TTC After a Loss

Emotional eating frustrations (bonus question, what's your guilty pleasure?)

I just need to get this out because it's so very frustrating to me. I hope that no one is in this same boat but at the same time I hope I'm not alone.

I hate excuses... But I seem to be finding them and that alone pisses me off. The most weight I've lost is 50 lbs. I've never been super skinny and I have a rather large structure. I've gained about 12 over the past year and a half. Within that year and a half I got married, I dealt with a separated shoulder injury from my honeymoon in Costa Rica when the ATV my husband and I were on flipped over, and I've been through 3 miscarriages.

Again, I hate excuses but I find myself saying "I've had a shitty time, I deserve this awesome food!" MH is a bit of an enabler as he loves food more than I do. He also tells me I'm still beautiful and sexy which is nice to hear but I wonder if he's just being nice lol

Anyway, anyone else struggle with this?

And my guilty pleasure lately has been double fudge chocolate chip cookie dough blizzards from Dairy Queen. ACK!
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Re: Emotional eating frustrations (bonus question, what's your guilty pleasure?)

  • Um...yep right there with you!!

    I've had a crappy day, so I'm going to the store in a few to get some food to comfort me.  Luckily the junk food cravings have changed over time.
    for example, today I am getting chips and dip and gummy worms in addition to smoke salmon and bagels and for dinner.
    Past me would have gotten chips and more chips and donuts and ice cream.
    So I figure I'm getting better.

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  • I have terrible eating habits in general but it's definitely been worse this week. My DH is an enabler as well. When I called him at work on Monday to tell him I was definitely miscarrying he asked what flavor of ice cream I wanted him to bring home. I had also quit drinking soda but have been making up for it this week with all the Coke I can get my hands on.
  • Any junk food for me.  No advice, just wishing you luck. I know it hard.

    I am currently eating frozen cookie dough as I type this.

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    I gave myself "time frames" for emotional eating after each m/c to allow myself to self sooth through food but also be realistic...I couldn't keep eating like that forever. After 3 months I joined weight loss challenges and used MFP for 10 weeks - each time losing the 10lbs I put on. Yes, dh loves me no matter if I'm a size 12 or size 16 but I feel better about myself.
    Oh, but I do still totally treat myself to either two cheat meals a week or one whole cheat day a week to keep me sane. My weakness is also fast food. And bacon. And cookies LOL

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  • @cavewmn‌ I'm afraid for the holidays. I'm trying to get my crap under control before that. :-/

    @Menrandes‌ sounds like you may be getting a little better! Keep working on it :)

    @mrr5058‌ MH was the same when I found out last week. He's like "eat all the blizzards!" lol

    @jjbmstinco‌ The cookie dough sounds so damn good, I won't lie!

    @katib77‌ having goals is good and I'm sure they helps. I may need to look into that. Fast food is a big one of mine since I hate cooking. :(

    I just ate my dinner, a tiny bit of jasmine rice, a grilled chicken breast, and some veggie medley. Now I sooooo want a double fudge chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard. Good thing I'm too lazy to go get it :-D
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  • After my loss I have been obsessed with pull-n-peel Twizzlers. It has gotten to a point where I am seeing a nutritionist who is slowly weening me off of this crack.

    This right here is my food crack of choice alongside Lindor chocolate.
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  • Sorry that others struggle with this. I have a feeling the first thing the RE will say during the first visit is lose weight. I'm dreading that :(

    @petitchou1019‌ I'm hoping to jump back on the exercise wagon next week. I tend to eat much more healthy when I work out, I'm guessing because I don't want to ruin the hard work I did. The working out is hard been you're emotionally drained.

    My fitness pal actually helped me tons. I documented everything I ate and calculated the calories. I hated inputting a 1000 calorie meal so it helped me stay away. More a mind thing that anything.

    Good luck to everyone that is having a hard time!
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  • *raises hand* I'm horrible about this. I wouldn't say I've got a certain junk food even. Just all the junk food. 
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  • Ugh I am right there with you girl! My DBF is a gym rat complete with abs and what not. I myself am a chip-a-holic and I ALWAYS come up with an excuse to eat something I really shouldn't. I also feel guilty since DBF takes such good care of himself and I loathe the gym. He says the same things to me, but I completely understand your feeling of wondering if he is being truthful or not. Luckily, both of our hunnies love us, so we really are beautiful and sexy. Yay for amazing, loving, supportive men!
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  • I've eaten Lucky Charms for dinner the last three nights. How did I not remember how awesome they are?! Probably not a good thing to have found.
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  • @medic7979 sorry to hear that :( The elliptical is a good start! I have one at home as well. Now it's just finding the motivation. I would get in a good routine and then stop while I was ovulating and we were TTC. The only pattern I know from my first two MC's was that a week prior to them, I was still working out like crazy. I am pretty damn sure it wasn't that, but it was on my mind.

    @laswett it must be hard with your DBF being a gym rat. Mine stays away from the gym, and any working out for that matter, as much as he can lol And yes, I feel very gratefult that he's so loving and supportive of the challenges I am facing.

    @nikiswimr I would eat Lucky Charms for breakfast, lunch, and dinner if I could. The hardest part is keeping at a serving. 1 cup is just teasing my taste buds :-<

    @justanotherphotographer It takes time and unfortunately the holiday's seem to drag it out. I have a feeling I won't be much better myself until after the New Year.

    @Pickles4Prez Alcoholism also runs in my family so I am very careful as well. I tend to be a binge drinker. I don't drink often but when I do I tend to make up for all the previous days I haven't haha. I agree with the excerise so you can indugle. I am the type of person that wants to lose the extra weight I've gained and then just work out so I can eat the things I want. Which right now is everything!

    I did good last night, my laziness won so I  didn't go to DQ and  I felt too bad asking MH to go (even though he would have). The weekends are what get me every freaking time.

     

     

     

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  • I also have issues with binge eating when emotional. My downfall is chips. I have had many since my loss. Also been drinking a lot more. The worst to me was the Saturday after the loss when I started drinking at 1 p.m. I work out 5-6 days a week so it seems to balance out where I am maintaining my weight from before pg. Still I know it is not good for me, I especially have those thoughts when I throw the empty chip bag away- total guilt from the binge.

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  • Honestly, I am a picky eater, so the things that I do like, I probably indulge in way too often. Most recently it's been the Chewy Chips Ahoy...
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  • I was never really a huge sweets person until I met MH. I try to make myself feel better by just taking bites of his stuff (outside of my DQ blizzards, there ain't no sharing that!) but the little bites add up.

    At the end of the day my only issue is..

     

     

     

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  • @crimpgirl at least you're working out! It's more than I am doing right now :(
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