The suspense is killing me

cmcookaln · September 2014

I have some OCD tendencies. I like things to be planned and organized. I need to have a schedule for everything and like to know exactly what is going on at all times. The fact that I have no control over when this baby is coming is driving me insane. I have been sleeping fine up until last night, and I think it's because it finally hit me that I could have this baby at any time. I think t's also bothering me because my due date fits perfectly with my maternity leave. If the baby comes too early, I will have to return to work before the end of the semester. I would prefer to take the rest of the semester off and start back in January. I really just want to get as close to the week of my due date as possible so that I know I can at least have a long leave. Sometimes I get so mad at myself for my OCD personality.

persephonerose · September 2014

I was this way with my first. I will say I am glad it is one of the things that changed a little bit once I had my son. I learned to relax control a bit (not a lot!) but I certainly notice I am not so ridged about some things.