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edited October 2014 in TTC After a Loss

The January Snowflakes check-in is for anyone who has had an EDD or a loss in January of any year. Feel free to join by introducing yourself and telling us your EDD or loss date. This thread will be posted on Monday evenings.

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October 20th

Hi, ladies! I'm going to skip the personal messages this week. My IUI was this morning, and I was pretty nervous last night, so I didn't sleep well. I'm completely exhausted and don't have the energy to put into personal message tonight. I hope you'll all understand. :)  Update us on how you're doing this week!

»»»January ☆ Snowflakes««« 

LSS ☆☆ 1/15/14 & EDD 1/5/15 @Elliecat17 ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/27/14 @BethKate2 ☆☆ Hi!

EDD ☆☆ 1/1/15 @CreechMommy ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/2/15 @rmpar29 ♥twin boys♥ ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/5/15 @Amybunny30 ☆☆  

EDD ☆☆ 1/8/15 @JellicalParker ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/10/15 @CFearsy

EDD ☆☆ 1/12/15 @rslh10 ☆☆ 

EDD ☆☆ 1/21/15 @GreenEyes842 ☆☆ 

EDD ☆☆ 1/23/15 @mrandmrsk91011 ☆☆ 

EDD ☆☆ 1/24/15 @jj32 ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/26/15 @MrsPhD83 ☆☆

EDD ☆☆ 1/30/15 @HoldingOutHope ☆☆


 

TTC since July 2012 
BFP 5/22/13. Lap. to remove ectopic and dx with endo. 6/16/13

RE consult: June 2014

DX: FVL, endo, hypothyroidism, blocked left tube

Oct. 2014: First treatment cycle: Clomid+trigger+IUI=BFN

November 2014: Clomid+trigger+IUI again=BFP!

BFP 11/28/14 MC discovered 1/14/15

Blogging to stay sane

Re: »»»January ☆ Snowflakes«««

  • MrsPhD83MrsPhD83 member
    edited October 2014
    Hiya @BethKate2‌! How did the IUI go? I've been thinking of you! FXd that this is it for you :)

    AFM, I'm doing ok. Having a rough couple of days. 11dpo today. With my first PG, I got my BFP at 11dpo. And even with last cycle's CP, I started getting squinters at 11dpo. Today....Nothing on an FRER. I'm trying to stay optimistic because it's still "early," but I'm assuming I'll see a temp crash and AF tomorrow. I'm having kind of a hard time with it. I know I've mentioned to you ladies before that I felt like I needed to TTA for a cycle because I'm the MOH in my sister's wedding in August. Well. This was our last shot before my self imposed TTA and I'm pissed. I know you guys said I should just go ahead and TTC regardless, but if we conceived next cycle, my EDD would be 7 days before her wedding and I wouldn't be able to go (we live about 4 states away from each other), and I just can't do that to her. MH said this morning after the bfn, "ugh why isn't this working?!" Yes dear, my thoughts exactly. I'm frustrated and annoyed.....and Facebook keeps blowing up with announcements and bullshit..... and I'm feeling bitter. And bitter doesn't look good on me :(

    ETA: also, I realize 1 cycle TTA isn't that long, and others have TTC much longer than I have, which makes me feel bad about feeling so upset. And then I feel worse!!! Love you guys. Sorry for the pity party I'm throwing myself tonight. I'll bring cupcakes to the blanket fort next time.

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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
    Stalk my ute

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  • @MrsPhD83, I hope this cycle is it for you so that you don't need to TTA.

    My IUI went ok today. I was super worried about there being traffic and not being able to get the RE's within an hour, but I made it in 45 minutes. :) Then, I had to sit and wait for over an hour while they washed the sample. When I finally got called in, I was told his numbers were really good. The IUI itself took about 5 minutes, and then I went to work. I've been crampy all day, but the nurse said that might happen. Hopefully I feel better tomorrow.


     

    TTC since July 2012 
    BFP 5/22/13. Lap. to remove ectopic and dx with endo. 6/16/13

    RE consult: June 2014

    DX: FVL, endo, hypothyroidism, blocked left tube

    Oct. 2014: First treatment cycle: Clomid+trigger+IUI=BFN

    November 2014: Clomid+trigger+IUI again=BFP!

    BFP 11/28/14 MC discovered 1/14/15

    Blogging to stay sane

  • Thanks @BethKate2‌! I'm so glad everything went well today and that YH had good numbers. I hope the cramps ease up, and that you're taking care of yourself tonight :) l
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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
    Stalk my ute

  • @Greeneyes842‌, big ((hugs)) to you. I'm sorry you're having a rough week. None of this is easy and I'm sorry it's taking it's toll on you. Yay for your living room makeover though! That sounds like a lot of fun.
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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
    Stalk my ute

  • @mrsphd83 &@greeneyes842 I'm so sorry you're both having a crappy time ((hugs)) 

    @bethkate2 I'm so glad to hear your IUI went well! FX for you of course :)

    AFM- I have an RE appointment on Wednesday and I hope that he will be able to shed some light on my situation. We are TTA (I think....) until January. I'm focusing on losing weight during that time and I've been feeling so stress free not having to worry about everything ttc related. I am so happy. I needed this break (even though I still feel that I'm "wasting" time--ugh). 
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    Ectopic @ 5w6d • Methotrexate Shot 5/18/14
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  • Hello @BethKate2 . FX For your IUI!!!!! 
    Not much here. Total pity party going on. I was so late last cycle, but promised H I wouldn't POAS until we got back. Horrible cramps 2 days after birthday, but such a light flow (though I did have cramps). Who know what my body is doing now! I got my blood drawn today to test for diabetes and also to check if my thyroid meds are helping. Seeing my stand in OB on friday and possibly talking about moving on to an RE.
    Me: 24 
    DH: 25
    BFP: 1/12/14       EDD: 9/18/14     MC: 1/15/14
    BFP: 5/6/14         EDD: 1/5/15       MC: 5/10/14
    BFP: 12/29/14      EDD: 9/12/15      MC: 1/5/15
    Dx: PCOS - 8/20/14, Hashimoto's - 10/10/14, Gluten Allergy 10/10/14


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  • Good evening ladies!
    @BethKate2 I hope your cramps subside soon. And I really do hope your IUI works for you this cycle. It sounds like its an extraordinarily stressful process. As much as I love having you for a check in leader, I really want for you to graduate :)

    @MrsPHD83 Don't feel down on yourself yet. You aren't out until AF sings. I know we all want early positives, but the patience we learn in waiting, especially if it ends in a bfp is totally worth it :) I hope this is it for you. And GL with dealing with being a MOH, it can be a stressful thing to do for someone. 

    @greeneyes842 I'm sorry you're having a tough time dealing with ttc. Don't forget, you can always keep trying while lessening your stress too. I've made a concerted effort with MH this cycle to just focus on one day at a time. It has really helped us through quite a bit this month. 

    @rslh10 GL with your RE appointment. I hope they are able to give you clarity and hopefully good news! :) 

    @elliecat17 I'm sorry to hear you are going through medical tests for diabetes. That is one thing I am most terrified of, it runs on both sides of my family. I hope they are able to help you resolve whatever problems you are having quickly and efficiently. 

    AFM: It's been one hell of a month, but things seem to be turning back around. I have one week left at my restaurant job before I start at a photography studio. I couldn't be more excited about that. 
    I am in the 2ww and annoyed as hell at FF. Normally my cycle would have started today, still not here but still negative and FF keeps moving my O date back which is just driving me nuts. temp is still fairly high, but we shall see. Here's hoping I don't lose my mind between now and Friday, when I expect AF should definitely be here. 
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  • @BethKate2 FX that this IUI works for you!!

    AFM I'm half way through my TWW - not going too crazy yet lol.  For the first time there are NO pee sticks in the house!!! No temptation! Hopefully I can hold off going to the store for some for another few days!

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    This week my SIL announced the gender of her baby - I didn't go to the reveal party, but of course I heard the news.  I handled it well - I didn't cry and I actually shared the news of my new nephew on facebook.  I haven't been supportive of her - not in a mean way, just in a "I can't comment on your pics" kinda way.  So I thought it was time I start getting excited with her.  This is my family after all.  And I am excited, it's just a reminder as we all know

    Ashleigh (26) and Darren (26)
    Married 8-10-13
    TTC since February 2014
    BFP #1 4-22-14  EDD 1-1-15
    8w u/s 5-22-14 Baby measuring 6w1d. Heartbeat detected
    Went to Dr. 5-30-14 due to bleeding. Prescribed progesterone
    Went to ER 6-1-14 2:30 AM - diagnosed with incomplete m/c
    6-6-14 natural m/c completed
    10-24-14 BFP #2 EDD 7-6-15 **Please** be our Rainbo

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  • @BethKate2 - Keeping my FX for you honey!  I was always crampy the day of my IUIs and always felt better the next day.  Hopefully, you are feeling better today!

    @MrsPhD83 - I'm so sorry for the BFNs.  You have every right to throw a pity party and crawl into your blanket fort!  TTC is so hard and TTA is hard too.  Sending many (((((HUGS))))

    @Greeneyes842 - I'm sorry that you are struggling.  I've been there, I know how hard it is to stay optimistic.  Just take it one day at a time and try to occupy your mind with other things when you can.

    @rslh10 - I know what you mean about needing a break.  I used these last three cycles to focus on losing weight and just trying to get healthier and it has been a good break.  Good luck with your appointment!

    @Elliecat17 - I hope you get good results from your b/w and that you have a good appointment with your OB.

    @JellicalParker - I'm sorry that your body is not behaving.  Looks like your temp dropped, so maybe you can move on soon.  (((HUGS))

    @CreechMommy - I'm glad that you are feeling some excitement for your nephew.  It's so hard!  Take care of yourself and I hope you continue to be strong for your TWW.  FX!

    AFM: I'm finishing up my last TTA cycle.  I'm done with my BCP, so I'm just waiting on AF to get started.  I picked up my BBT and started temping this week to get back into the habit.  Now, it's time to see what my body's going to do and what my new "normal" will be. 
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    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

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  • Update: Major temp crash this morning. CD1 should be starting any moment now. On the agenda for today: Coffee, alcohol, and a blanket fort. I have a routine annual exam with my OB's APRN scheduled in a couple weeks and another appt with the MD to discuss my CP (and to ask about an RPL panel). Also need to game plan this impending TTA cycle with MH. We already agreed on TTA for 1 cycle, but this morning he said "so I guess we can try again around Christmas." I was like...How long do you think my cycles are??? lol. men.



    @rslh10, I'm so glad you're feeling less stressed! I've been thinking that the one good thing that may come from a TTA cycle is being able to let go of my stress a little. You're giving me hope that it's possible! haha. I am excited for your RE appt this week and hope they have helpful things to say!

    @Elliecat17, I hope your bloodwork comes back ok, and that you are able to get in to see a RE.

    @JellicalParker, it looks like your temp dropped so AF is unfortunately likely around the corner. :( But congrats on starting the new photography studio! Very exciting!

    @CreechMommy, I'm glad you're in a place where you can start to be excited about your nephew. It's so hard. I've been dealing with similar things with friends lately. Honestly, for me, it's a day-to-day thing. Some days I'm happy and can be involved and look at pics and be happy. And other days I will purposefully not "like" pics of Fbook and ignore texts. Anyway, I'm keeping my FX'd for you!

    @rmpar29, YAYYYYY!!! I love a good bench burning party! I hope your "new normal" is ok and that everything kicks off smoothly :)

    @jj32, blanket for is a must!!! I'm glad you and YH have been having a good time lately. I miss Florida fall! Its such a nice time of year.

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    Me: 31, DH: 30, Married July 2013
    TTC since March 2014
    BFP#1  5.17.14, EDD 1.26.15, MMC (measuring 6w3d at 8w3d), D&C 6.26.14
    BFP#2  9.19.14, EDD 5.29.15, AF on 9.23.14 CP
    BFP#3  12.17.14, EDD 8.25.15, AF on 12.21.14 CP#2

    Current plan: TTC while waiting for RPL results to come back
    Stalk my ute

  • @MrsPhD83 It really is day to day - some days I'm perfectly okay with hearing news and seeing pictures and other days I need the blanket fort and for people to just go away.  Usually the bad days are after something else happened that set me off like dr. bill came or I've been thinking too much about the loss, etc.  
    One thing I've learned from all the ladies here is it's ok to have ups and downs.  If I need to take time for me, I don't feel guilty for it.  My baby died 4 months ago.  That's what I tell myself when I start feeling guilty for feeling sad.  A month ago when I didn't go to a baby shower, a friend told me "well it's only been 3 months since your loss - of course you're still very sensitive" and I was stunned.  It seemed like so long ago, but she was right - it had only been a few months.  
    Over time, I know it will change and I will deal with my grief differently and probably be able to get really excited with friends and family, but for now I'm ok not knowing how I'll feel day to day. 

    Ashleigh (26) and Darren (26)
    Married 8-10-13
    TTC since February 2014
    BFP #1 4-22-14  EDD 1-1-15
    8w u/s 5-22-14 Baby measuring 6w1d. Heartbeat detected
    Went to Dr. 5-30-14 due to bleeding. Prescribed progesterone
    Went to ER 6-1-14 2:30 AM - diagnosed with incomplete m/c
    6-6-14 natural m/c completed
    10-24-14 BFP #2 EDD 7-6-15 **Please** be our Rainbo

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  • Update: I totally expected AF today. But nothing. Temp went back up a little and of course I didn't test because well, I thought this cycle would be over. Forgive me while I go crazy because this 2ww has turned into 3ww since ff has kept changing my crosshairs.
    @CreechMommy‌ @MrsPhD83‌ a blanket fort sounds amazing. I might just have to wreck my living room and make a fort with the dogs tonight.
    Thanks for the FX ladies....
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  • @JellicalParker, FWIW, I think I agree with your current CHs. FX for this cycle! If this isn't it, though, you might want to consider adding OPKs into the mix to give FF more information.

    @MrsPhD83, sorry about the temp drop. ((hugs))

    @jj32, I hear you about the cooler weather and football. I love fall!

    @rmpar29, Yay for getting ready to TTC again!

    @Elliecat17, GL with your appointment and possibly moving on to a RE. I've found that I received a completely different level of care at my RE compared to my OB (and any other doctor I've seen).

    @CreechMommy, we all have days that are worse than others. It sucks, but it's normal. GL this cycle!



     

    TTC since July 2012 
    BFP 5/22/13. Lap. to remove ectopic and dx with endo. 6/16/13

    RE consult: June 2014

    DX: FVL, endo, hypothyroidism, blocked left tube

    Oct. 2014: First treatment cycle: Clomid+trigger+IUI=BFN

    November 2014: Clomid+trigger+IUI again=BFP!

    BFP 11/28/14 MC discovered 1/14/15

    Blogging to stay sane

  • @Greeneyes842, I completely hear you about TTC wearing on you. I'm over it at this point and I'm just ready to be done. ((hugs))


    AFM, I'm still crampy today, but not as bad as yesterday. I start taking progesterone tonight, so I'm sure the cramps and other symptoms will be here in full force starting tomorrow.


     

    TTC since July 2012 
    BFP 5/22/13. Lap. to remove ectopic and dx with endo. 6/16/13

    RE consult: June 2014

    DX: FVL, endo, hypothyroidism, blocked left tube

    Oct. 2014: First treatment cycle: Clomid+trigger+IUI=BFN

    November 2014: Clomid+trigger+IUI again=BFP!

    BFP 11/28/14 MC discovered 1/14/15

    Blogging to stay sane

  • @CFearsy, I'm so, so sorry. "Fuck," is right. HUGE hugs to you.

    I'll add you back on now.


     

    TTC since July 2012 
    BFP 5/22/13. Lap. to remove ectopic and dx with endo. 6/16/13

    RE consult: June 2014

    DX: FVL, endo, hypothyroidism, blocked left tube

    Oct. 2014: First treatment cycle: Clomid+trigger+IUI=BFN

    November 2014: Clomid+trigger+IUI again=BFP!

    BFP 11/28/14 MC discovered 1/14/15

    Blogging to stay sane

  • @Cfearsy OH NO!!! *HUGS* I'm so sad to see you back with us. :( 
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  • @Cfearsy - I'm so sorry to see you back here honey!  "Fuck" doesn't even begin to cover it. 

    @jj32 - I'm glad that you've been enjoying the colder weather and football.

    @MrsPhD83 - So sorry to see AF hon.  Big (((((((HUGS))))))))))

    @BethKate2 - Good luck with the progesterone!

    @JellicalParker - So sorry to see that temp drop hon.  (((((HUGS))))
    TTC #3 since 8/2012 image
    DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS
    6/2010
     BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
    BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014

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