Late Term and Child Loss

PgAL check in 10/2

Hi ladies.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I am posting this check in a little early, because I know many of us do not check the boards over the weekend.  I am also looking for someone to take over the check in.  We are having numerous pregnancy complications at this point, and because of that I would like to take a TB break. I will be checking in every once in awhile, but not as often as I should be. I hope you can all understand.  I will run the check in this week with the hopes that someone will volunteer to take over.  If you would like to, you can post with your response or PM me. Thank you girls.  
How far along are you?

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?

Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?

QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy?

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?

Re: PgAL check in 10/2

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    @ikrystal Big hugs to you. You and your baby are in my thoughts and prayers. Take as long of a break as you need and know that we are here for you when and if you are ready to come back.
     
     
    How far along are you?   34 weeks and 5 days

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?  I have my strep test at 36 weeks along with a growth ultrasound at which point my appointments turn over to weekly. Looking forward to seeing him again.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?  So tired all the time and without caffeine I really have to rely on sleep to get me through the day. They say that you are supposed to feel stuffed easily this late in pregnancy but that has not happened. I can eat all the time... seriously.

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy?  I am of course most looking forward to hopefully holding my sweet boy in my arms soon. Just thinking of that moment makes me tear up. My mom suggested that I write my son a letter before he is born which I think is a wonderful idea. I just don't think I can put into words how much he is loved already and how much he has been prayed for. I do plan on writing it and maybe including it in his baby book.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  Can't believe we are getting so close to our due date. It's crazy to think that I have been pregnant since February and that it is already October. It's been slow at times but fast too. We have the nursery pretty much all done. I still don't think I have been able to grasp the concept that maybe we will have a baby in that room soon.

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  • With everything going on yesterday, I forgot to answer these questions myself!

    How far along are you? 18 weeks, 1 day

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? OB again on Thursday and possible MFM appointment next week as well.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I'm eating everything in sight!

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? Viability.  Actually, more like the 28 week mark where babies have a better chance of survival and are more likely to thrive. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Bad appointment yesterday.  Ultrasound found that I lost 6mm in my cervical length, something that never happened with the twins.  They also found "sludge" - basically, debris in my uterus.  I'm being treated with antibiotics.  Depending on what happens at my next ultrasound, I will go in to see my mfm for an emergency cerclage (very risky at this point in the pregnancy).  The debris, or sludge, can cause complications all on its own - it is linked to preterm labor and Chorio (which is how I lost my twins).  My brain has shut off after this news - I cant think of anything besides this baby. Not only that, but we haven't told anyone we were pregnant yet so I'm not sure what to say to people - if we lose this baby, will I really not tell our family and friends that this baby existed?
  • jess123456 Thank you for your support.  I think that is a great idea to write a letter - I can imagine your little one cherishing that letter especially once he is older and has babies of his own.  You are in the home stretch and I wish nothing but the best for you in the rest of your pregnancy!
  • @ikrystal I am so sorry and send you tons of hugs. I also hope you get answers soon and I am staying hopeful for you that everything will be ok. 

    @aragosta 37 weeks is so soon even though I know that it probably feels far away.

    I think putting the doppler away is a great idea and something I should probably do myself. Praying for you!

  • ikrystal

    Big bear ((hugs)) to you. Keeping you, Dh and Baby in Prayers. You all will overcome! Please pop in and keep us updated, Pm me anytime if you want.

    @aragosta and @jess123456 t&p's for you both in upcoming weeks!

  • @ikrystal  totally understand. Take all the time you need!

    How far along are you? 11w3d

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? next OB apt. Oct 23rd

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions?  Still gagging a lot, sensitive to smells, and very tired. Cravings...still like OJ, milk and sour things (currently sweetarts yum)

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? Aside from meeting our rainbow, finding out if it's a boy or girl. We're both hoping a boy, as we think that would be easier emotionally for us to separate this baby from Ana

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  Ready to be in 2nd tri!! 

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    @ikrystal‌ - ((hugs)) big ((hugs)). Praying that things calm down and everyone stays healthy!

    @aragosta‌ @jess123456‌ - you are getting so close! Just keep breathing, just keep going, day at a time!

    @shandorfml2‌ - so close to second tri! ((Hugs))
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  • @ikrystal‌- big big hugs to you. I'll be thinking about you.

    @chickinNH‌- I completely understand your hesitation about telling work. I'm struggling with that too. I actually had to tell my boss (who is new so didn't know about Wesley) last week because I have to take medical leave. She was so excited for me "first pregnancy" so I told her all about Wesley and cried. Ugh. It was awkward but she needed to know that this is not my first pregnancy or my first baby. Sending you good thoughts for when you have to share- I hope it goes okay for you.
  • How far along are you? 12 weeks today

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?
    Nope. Next official appointment is at the end of the month but I'll be back in the hospital for fluids a few times a week until then.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Still battling HG so aversions to everything. I'm down 25 pounds so we made the official decision to take medical leave for the next two weeks and get outpatient treatment for fluids. I feel confident with the decision.

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? I love this question! I'm trying to be positive and appreciate the exciting and unique things about this pregnancy but it's so hard. I'll be honest, the first thing that came to mind is that I'm looking forward to not throwing up anymore. But I'm also looking forward to feeling this baby move and (hopefully) holding this one in my arms in April.

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? We ordered Wesley's headstone a few months ago but there is a delay on the production and now it might not be ready before the first frost. I really wanted his headstone done by his birthday (Christmas) and now I have to prepare myself that it might not be done. I feel like it's irrational but I feel like I let him down by waiting so long to get it done. I'm just sad about it but I know that I have to accept it.
  • @Bgirma Please don't feel bad about not ordering the headstone sooner! It's permanent, so not something you want to take lightly or do before you're ready. You did the best you could!
  • How far along are you? 14 weeks, 1 day

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? OB next week just to check in and confirm the plan for AS and follow up scan timing. Lincoln's kidney blockage was discovered at a later ultrasound around 30 weeks so we're going to make sure to have an extra scan planned. The blockage he had is actually quite common and wouldn't necessarily mean anything specific, but the doctors are planning to be on high alert.

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? Starting to have fewer aversions, which has been great! I actually WANTED food on Saturday. It was bacon and I ate half a pound on a BLT...but I'm focusing on the positive :)

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? Holding this baby boy and kissing his little face. That's all I can focus on. 

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I've been feeling a bit like a burden these past few weeks. I feel I'm asking for more support than I'm giving, both in "in person" life and on these boards. I just have to keep working to come out of my fog.
  • First of all, thank you all so much for your support.  I have a home health care nurse coming Wednesday and she will check on the baby, and another ultrasound on Thursday.  I hope we have better news then.  

    aragosta I'm so glad you checked in.  I've been thinking about you.  Lots of prayers to you and your family as you near the c section date.  It sounds like they are taking great care of you and your baby, and I hope that delivery goes well. 

    shandorfml2 I understand wanting a different gender.  I think many people feel the same way about their rainbows.  Yay for nearing the second trimester!

    chickinNH Hugs and love as you get ready to tell your boss you are pregnant.  I understand the anxiety about announcing it and being wary of the reactions.  It is a big reason why I haven't said a word about mine yet.  Youre a strong mama, Chickin.  I know you will handle this will grace. Good luck at your appointment tomorrow. 

    Bgirma I think you made the right decision.  It sounds like it is  best for you and your baby.  I really hope you start to feel better soon!  And you are nearing the point where you can feel the baby move, which is so great! Hugs and love to you about Wesley's headstone.  I know that must be so difficult.  FX that it is done for Christmas.  If it isn't, know that it is out of your hands. He knows your love either way.
  • How far along are you? 18w5d

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? I have my A/S and 20 week appointment on Friday. 

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I am eating like a teenage boy these days.  I'm afraid of how much I have gained since my last appointment :/
    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? I actually love being pregnant, and am very fortunate that I have it pretty easy symptoms-wise, so I love all of it.  I've been feeling baby girl a lot more consistently the past week or so, and DH and I can even sometimes feel her from the outside!
    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? I can't believe that I'm basically half done.  I had our son at 35.5 weeks, and we expect this one to come a little early (although I'm praying for at least 37 weeks), so we are pretty much half way there.  That is exciting and terrifying at the same time.

    Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38

    Married 5/2010

    January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks

    February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus

    February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks

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  • ikrystal : I am so sorry for all of the stress!  I'll be praying for you and your precious baby!

    Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38

    Married 5/2010

    January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks

    February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus

    February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks

    My chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/42fd32 

     


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    @ikrystal - keeping you, your little one and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
    @aragosta - praying for you and your little one - I can only imagine how this time must be. Praying for a safe delivery.
    @shandorfml2 - yay second trimester! :)
  • How far along are you? 5 weeks 

    Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? My first appointment with my midwife is scheduled for Nov. 6th. I'm not sure how I'll be able to wait until then! 

    Any pregnancy symptoms or pregnancy cravings or aversions? I've had less nausea and other symptoms the last few days which has made me a little nervous. Although with my son I didn't have as much nausea as I was having for about the last two weeks. So maybe it was just stronger at the beginning for some reason. 

    QOTW: What are you most looking forward to in this pregnancy? I'm not sure this is really what the question is asking... But I am definitely looking forward to NOT being super pregnant when it is 100 degrees outside!

    Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? My brother's baby boy (adopted) was born today. They were only selected by the birth mother and told us a week ago. So, the first baby in my family for 23 years is now my brother's and not ours. Our son was the first. My husband and I had so many dreams of how my family was going to coo over him and want to hold him, etc. We imagined what Christmas would be like with all of my relatives passing him around etc. Only my parents and one cousin met and held Zedekiah before he passed away. And now my brother's son will be almost exactly the same age (one year later) at every family gathering. And instead of my family mourning with us as we get ready to "celebrate" Zedekiah's birthday, everyone is so excited about the new baby. I know I'll love him. I know I'm happy for them (somewhere inside..). But right now it just seems so unfair. It couldn't have been September or November?! It couldn't have been a girl?! And I know that my family won't understand if we can't deal with Christmas because well, I'm pregnant again, so why should I be sad? (Sorry this is so long! It has been a rough day!)
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  • @Gymspaz26 I'm sorry you feel your family is celebrating the new baby instead of Zedekiah. They haven't forgotten your son, he'll always be the first baby boy. 
    I'm concerned about Christmas, too. I feel sometimes that people expect me to somehow be ok because I'm pregnant again. They don't understand this baby doesn't fix things. We want the joy of another baby, but that joy won't erase the loss of our son. They're two separate events and don't cancel each other out.

    @ikrystal I hope everything goes well over the next few months, I'll be sending prayers your way!
  • erinel so glad to hear that everything is going well.  So exciting that you can feel her moving on the outside now. Good luck with your appointment on Friday!

    chickinNH "past the danger zone" - it must be nice for other people to be that optimistic, huh?  **hugs** to you

    GymSpaz26 I went through spurts when I didn't have any pregnancy symptoms as well.  They came and went.  I'm sure everything is fine. And I completely understand what you mean.  My SIL is expecting this month and while we love and support her, it is hard - she got pregnant right after we lost the boys and her baby's first Christmas will be our twin's first as well, only they won't be here.  It's a hard situation.  Love and hugs to you. 


  • chickinNH : I'm glad you got to tell your boss.  People can be so dense, can't they?

    GymSpaz26 : I'm not looking forward to Christmas, either.  We made all of these plans last Christmas about how it would be our last Christmas without kids, and all the things we would do with our son this year.  It is definitely a tough holiday.

    Me 32 (Stage IV Endometriosis, short luteal phase) DH 38

    Married 5/2010

    January 2014- DS born healthy at 35.4 weeks

    February 2014- DS passed away due to complications from adenovirus

    February 2015- Rainbow baby DD born at 36.3 weeks

    My chart: http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/42fd32 

     


  • Thanks everybody. I'm feeling a lot more "icky" again today, after several days of feeling perfectly fine. I'm taking that as a good thing. ;)
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  • @GymSpaz26, just want to offer big ((hugs))  that's hard.

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  • (popping in from lurking this thread, we aren't PG or even TTCAL yet)

    @ikrystal -  Big Hugs to you, and letting you know that since I saw your post about the debris/sludge you have been on my mind many times a day (the debris/sludge was one of the first things picked up on our scans too).  Praying that things hold on long enough and settle down enough to give you some peace of mind for at least another couple of months.     Best wishes, I will be looking for updates and thinking of you often.
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  • Manada Thank you so much. Your support means a lot to me.  I hope you are doing well.  I think about you often too - I know all too well how losing two babies feels, even as time passes.  Hugs to you. 
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