My friend posted this and after reading it I'm feeling a little better. Like...maybe I've got this after all? Deep breaths!
https://theveggiemama.com/2013/02/two-under-two-how-did-i-do-it/
F15 Siggy Challenge: What You're Looking Forward to Most After Baby Arrives: BELLY SLEEPING!
Re: To my fellow 2U2 Mommas (and those just scared about the 1 to 2 jump)!
Maybe some hope for the future? They're all teenagers now and wonderful kids. They get along great.
I was nervous about 2U2. Breastfeeding made it very difficult, but DS2 wasn't getting enough so he was always feeding.. I felt like we never went anywhere those first few months. Once we supplemented with formula and introduced bottles it got way easier, and now that they are 3 and 1 they're so cute together and I love their age difference.
As far as getting DS1 ready for DS2, we read lots of Big Brother books, and only had him come to the hospital the day we were leaving, so we all went home as a family (instead of grandma and grandpa bringing him in to visit and then leaving, and him seeing the new baby get to stay with his mommy and daddy!). That was really huge for us, especially as I was concerned with jealousy issues. We also had a present from the baby to DS1, and had DS1 give a present to the baby as well. I think all of those things really helped
Edit: wanted to add that you should involve your oldest as much as possible. Have them grab a diaper or wipes or burp cloth, have them help hold the bottle to feed the baby.. We actually referred to the baby as "DS1's baby". I think it really helped him bond. Like I said we had no jealousy issues at all. They are 22 months apart.