I put off joining here for a good while because first I was in shock, then I was busy healing, and then I was waiting for news.
My back story. TTC since 2011, but found success during our first full cycle of IVF. Things were going great until 7w3d when I had a bleeding episode, no cramping. Baby's hb was slow, but still there, I was told to go home and be a vegetable. Next appt 2 days later still showed a hb, it was better, but still slow. I was told to take it easy and come back in a week. At 8w3d baby only measured 8w and had no hb. I had a D&C that Friday. It's been 3 weeks since the D&C, I physically feel better, and even started working out again. But today I finally got the results of our baby's chromosomal assessment.
Chromosomally normal baby girl. I am devastated.
They prepare you saying that miscarriage is normal, and usually caused by embryo/fetal chromosomal defect. They prepare you for future success. Now I know that my baby girl was likely fine, and there is something in me that did not let her thrive.
I know I can't speculate as to what the reason for this was. But Ive got 5 embryos frozen and I am deathly afraid to transfer them now. I cannot take carrying and loosing another healthy baby. I have an appt to talk to my RE about the results and steps forward on Friday, I plan to suggest doing the genetic screening for myself, and possibly DH.
Sorry this was long. It just sucks that any of us have to be here at all.
My prayer are with you all as well.
Re: Put off joining for a while. Intro
*************Siggy Warning. Loss mentioned.************
Me: 36, DH:37
Married 4/2010, TTC since 7/2011
Dx: Officially Unexplained (I have Polycystic Ovaries diagnosed via ultrasound, but few classic PCOS symptoms, he has mild MF issues. So... not issue free, but nothing so severe as to explain IF)
I also deal with post-surgical Hypothyroidism following Thyroid Cancer in 2009, but under control with Levothyroxine
4 months Clomid (thinned lining) and 10 months Letrozole (every indication that I responded perfectly)
6 failed IUIs in 2013, 3 with trigger
IVF #1 in March 2014
ER 3/21/14, 31R/21F, 12 frosties!
ET 3/26/14, 1 perfect blast transferred: BFN
FET#1 5/28/14, 2 "beautiful" early blasts transferred. BFP!!
Beta #1 (6/11/14) 798; Beta #2 (6/18/14) 7,966.
1st u/s (6/25/14) showed 2 sacs, 1 empty & 1 with a beautiful little bean doing what it needs to do!
EDD 2/14/15, missed miscarriage, DX: Trisomy 21. D&C 8/1/14
FET#2 Transferred 3 embies, 2 looking pretty good, one not so much. BFN.
IVF#2 January 2015, tentative ER 1/23
Me:36, DH:37
DS born 11/2012
BFP 7/26/14, Missed M/C at 8 weeks, discovered at 10 wks, 6 days, D&C 9/22/14, Dx: Partial molar pregnancy
-----------------------------------SIGGY WARNING-------------------------------------
Me: 31| DH: 36
TTC #1 Since 07/2010
DX: Unexplained Infertility
TX:
IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN
IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks
FigureSkater8 -- For us, knowing the gender made it more difficult to handle. It made it easier to picture all the experiences that we had lost. My husband, who isn't a crier at all, teared up when he heard the news and it still really gets to him.