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thinking I may be one and done

RedBird11RedBird11 member
in April 2014 Moms
And it makes me really sad. I always wanted two kids because I loved having a sibling and I think a family of 4 is a great size. I loved being pregnant and really want to do it again.

However, I have atypical Meniere's disease and I have felt absolutely terrible since my son was born. The hormones are giving me an awful time. I can't imagine going through this again. I start to think "its not fair. why do I have to have this problem? Why me?" And then I realize that I am incredibly blessed to have a beautiful, healthy baby boy and realize that's enough. I am lucky that I have a son and got to experience a pregnancy when there are people out there who can't.

I really hope that I start feeling better soon, hopefully after I wean LO. But I am afraid that after I start feeling better though that I will forget how miserable I was and go for it again.

I am sorry for such a deep post so early in the morning. I just needed to get that out. Feeling pretty bad this morning.


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BFP 8/9/2013
EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

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Re: thinking I may be one and done

  • MamaFantasticMamaFantastic member
    I'm really sorry. That sounds like such a hard position to be in, and such a hard decision to contemplate.
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  • ksulliksulli member
    I'm sorry. It's hard to mourn the family you always imagined having, even if you think it's the right thing to do. I'm sorry you're facing that.

    You don't have to decide right now. And if you want to make sure you remember what this is like when you are deciding, try to keep a journal. It could be just a sentence a day of how you felt. Then when you're ready pull it out and remember how long symptoms lasted and how severe they were, compared against how badly you may or may not want that next child, how you may or may not be able to manage the symptoms with the current demands of your life, etc.

    Also, there is no reason not to wean for your sanity. That's a lot to go through. But I understand that you need to be at peace with the choice on that one.
    *Married 10.10.08*
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    TTC #1 9.09 - BFP#1:2.18.10= missed m/c, D&C 4.16
    BFP#2:10.22.10=Avelin born 7.2.11
    TTC#2: 2.13 - BFP#3: 7.25.13=Kelsey born 3.31.14
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  • RedBird11RedBird11 member
    Thank you. I definitely will consider adoption if I start feeling better. I just need to wrap my mind around not going through another pregnancy.


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    EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
    Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

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  • RedBird11RedBird11 member
    @ksulli yeah I have told myself multiple times that I am going to stop breastfeeding. I have stopped pumping and introduced formula two months ago... but I can't seem to stop breastfeeding completely. I keep holding on. I have been nursing about 3 times a day still.


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    BFP 8/9/2013
    EDD for our baby boy 4/14/2014
    Eli Thomas born 4/22/2014

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  • ksulliksulli member
    ^^ I get that. Especially if you think one is it for you, stopping is one more 'milestone'. But they'll keep growing either way, it's such a mental block.
    *Married 10.10.08*
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    TTC #1 9.09 - BFP#1:2.18.10= missed m/c, D&C 4.16
    BFP#2:10.22.10=Avelin born 7.2.11
    TTC#2: 2.13 - BFP#3: 7.25.13=Kelsey born 3.31.14
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  • livin541livin541 member
    I am so sorry you have had to go through this! If weaning him will make you feel better, I think that might be a good decision. I ended up loving nursing way more than I ever thought I would, but recently had to stop due to not being able to pump at work and my son having a sensitivity to something I was eating. Even though I knew I needed to be done, I felt like I was mourning the loss of that nursing relationship! It's definitely hard, but I can tell he feels better on formula so I know it was the right decision for us.

    I wish you the best and hope you start feeling better soon!
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  • allyandmike24allyandmike24 member
    Ahh I'm so sorry. I'm the other side of the coin, I had an absolutely horrendous pregnancy- severe hyperemesis gravidarum, multiple hospitalizations for fluids and am dealing with some ptsd issues from my LO's birth and subsequent hospitalization (she was almost 6 weeks early and had lots of breathing difficulties, NICU for 3 weeks). I'm not sure I can go through another pregnancy, as much as the end result was so worth it. 
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  • CalinAZCalinAZ member
    So sorry you're going through this. Like everyone else has said, you don't have to make decisions now, and adoption could be an option to finish your family, but coming to terms with not going through pregnancy again would be so tough. I wish it was easier for you. 
    TTC #1 since August 2012 |  BFP August 17th, 2013  |    EDD April 25th, 2014
    Living with Vestibulodynia (Chronic pelvic pain)


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