Good Morning Ladies!! I hope everyone had a great week!!
This is a weekly check-in on Tuesdays for March moms who have experienced a pregnancy loss prior to this one. I'm sorry if you have to be here but feel free to jump right in & post an intro.
-----Special ((((Hugs))))) to the ladies that have lost their little one this past week-----
Please share the following in your post
Pregnancy Loss Background (if this is your first time on the check-in):
EDD (if this is your first time on the check in):
Gestation in weeks/fruit:
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement:
October 15 is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. This year the ladies on the AL boards are planning an awareness campaign for anyone that is interested in participating. Here is the link to the PgAL post about the October Awareness Campaign if you are interested in participating. Along with this there are other events being held throughout October, such as Capture Your Grief to help AL mom's heal and to raise awareness of how common Pregnancy and Infant Loss really is. So my GTKY for the week- are you "out" with your loss(es)? Are you participating in any of the events or have you in the past? What did you find helpful? I'd love to hear more about people's individual stories (only if you find it therapeutic to talk about and are open). I don't mean to hurt or bring up hard feelings for anyone, I just want to remember our angels
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Gestation in weeks/fruit: 19w! Mango << ALMOST HALF BAKED!
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I feel great honestly. Having nothing exciting to report is one of the best feelings in the world.
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: We had our A/S last Wednesday and that went wonderfully :-D Little Aubrey was squirming and shaking and we were there for an hour and almost had to come back (I would not have been upset!) but she finally cooperated. We had the AFP? I don't know what it's really called but the blood test for neural tube defects and found out that that is negative. So overall things are good. I have another OB appointment in 4 weeks at 22 weeks. YAY for being half baked and getting so close to V-day!
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement: Life is fucking good. I'm going to Phoenix next week for work and get to meet up with a fellow bumpie which I am PSYCHED about!!! Then I'm driving up to Vegas on Friday for a long weekend with my brother who I haven't seen since Christmas
As for October I partially participated in Capture Your Grief last year but my 3rd loss was at the end of September and my D&C was October 2 so it was still really raw for me. I haven't particpated this year but I do find comfort in reading the threads and seeing others updates on PgAL and TTCAL. I am strongly considering participating in the Awareness Campaign. I feel like I'm hiding a piece of me when I don't tell people about my losses. It's part of who I am and makes up the person I am today. It feels wrong to have to hide that, but DH is much more private so I am going to check with him before doing anything.
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically great with the exception of the lower back pain. Emotionally I have been feeling much better since our loss EDD. I am trying hard to enjoy this pregnancy and focus more on the happiness of the now.
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Anatomy scan last week. We are having another girl. Also, had an OB appointment today and got to hear the heartbeat. We have to have a second u/s as a follow up to a/s because they couldn't see everything they needed but I'm staying optimistic that she's healthy.
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement: A friend on another board just had a loss at 22 weeks which breaks my heart. I wish so much that this didn't happen. On the other side, I'm so excited for a sister for DD and I am happy to finally be getting over this stubborn cold.
So my GTKY for the week- are you "out" with your loss(es)? Are you participating in any of the events or have you in the past? What did you find helpful? Yes, we have told our closest friends and our immediate families. Talking about it helps me a lot but DH prefers not to talk about it as much. This year we are lighting a candle for the angel babies on our wedding anniversary board, including our angel. More than 1 in 4 of us have had losses and there's been at least three late term losses. It is heartbreaking but we want to honor our losses even in this small way. That is as much as I feel I can participate in remembrance this year.
MC: 2/19/14
Gestation in weeks/fruit: 19w (officially the most pregnant I have ever been)
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically feeling better. Other then the horrible heart burn/indigestion I feel good. Emotionally I am loving feeling the baby move more and more. Also can I mention again I am past my loss date so this is the most pregnant I have ever been!!
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I have my A/S next Wednesday. I am excited to find out the sex of the little one. I have been getting weekly u/s since 14w so I know baby has been looking good and measuring accordingly however I am still excited for a nice long u/s next week.
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement: Being the most pregnant I have ever been and I am excited for next weeks a/s.
QOTW: I am out about my loss because I had an 18w loss so I finally had made it Facebook official the day of the a/s last time and less then a week later I was in L&D having a baby. I participated in the March of Dimes last year and plan to continue to do so in remembrance of Brynlee Madeline.
Me: 30 DP: 30
TTC#1
IUI#1 9/26/13 BFN
IUI#2 10/26/13 BFP beta #1 99 #2 456
2/20/2014 Brynlee Madeline is taken too soon at 19weeks she was perfect
IUI#3 6/10/14 BFP beta #1 276 beta #2 722 20w A/S shows we are having a girl
How are you feeling physically? Good actually, no problems to report.
Emotionally? Better. I had an appt today and didn't freak out before. My PGAL brain seems to be getting quieter.
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
A/S appt 10/17, I'm excited, but nervous. We know we are team pink, just want to be team healthy!
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement: at my appt today, we heard her heartbeat, although it was difficult due to anterior placenta...and I've only gained 2lbs so far! I'm a bigger girl, so dr is happy with that. All I need to do is pass my 3 hour glucose!
So my GTKY for the week- are you "out" with your loss(es)? Yes. I'm very open about my loss last year, and even got a rememberance tattoo.
Are you participating in any of the events or have you in the past? I will check out the campaigns, thank you for the links..
What did you find helpful? Getting my tattoo brought me peace. It was my first tattoo at 40, and helped me heal more than I thought it would. As wonderfully excited as I am for this baby girl, I never forget the feeling of loss.
I've attached a pic of my tattoo (hope that is ok!), the halo has the color of her would have been birthstone (Nov)
Hugs ladies!!
Me (40) DH (45); Started dating 2-24-12, Married 5-13-13
BFP 3-16-13..EDD 11-17-13.. MMC 4-16-13 Confirmed/D&C 4-23-13...
BFP #4 6-22-14 EDD 3-6-15 FX for our LO
15w2d/orange
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
My tailbone HURTS! Just tired and a little crampy here and there and hips hurting at night. Emotionally- Just trying to remain positive when those negative thoughts try to creep up.
Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
None til the 23
Vent/bitch/complain/excitement: found out it's 2 boys!
GTKY: My family and friends know. As I've started to feel more confident in this pregnancy and tell people, I automatically say that we've been trying for 4 years and had 3 losses. I post on Fb and Insta on the 15th the 'I am 1 in 4' but may do more this year. Will definitely check out the links, so thanks for sharing those.
Well-behaved women rarely make history.
BFP #1 ~ 4.29.11 | Blighted Ovum 6.2.11 | D&C 6.9.11
DX Unicornuate Uterus 4.12
BFP #2 ~ 10.12.12 | m/c 11.25.12 | D&C 2.8.13
BFP #3 ~ 12.11.13 | heartbeat ~12.20
| no heartbeat ~12.27 | D&C 1.6.14
BFP #4 ~ 7.20.14 | EDD 3.29.15 | heartbeat x2 eeek! ~ 8.4 | heard heartbeat-120 ~ 8.8 |
11.6.14 Courtland Jeremiah & Landon Joseph born sleeping