Pregnant after a Loss

Always thinking the worst (╯︵╰,)

I know this is probably common but I'm the most pregnant I've ever been and still always wprried I've had 2 miscarriages 4 years ago ( one at 6 weeks the other at 11) and I thought by now ( almost 16 weeks) I would relax and enjoy my pregnancy and that just hasn't happened. Every cramp, twinge, backache or pain I always think the worst. How did you ladies overcome this? I just feel like I don't enjoy my pregnancy because of fear :(

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  • I'm 24 weeks well..almost 25 and there are still days I'm crippled with fear..it is hard..take one day at a time. Do the mantras on the board...I think that is all we can do..but your not alone:)
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  • This is the most pregnant I've ever been, too, and I still have days of crippling anxiety. It's definitely getting better the further along I've gotten, but I'm sure I'll always be a wreck before major ultrasounds!
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  • I'm about 35 weeks and I still have days where I am a nervous wreck. I think unfortunately it just goes with the territory of being PGAL. I do try to remind myself that those feelings of doubt/anxiety aren't related to how my pregnancy will go but rather just because of being PGAL. I do need to make an effort to try to not let the fear overcome the joy but it's hard. The mantras do help and hopefully good appointments/ultrasounds as your pregnancy progresses will help give you some confidence too. You are not alone. Hugs.
  • So my coping mechanism may not be the most "healthy". It is probably very unhealthy actually. I also have had several losses. I do not list them in signature because it is too depressing and there'd be too many "loss dates" or whatever. Anyway I actually just distance myself from it all. I take my prenatals and go through the motions and do the things my Ob/Gyn tells me to do (or try to do them all) but I don't think about being preggers a lot really. I just go about my day as normal as possible (although it now includes naps which is new). Anyway I am also the most PG I have ever been and had the best medical outlook but still it helps me to keep my blood pressure and anxiety low to just "not think about it". I guess it sounds cold and I worry I am not "bonding enough" but ya know what? It keeps me sane which I think is really healthy. I go to work and I volunteer a lot plus I have hobbies so those things are my "focus" and not being pregnant. If I focused on being pregnant I would be all doom and gloom. So this way I just realize I have a wonderful happy life and being pregnant is an incredible bonus. My husband and I are also approved to adopt so that's a focus too. Lol yep it figures...years of fertility issues and we go through all the adoption hoops and now....
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