One year ago tonight a freak accident occurred and I fell. Right around now actually I was staring at the fluid running out of me. It was just like it was Tommy's hopes and dreams spilling on to the ER floor. His heart was beating but his lungs at 19 weeks just couldn't keep it going. I was induced and the next day Tommy was born.
So much has happened since then. Tears of grief. Tears of hope. Now tears of joy. Growing there right now are two little brothers. It seems incredible that they have almost the same due day. Each appointment is a bittersweet echo of a year before.
Tonight thoughts go back to a year ago. Reliving everything, remembering everything. Tommy will never be forgotten. But today there is also hope and anticipation for the days to come. I know Tommy is watching over them and us.
And I pray he watches over each of you too.
IVF#1 - BFP 6/18/13 - Tommy born sleeping 10/1/13
IVF#2 - BFN
IVF#3 - BFP 6/5/14 EDD 2/14/15 TWIN BOYS - MATTHEW AND TIMOTHY ARRIVE 12/2/14

Re: Long night of the soul (Siggy warning)
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Tommy. My rainbow pregnancy also was really close to the due date if my angel, so it was like reliving the year all over in a lot of ways. Sending you lots if (((hugs))) for strength and T&P.