Hi everyone. I found out about a week and a half ago (I was 11 weeks) that my baby had passed on. It was a complete shock since I had no bleeding or cramping and I naively thought I was almost in the clear being 11 weeks. I have never been so sad in my life.
I still haven't miscarried, but I think I am going the cytotec route on Saturday. For some reason I am so nervous to take it. I worry it's going to be awful and I also worry that it won't work. My midwife said it sometimes takes two doses, but I really hope it works quickly the first time.
Anyway, I wanted to stop in and make myself known. I will try to post occasionally (probably more later on), it's just been really hard to bring myself back to the boards. I am so so sorry you all have had to go through this. I always thought miscarriage was horribly sad, but I now realize it is so much deeper than that. The heartbreaking and numbing pain is completely indescribable as I know you all understand.
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I had a missed m/c with my first loss, and went the cytotec route. It's definitely not a walk in the park, but I had decided I'd rather be at home than go in and under anesthesia for a D+C.
Again, so sorry.
::The sudden disappointment of a hope leaves a scar that even the ultimate fullfillment of that hope cannot fully erase:: Thomas Hardy
when i found about at 12weeks(to the day) that i had a mmc...i was devastated..and TERRIFIED of the d&c they scheduled me for. I also had no symptoms and thought i was in the clear once i hit 12 weeks. That night...i started spotting..two days later, they gave me HALF a dose of cytotec in preparation for my d&c. It was supposed to soften my cervix. instead, because im a special snowflake, it cause me to have contractions from 830pm until my surgery the next morning. I ended up passing the baby as a result of that half a dose of cytotec. They decided to still give me the d&c cause i still had some tissue in my cervix and they wanted to ensure it was all out.
Because im so "special" i cant tell you how cytotec will effect you. But i can tell you that my d&c was a breeze and i wish i had gone that route instead of the cytotec. i was fine after the surgery with no pain. The decision is of course up to you and your doctor but i just wanted to share so you know if you HAVE to go the d&c route..its not as bad as you may be picturing. So sorry for your loss..and best of luck to you.
~TTC #1 Since 3/2014
~BFP #1 6/2014 EDD 2/11/15
~MMC 7/31/14 @12weeks ~D&C /2/2014