And how are you dealing with it? I have been crying all day and am reying to figure out if I have serious problems or am just hormonal. It has been a rough week or so, so that's definitely not helping.
My History: Lots of BFN's & failed IUI's w/clomid and/or femara Finally BFP with femara & t.i.- son born 6/17/2010 Started TTC again around when DS was 3ish Lots of BFN's with femara & t.i & ovidrel Tubes clear, S.A came back low motility but high count About to switch to injectables w/femara, did one last cycle with just femara & an IUI with ovidrel- stupid motility was fantastic in the sample, but count was 700,000 AFTER wash! Had to sign a paper to even still do IUI- BFFP (big fat freaking positive) Go figure! 1st Beta 13dpiui 54, 2nd beta 48 hours later 115, 3rd beta 48 hours later 310, 4th beta 72 hours later 1748.
You are not alone. There was a whole thread here the other day of people listing things they cried over.
@gsancho - I cry over Napoleon Dynamite, but only because great works of art often get me teary eyed. Also, I feel sad that the time machine doesn't work for Uncle Rico.
I am not particularly emotional but I can't concentrate on much other than what we may or may not see on our first ultrasound next week. I would call it obsessed. PAIF/PAL brain truly sucks. I am sorry you are feeling emotional:(
I don't have any suggestions on how to stop feeling that way but I am fairly certain you are not alone.
@IFinTN - I feel you We have our first U/S on Monday and I'll be 6w2d at that time. I think this wait is worse than finding out if you are pregnant or not. Also, I saw that you are at CCRM, me too! Are you in the CCRM FB group?
And to OP...I started crying yesterday because of no reason BUT I'm emotional anyways. Definitely know that you are not alone!
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TTC since Nov 2010 | Me: 29, DH: 31 DX - Severe DOR, Stage II Endo 6 rounds medicated TI, 3 failed IUIs, 2 failed IVFs After nearly 4 years of trying, our 1st BFP on IVF #3 (5R, 3M, 3F, 3 day 5 blasts frozen) FET - Beta #1 - 116, Beta #2 - 266!! 1st U/S on 10/6 - HB 121 and measuring perfectly! EDD 5/30/15
@IFinTN - I just sent you a message with the link for the FB group if you want to join. I also wish we could get daily betas. I only had 2 but wish I would have requested more. I've been having issues with my progesterone. It's been around 14.5 with every other day PIO injections, then every day injections, and now I've been on injections 2x a day...along with endometrian. I go back in tomorrow, so hopefully it's higher! What day is your first US?
**SIGGY WARNING**
TTC since Nov 2010 | Me: 29, DH: 31 DX - Severe DOR, Stage II Endo 6 rounds medicated TI, 3 failed IUIs, 2 failed IVFs After nearly 4 years of trying, our 1st BFP on IVF #3 (5R, 3M, 3F, 3 day 5 blasts frozen) FET - Beta #1 - 116, Beta #2 - 266!! 1st U/S on 10/6 - HB 121 and measuring perfectly! EDD 5/30/15
@mj14323 hello! I had no idea there was a ccrm FB group, lol. Good luck at your scan! My betas don't have me feeling very positive about my scan next week. I wish we could get daily betas:)
Please don't lose hope. Some people just have low beta numbers. I had an IUI on March 22. 1st Beta on 4/4/14 - 45.1 (13 dpIUI) 2nd Beta on 4/7/14 - 163 (16 dpIUI) 3rd Beta on 4/9/14 - 309 (18 dpIUI) 4th Beta on 4/11/14 - 659 (20dpIUI)
My first ultrasound at 6 weeks showed a gestational sac. My second ultrasound at 8 weeks showed a healthy heartbeat. I'm now 29w4d pregnant.
Keep the faith momma!
Married on October 20, 2012. Began trying in January 2013. RE appointment & testing December 2013 - February 2014= Unexplained IF, possible endometriosis IUI#1- March 22 (100mg clomid, 75 mg of Bravelle, Ovidrel trigger) = BFP!!!
Thanks, ladies, for assuring me that this is normal. I sure hope it gets better. I can hardly stand myself at times.
@IFinTN, keeping everything crossed you.
I am def more emotional! I keep worrying irrationally and having repeat nightmares about DH leaving me.
We are super duper happy and loving and stable, but for whatever reason, my subconscious has become borderline obsessed with the fear of DH suddenly deciding he's no longer interested in staying with me, and having to face the realities of being a single parent, job hunting (as I am a SAHW right now), dating, moving, etc.
We were watching old episodes of Psych on Netflix, and the character of Lassiter signed divorce papers, and I started crying and pleading with DH to tell me he'll never leave me (cuz that sure makes any sane person super excited about staying with me).
He pulled a move from "Knocked Up" to make me laugh - he held me by the shoulders and shouted, "I hate you, hormones! Stop making my confident wife who I love so much paranoid that I would ever leave her!" :-)
I've been emotional ALL day. I'm 5 weeks and 1 day with first ultrasound on Tuesday. I'm freaking myself out about everything that could go wrong instead of focusing on the fact that I'm FINALLY pregnant! Keep your chin up and (this is easier said than done) keep thinking about the wonderful joy inside you!
Re: Is anyone else an emotional wreck?
Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545 -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!
Me 33, DH 37 -- TTC since Jan'12 -- Low AMH (0.78) & endo, SA w/ low motility
IUI's 1-3 = BFN, IVF converted to IUI 4/13 = BFN
IVF 1.2: 8R 6M 4F -- 2 blastocysts frozen, FET 8/15 = BFP!!
Beta #s = 445;1,098; 9,545 -- EDD 5/2 -- Team Pink!
Lots of BFN's & failed IUI's w/clomid and/or femara
Finally BFP with femara & t.i.- son born 6/17/2010
Started TTC again around when DS was 3ish
Lots of BFN's with femara & t.i & ovidrel
Tubes clear, S.A came back low motility but high count
About to switch to injectables w/femara, did one last cycle with just femara & an IUI with ovidrel- stupid motility was fantastic in the sample, but count was 700,000 AFTER wash! Had to sign a paper to even still do IUI- BFFP (big fat freaking positive) Go figure!
1st Beta 13dpiui 54, 2nd beta 48 hours later 115, 3rd beta 48 hours later 310, 4th beta 72 hours later 1748.
2013 summary: Diagnosed with Hypothyroid; Cervical polyp removed (benign);
2 rounds ovidrel with timed intercourse (no result): 3 rounds IUI with clomid + ovidrel (no result)
2014 summary (to date):
IVF cycle 1 - ER: 4/17 (28 follicles, 3 fertilized, 2 survived to day 3);
ET: 4/20 (3rd day, 2 embryos - 1 @ 6 cells & 1 @ 4 cells); Beta 5/1 - BFP!;
1st scan 5/13 - development behind, no heartbeat detected; D&C 6/2; WTF 6/13
IVF cycle 2 - BCP begun 7/12; stims w/ HGH begun 7/26;
ER: 8/6, 12 follicles, 7 fertilized w/ ICSI; ET: 8/11, 3 blastocysts left, 2 transferred, 3rd arrested 8/12 - none to freeze
1st beta 8/19 - BFP! 294; 2nd beta 8/26 - 4976; 1st u/s 9/2; 2nd u/s 9/9 - two little heartbeats at 140 each!!!
EDD: 29-April-2015
Other Meds: Synthroid 100 mcg/daily
**SIGGY WARNING**
TTC since Nov 2010 | Me: 29, DH: 31
DX - Severe DOR, Stage II Endo
6 rounds medicated TI, 3 failed IUIs, 2 failed IVFs
After nearly 4 years of trying, our 1st BFP on IVF #3 (5R, 3M, 3F, 3 day 5 blasts frozen)
FET - Beta #1 - 116, Beta #2 - 266!! 1st U/S on 10/6 - HB 121 and measuring perfectly! EDD 5/30/15
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**SIGGY WARNING**
TTC since Nov 2010 | Me: 29, DH: 31
DX - Severe DOR, Stage II Endo
6 rounds medicated TI, 3 failed IUIs, 2 failed IVFs
After nearly 4 years of trying, our 1st BFP on IVF #3 (5R, 3M, 3F, 3 day 5 blasts frozen)
FET - Beta #1 - 116, Beta #2 - 266!! 1st U/S on 10/6 - HB 121 and measuring perfectly! EDD 5/30/15
Everyone Welcome
Baseball, Beagles, Beer and Babies Blog
1st Beta on 4/4/14 - 45.1 (13 dpIUI)
2nd Beta on 4/7/14 - 163 (16 dpIUI)
3rd Beta on 4/9/14 - 309 (18 dpIUI)
4th Beta on 4/11/14 - 659 (20dpIUI)
My first ultrasound at 6 weeks showed a gestational sac.
My second ultrasound at 8 weeks showed a healthy heartbeat.
I'm now 29w4d pregnant.
Keep the faith momma!
RE appointment & testing December 2013 - February 2014= Unexplained IF, possible endometriosis
IUI#1- March 22 (100mg clomid, 75 mg of Bravelle, Ovidrel trigger) = BFP!!!
We are super duper happy and loving and stable, but for whatever reason, my subconscious has become borderline obsessed with the fear of DH suddenly deciding he's no longer interested in staying with me, and having to face the realities of being a single parent, job hunting (as I am a SAHW right now), dating, moving, etc.
We were watching old episodes of Psych on Netflix, and the character of Lassiter signed divorce papers, and I started crying and pleading with DH to tell me he'll never leave me (cuz that sure makes any sane person super excited about staying with me).
He pulled a move from "Knocked Up" to make me laugh - he held me by the shoulders and shouted, "I hate you, hormones! Stop making my confident wife who I love so much paranoid that I would ever leave her!" :-)
Off birth control March 2012 - Actively trying Sept 2012-April 2014
BFP on May 5th after Follistim & IUI #3