TTC After a Loss

**** Monday Crazy Train *****

This is a thread posted daily for any of us who need to get out our frustrations about waiting to O, the 2WW, or vent about our cycles. If you find yourself checking FF obsessively, MF is getting the best of you, or you just want to pee on all things, let it out here!

In order for the conductors to be better able to help you, please make sure you either have a FF chart link in your sig, or make sure you post a link. Don't chart? You should consider it, not only will it give you a lot more insight to your cycles, but conductors will be able to answer a lot of your questions just by looking at your chart! To learn more about charting, check out the charting course that FF offers:https://www.fertilityfriend.com/courses/

The CT is not the place to post a BFP. If you have a "squinter" or if you have a line that appeared after the time frame, please do not post about it here. Take a step back from the board, test again with FMU, and good luck!

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Crazy level from 1-10:

CD/DPO:

Can I just ______ already?!:

Signs/Symptoms:

Explain your Crazy here:

Re: **** Monday Crazy Train *****

  • Crazy level from 1-10: 5

    CD/DPO: 25/10

    Can I just know if this cycle was successful already?!

    Signs/Symptoms: I've been extremely tired, even falling asleep early on the couch.

    Explain your Crazy here: I'm really nervous to start doing HPTs. This is my first cycle TTC since my MMC and while I don't feel confident that I'm going to get a BFP, I'm scared I'll be over-the-top sad if I don't. I really don't want to see AF this weekend.



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  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8 CD: 19 Can I just ovulate already?! Signs/symptoms: None. My OPKs are staying consistently negative and my temps are still low. Explain your crazy: well I'm supposed to do my 7 dpo BW, so of course I would have a late O month. My dr still wants me to go in on Wed, but I'm going to insist that I get another slip to go after I actually ovulate. It just would have been nice to have my normal shorter cycle so I would have to go through extra hoops since my dr doesn't seem to think ovulate is easy to confirm. ::head desk::
    @ldubhawksfan Don't you just love how, when we WANT our bodies to do something, they refuse? I'm sure that if you had nothing on the calendar for this month your body would be humming along just as usual... grrrrrrr. 
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    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • Belle0720 said:

    Crazy level from 1-10: 5

    CD/DPO: 25/10

    Can I just know if this cycle was successful already?!

    Signs/Symptoms: I've been extremely tired, even falling asleep early on the couch.

    Explain your Crazy here: I'm really nervous to start doing HPTs. This is my first cycle TTC since my MMC and while I don't feel confident that I'm going to get a BFP, I'm scared I'll be over-the-top sad if I don't. I really don't want to see AF this weekend.

    FX for you. The first cycle is always hard. It's a really strange feeling, somewhat torn I guess? FX for you!

  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8 CD: 19 Can I just ovulate already?! Signs/symptoms: None. My OPKs are staying consistently negative and my temps are still low. Explain your crazy: well I'm supposed to do my 7 dpo BW, so of course I would have a late O month. My dr still wants me to go in on Wed, but I'm going to insist that I get another slip to go after I actually ovulate. It just would have been nice to have my normal shorter cycle so I would have to go through extra hoops since my dr doesn't seem to think ovulate is easy to confirm. ::head desk::
    FX you O soon so you can get your BW done! I'd push for a second slip if you haven't Oed by wednesday!
  • Crazy level from 1-10: 5
    CD/DPO: ?/?
    Can I just have my body go back to normal already?! It's not so much that I'm in a hurry to TTC, it's more basic than that, I just want to know what's going on. I haven't had AF since MC so CD/DPO, no idea. I did pull out the OPKs last week, they look all over the place but consistently negative.
    It's funny, I said when we started TTC that I wasn't in a hurry to get pregnant but more interested in finding out if we had fertility problems ASAP. I know how stupid that sounds. Now I'm in a hurry to know when my body is back to "normal." Google says O is 2 to 4 weeks after MC, big window. I need to be patient. Once AF gets here I should start charting so I can satisfy my need to know.
    Signs/symptoms: Nada. Feeling good just slightly stressed sitting in the dark on this
    Married 9/23/11
    BFP #1   9/7/14 MC confirmed 9/17/14
    BFP #2  11/20/14   EDD 8/4/15
    Baby girl born 7/22/15
    BFP #3 5/6/17  EDD 1/19/18
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  • medic7979 said:
    Flurison said:
    Crazy level from 1-10: 5 CD/DPO: ?/? Can I just have my body go back to normal already?! It's not so much that I'm in a hurry to TTC, it's more basic than that, I just want to know what's going on. I haven't had AF since MC so CD/DPO, no idea. I did pull out the OPKs last week, they look all over the place but consistently negative. It's funny, I said when we started TTC that I wasn't in a hurry to get pregnant but more interested in finding out if we had fertility problems ASAP. I know how stupid that sounds. Now I'm in a hurry to know when my body is back to "normal." Google says O is 2 to 4 weeks after MC, big window. I need to be patient. Once AF gets here I should start charting so I can satisfy my need to know. Signs/symptoms: Nada. Feeling good just slightly stressed sitting in the dark on this
    Don't count on Dr Google for exact info.  I didn't get AF until 10 weeks post loss.  It was a terrible wait.  I hope yours doesn't take as long and you can get back to "normal" asap.  ((HUGS))
    All of this.

    I'm so sorry for your loss and for being in limbo. Waiting is so so hard. Please keep temping to keep track of what's going on but like Medic pointed out it can take longer than the average 4 weeks that google tells you.
  • I'm going to hop on today!

    Crazy level from 1-10: 6

    CD/DPO: 20/6

    Can I just ______ already?!: know

    Signs/Symptoms: This morning I thought our bread (5 days old) smelled so terrible I almost threw up ...  there is no mold or anything and I don't normally smell bad bread even when there is... so either it came from the store bad or I have heightened sense of smell.

    Explain your Crazy here: I know I have a long rest of my TWW if I'm already feeling the crazy, but my biggest worry comes from my short LP last cycle. It was my first cycle post MC (my first cycle temping as well), and I ovulated later (CD 19), but only had a 9 day LP. I've read that although your follicular phase is known to fluctuate, your luteal phase typically stays close to the same. So I guess I'm just hoping AF doesn't show herself on Friday, and of course I've already jumped to conclusions. I know the first cycle post MC is nothing to base anything off of, but I can't help but worry  :(

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  • matiekae said:

    I'm going to hop on today!

    Crazy level from 1-10: 6

    CD/DPO: 20/6

    Can I just ______ already?!: know

    Signs/Symptoms: This morning I thought our bread (5 days old) smelled so terrible I almost threw up ...  there is no mold or anything and I don't normally smell bad bread even when there is... so either it came from the store bad or I have heightened sense of smell.

    Explain your Crazy here: I know I have a long rest of my TWW if I'm already feeling the crazy, but my biggest worry comes from my short LP last cycle. It was my first cycle post MC (my first cycle temping as well), and I ovulated later (CD 19), but only had a 9 day LP. I've read that although your follicular phase is known to fluctuate, your luteal phase typically stays close to the same. So I guess I'm just hoping AF doesn't show herself on Friday, and of course I've already jumped to conclusions. I know the first cycle post MC is nothing to base anything off of, but I can't help but worry  :(

    Cycles are all kinds of crazy after a loss. It can take a few cycles to regulate. I wouldn't worry too much at this point - but, if you notice that your LP is regularly short then you should mention it to your doc. The solution is usually progesterone starting on 3dpo.
  • @Belle0720 FX for you! It is also our first TTC cycle since and I understand how you feel. I have my hopes up one day and feel completely discouraged the next... then a bit scared, then sad, then hopeful. Only time will tell, I'll be thinking of you!

    @LDubHawksFan come on O! Cooperate!

    @Flurison So sorry your body is taking it's time getting back to normal. It's hard to be patient I'm sure, and everyone is so different!


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  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8


    CD/DPO: cd20


    Can I just ______ already?!: O!


    Signs/Symptoms: I've had fertile cm for like a week straight


    Explain your Crazy here: I thought using opks this cycle would make me less crazy...nope! They are still super light. I had one over the weekend that was slightly darker than the previous ones (still a long way from positive) so I tested again that day and it was back to barely a line. My temps went wonky b/c I had a cold now they're back to normal. DH and I have been on a mini sex marathon hoping for O soon, but we're probably going to scale back since I have no idea when I might actually ovulate.

    Started TTC Nov. 2011 

    1st clomid cycle June 2012- No response :: HSG August 2012- Left tube blocked, right tube clear :: 2nd clomid cycle Aug. 2012 BFN :: 3rd clomid cycle Sept. 2012 :: BFP Sept 30th :: DS born 6/15/13 :: BFP #2 7/29/14 M/C 8/5/14 :: BFP#3 10/20/14 DD born 7/1/2015 :: Applied to be surrogate April '17 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for IFs Dec. '17 :: Surro Babe born 9/11/18 :: Started 2nd Journey May '19 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for new IFs 9/24/19 :: HB 138 at 6w6d


  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8
    CD/DPO: cd20
    Can I just ______ already?!: O!
    Signs/Symptoms: I've had fertile cm for like a week straight
    Explain your Crazy here: I thought using opks this cycle would make me less crazy...nope! They are still super light. I had one over the weekend that was slightly darker than the previous ones (still a long way from positive) so I tested again that day and it was back to barely a line. My temps went wonky b/c I had a cold now they're back to normal. DH and I have been on a mini sex marathon hoping for O soon, but we're probably going to scale back since I have no idea when I might actually ovulate.
    @natalie115 are you using cheapie OPKs (like Wondfo or similar)? If so, I just wanted to chime in that when I use cheapies, they go from barely a line to positive and then back to negative pretty quickly. So don't despair. A +OPK  might sneak up on you still!
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    BFP #1 - DS born 7/11/11
    BFP#2 11/13/13 - EDD 7/29/14 - M/C at 5w3d
    BFP #3 12/28/13 - EDD 9/7/14 - M/C at 4w6d
    BFP#4 3/27/14 -  EDD 12/5/14 - Girl lost to 45X at 8w6d - D&C 
    BFP#5 10/15/14 - EDD 6/30/15 - M/C at 7w2d
    BFP #6 1/5/15 - EDD 9.16.14 [CLICKY for progress]
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  • @Belle0720‌ fx for a BFP!

    @LDubHawksFan‌ hoping you O soon...we're having the same frustrations!

    @Flurison‌ having weird post MC cycles is super annoying. I'm still dealing with messed up cycles and it's driving me bonkers! Fx your body gets back to normal soon

    @matiekae‌ fx that AF stays away and you see a BFP!

    Started TTC Nov. 2011 

    1st clomid cycle June 2012- No response :: HSG August 2012- Left tube blocked, right tube clear :: 2nd clomid cycle Aug. 2012 BFN :: 3rd clomid cycle Sept. 2012 :: BFP Sept 30th :: DS born 6/15/13 :: BFP #2 7/29/14 M/C 8/5/14 :: BFP#3 10/20/14 DD born 7/1/2015 :: Applied to be surrogate April '17 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for IFs Dec. '17 :: Surro Babe born 9/11/18 :: Started 2nd Journey May '19 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for new IFs 9/24/19 :: HB 138 at 6w6d


  • Crazy level from 1-10: 8

    CD/DPO: 11DPO

    Can I just ______ already?!: Get past this cycle

    Signs/Symptoms: pmsy & BFN

    Explain your Crazy here: Today was my EDD and even though I new I should not I POAS not just once but twice...ugh. I know a BFN at 11 DPO doesn't mean you're out necessarily but I think I am and would just prefer to get past it.

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    BFP 1/17/15 * EDD 9/30/15

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  • Crazy level from 1-10: 4ish

    CD/DPO: CD10

    Can I just ______ already?!: Know what the FUCK my body is doing

    Signs/Symptoms/Explain your Crazy here: (It's all wrapped up together) Yesterday I had EWCM. Absolutely no doubts about it, it was clear and stretchy and there was a whole heck of a lot of it. Cervix was high and soft. Today... back to creamy, cervix low and firm. WTF body. Seriously, WTF.

    My temps haven't gone up, but even if they did I wouldn't be able to trust them because I've been battling a cold and low grade fever on and off since Wednesday.


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    F born June 2018
    W born September 2020
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  • @bookishmama‌ I'm using cheapies...I can't remember how it went the last time I used them since it's been a couple years. I'll definitely keep testing, hopefully I don't use all 50 this cycle LOL

    Started TTC Nov. 2011 

    1st clomid cycle June 2012- No response :: HSG August 2012- Left tube blocked, right tube clear :: 2nd clomid cycle Aug. 2012 BFN :: 3rd clomid cycle Sept. 2012 :: BFP Sept 30th :: DS born 6/15/13 :: BFP #2 7/29/14 M/C 8/5/14 :: BFP#3 10/20/14 DD born 7/1/2015 :: Applied to be surrogate April '17 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for IFs Dec. '17 :: Surro Babe born 9/11/18 :: Started 2nd Journey May '19 :: Transferred 1 Embryo for new IFs 9/24/19 :: HB 138 at 6w6d


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