave little toaster" comment! Poor Mr. Bug!

meredithcarole · November 2014

ktlovess said:

I'm sorry that I'm late posting!

@meredithcarole - your new job starts soon... are you excited?

AFM - nothing new on the TTCAL front.

We pick our puppy Saturday, and he/she is coming home on the 29th. I'll post pictures, so look for them! I am settling into my new position, and feeling a little less lost on the whole. The learning curve is quite steep, and I have been spending a lot of time feeling overwhelmed.

@ktlovess I am super excited to see your puppy pics! I feel like we have been waiting right along with you for the puppy to come home

And, yes, I am excited for the new job (except the part where I need to tell them I will now be on a MLOA at Christmas - that's the busiest time of the year).

megrae12 · November 2014

@ktlovess‌ there is always chocolate and girly movies in the blanket fort. Come join me anytime, i will be hiding in here til after the holidays. Apparently being a coward is my new thing right now. Surprisingly, I'm ok with it.

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