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• LindseyM2012 member

  November 2014

  I'm so sorry. That year mark can be a hard, stark reality check. HUGS!!

  Me: 28  MH:35

  Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013

  June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.

  July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+

  Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN

  Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
  

  Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN

  WTF consult scheduled for 1/29

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• Ann612 member

  November 2014

  crossing the year mark is difficult - I'm sorry you find yourself there

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• Shauntee member

  November 2014

  I feel you girl, Thursday is our 4 year mark. Luckily, it is also out wedding anniversary so It is a happy day causing me not to dwell on it as much.

  Me-33 DH-36.

  Married 11/10 TTC 11/10

  06/11- diagnosed with PCOS 

  7/11- D&C and benched for a year 

  9/12-4/13-6 rounds of 50 mg Clomid- no sucess 

  6/13- new doc

  7/13-4/14- 6 more rounds of Clomid. 50 mg and then stepped up to 100mg- no success 

  5/14-7/14- took break waiting for new insurance 

  7/14-new insurance= new doc- actually a RE!!!! 

  7/14-HSG and blood test good-PCOS confirmed by new doc 

  10/14 looking forward to 1st IUI w/ Menopur. Blood Test= Negative
  11/14- IUI #2 w/ Menopur- Blood Test= Negative
  1/15- IUI # 3 w/ Menopur- Blood Test= Negative
  2/15- Self Benched this cycle
  3/15/15-Suprise BFP on natural cycle!!!! EDD-11/16/15
  
  

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• dominicandreamer member

  November 2014

  The year mark is seriously so depressing.  I'm sorry @mharnicker.

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• EmeJay member

  November 2014

  Yeah the year mark really sucks.
  
  I have a difficult milestone today too. It's my 30th birthday, and I thought that I would be done having children by then. Joke's on me, right?
  

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• Tiko99 member

  November 2014

  I totally can relate. I was on BCP for 12 years and took Plan B 3 times and now after years of trying I feel I wasted my money on BCP! So frustrating..I'm sorry you are feeling this way, but you are not alone. 

  Me: 33, DH: 32

  TTC: 2 years
  Fertility blood tests all normal
  Tilted uterus
  3 day ultrasound 17 follicles
  HSG: 11/13/13- tubes open
  DH SA: SUPER sperm (145 million, 84% motility, 22% morphology)
  All infection disease and immunity blood tests NORMAL
  FIRST IUI May 2014: 100 mg Clomid days 5-9, third ultrasound CD 13 revealed four follicles 27, 24 and 20 and 13mm. Trigger shot May 28 with IUI May 29 and 30 (fingers crossed) - BFN started spotting 11DPO

  IUI #2 B2B 6/23 and 6/24, three mature eggs and 130 million sperm! FX this is the month!  BFN 7/8

  3rd cycle benched due to cysts - TI with OPK tests -  BFN

  3rd mediated cycle: Clomid+Trigger+TI  (three follies left side, one on right as usual....what the hell right ovary get it together and produce some damn follicles!) 7DPO progesterone level 43 with NO suppositories YAY for a natural strong ovulation. Beta canceled started spotting 13DPO - Third time is not a CHARM! 14 day cycle WTF! Everything looks normal - RE wants to start injectables next cycle so this cycle I'm benched

  Officially benched until March....but still plan on trying the baking soda douche due to my excessive and thick CM

  JANUARY SIGGY CHALLENGE...This is so me!

  
  

  
  

  Love this man....he was so before his time in his thoughts and ideas about the world....been obsessed about him lately bringing it back to the early 90s.

  
  

  Never thought I would like long hair....

  
  

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• Ann612 member

  November 2014

  BlueFairy5 said:

  I haven't quite made the year mark yet (I came to 3T a little more quickly due to the PCOS and MFI diagnoses) but I just wanted you to know that I also had the exact same 3-4 month estimate in mind after coming off BCP after 12.5 years!   It really sucks when you hit that point of, "If not for IF, this is around the month I'd have been expecting."   (((hugs)))

  
  

  @Shauntee Happy anniversary

  oh god, this is really depressing!

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• nikiswimr member

  November 2014

  I took BC for 10 years prior to coming off two years ago. I was so nervous because I thought things could happen quickly like the rest of my family and I might have problems with job interviews. What a laugh (or not). Now 2 years later I wish I'd never taken the damn things and started earlier, inconvenient or not.

  Me: 32 DH: 32

  Met: 4/25/2004, Married 8/14/2010

  Off BC 1/2013 TTC (actively) since 5/2013

  5/2014 started testing with RE, me:  HSG normal, normal AMH, no cysts; DH: great sperm

  Unexplained IF + unexplained anovulation (post-pill vs hypothalamic)

  
  

  7/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFN

  8/2014 Clomid (monitored) + TI: BFP #1: 9/12/2014, EDD 5/22/2015, MMC 10/11/2014 8w1d

  11/2014 Clomid + Novarel + IUI 12/5/14: BFFN

  12/2014 Comid + Novarel + IUI 1/3/15: ???

  
  

  **PgAL/PAL welcome**

  
  

    My chart

  
  

  

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• EmeJay member

  November 2014

  LDubHawksFan said:

  I'm sorry for the milestones ladies. Big hugs. The year mark was hard and I definitely sympathize with you @EmeJay‌. My 30th was a week or so after we found out about my loss, so it was really hard time. I really had a hard time this last cycle since it was officially the last point when I could have have an EDD before I turn 31 next year. I was so naive last year when I thought I'd have a baby by now.

  I know the feeling ... Hugs.
  

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• Ann612 member

  November 2014

  BlueFairy5 said:

  @Ann612  Sorry!   :-S   As a peace offering, have you ever had Vosges Haut-Chocolat? If not, allow me to introduce you to it to brighten your day.  

  ha!  thanks, anything chocolate is good

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• EmeJay member

  November 2014

  hrushka said:

  I'm sorry - these milestones can be really rough. 

  
  

  @emejay Happy birthday! (and since 30 is the new 20, we're all good right?)

  
  

  Thanks! And omg, I wouldn't want to be 20 again haha! CRINGE
  

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• mharnicker member

  November 2014

  Ladies, thank you so much for your support and the chocolate recommendations sound yummy!! I'll have to try them!! I've been keeping really busy today at my nanny job which is good so I'm not feeling sad. When I wake up on my 31st in January I will be in tears because I never thought 31 no children and fertility problems. By then I'll be hopefully prepping/starting IUI treatments.

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• mharnicker member

  November 2014

  @EmeJay‌ happy birthday! I know it isn't quite what we hoped for us as we reach these milestones, but when our time for children comes we will treasure each every moment!!!

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• EmeJay member

  November 2014

  mharnicker said:

  @EmeJay‌ happy birthday! I know it isn't quite what we hoped for us as we reach these milestones, but when our time for children comes we will treasure each every moment!!!

  Thank you
  

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• redandblue member

  November 2014

  Anniversary's are definitely hard.  Around our one year TTC we had our first loss.  I struggle every wedding anniversary, and birthday because I feel it is another reminder.  (I used to absolutely LOVE my birthdays!). Now I find myself 37 with fertility issues. Not what I expected.  Sigh. 

  ************Siggy warning, LO & loss***************

  Me 37 - DH 37 unexplained infertility
  DS born 09/99
  TTC since 2010
  12/11 BFP - ectopic, received methotrexate, benched 4 months 
  08/14 - exploring fertility options

  Tubes clear, SA for DH all clear
  10/14- #1 IUI (femera/ovadril/progesterone), 2 follicles 22/17, post wash count 94 million BFN

  10/14 - #2 IUI (Femera/ovidrel/progesterone ), 2 follies 19/20, post wash 111 million, BFN Dec 2014 Femera BFFN Taking a break to explore foster to adopt!

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• mharnicker member

  November 2014

  I can't imagine losing a baby @amymckenzie555‌. Yes, every kind of anniversary/birthday is that constant reminder. I'm so sorry for your loss. Thanks for the hugs @LLM100811‌

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• mshandlebar member

  November 2014

  Ugggh. I hate milestones. At the 1 year mark we learned that DH has no sperm. It was soul crushing, and I still have a hard time dealing with the fact that we spent a year TTC but not really TTC. I remember last October thinking how next year I would have a little person to dress up in whatever ridiculous costume I wanted. Sometimes you just have to be sad.
  
  Big hugs to @mharnicker, @amymckenzie555, @EmeJay (happy birthday and all the rest. If I could, I would kick IF in the balls for you all!
  

  ****SIGGY WARNING****
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  TTC since May 2013
  Me: 31, blocked tube
  DH: 35, azoospermia
  IUI #1 (50 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 9/7/2014: BFN
  IUI #2 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 10/3/2014: BFN
  IUI #3 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel, Estradiol) on 11/1/2014: BFN
  First RE appt. on 11/11/2014
  November 2014: Benched due to cyst
  IUI #4 (5 mg Letrozole, Follistim, Ovidrel, Crinone) on 12/26/2014: BFP!!!
  Beta 1 (1/9/2015): 292     Beta 2 (1/12/2015): 843
  
  
  

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• mharnicker member

  November 2014

  @mshandlebar‌ we have the same problem!!! No sperm present with DH twice when we saw the urologist. He referred us to a male endocrinologist who did an additional (3rd) SA. DH asked what his exact count is because all parts are working and he said the average count is 40 mil and DH has 20k. He also says we have a 1 out of 50 chance of natural conception.We were in shock hearing that!! His estridol is too high which can affect the count and hops in beer can cause it. My DH loves beer and has given up alcohol completely in hopes for a baby. Poor guy had wanted a baby since we started dating. We have been pumping him up with COQ-10 and zinc. He's been a trooper. I start my testing this month once AF arrives with the RE. The RE said during our consultation we have a next to nothing chance of natural conception.

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