I just came down from putting O down for the night and tonight was the night that we put milk in a sippy and gave that to him before his nebulizer treatment and bed rather than me nursing him. I know that I could go longer nursing him at night and first thing in the morning, however, I feel like recently I can tell his nursing, especially the one between 4 and 5, is more about comfort and habit than hunger and nutrition. He had no problem with the milk in the sippy tonight but it made me cry that I am calling an end to it. Also, although we want more kids, there is no guarantee that we will have more, so it just really hit home that I might never have that relationship again.
Upon further reflection, even though I have been thinking about it for a week or more, I don't know what made me decide tonight was the night as I am already super emotional. I got my first PP period on Sunday and my grandfather passed away last night. He was 94 years old and had lived a heck of a life, but that doesn't make me any less sad to see him go.
tl;dr - I have decided to wean O in the middle of an emotional poo-storm...hold me.
Re: Emotional support needed :(