Postpartum Depression
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i really need to share
KcMom886
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I started reading these posts and I just started crying because they all sound so familiar and I thought it was just me. I have felt like i'm losing my mind and it really just hit me that it may be PPD a couple of days ago. I love my baby so much and just looking at her brings so much joy to me, but i'm so overwhelmed. I have been having trouble dealing with everything, since my pregnancy i have had what has seemed to be so many stressful situations. After the baby was born i had two weeks of help with my husband being off a week and my parents coming another week, but then it has been mainly up to me. My daughter suffers from laryngomalacia and this led to reflux. She was up all night for days and days at a time and my husband works 12 hours almost everyday plus weekends and travel. I feel so lonely i don't know what to do with myself and i feel so overwhelmed on a daily basis. To make matters worse, we have had talk after talk about him being around more and he doesn't do anything about it. Now his parents are staying with us from India for 3 months and he is working just as much. I feel even more overwhelmed with having them here, caring for a baby, and feeling like i need to entertain inlaws i'm meeting face to face for the first time. My husband and i fight constantly, i cry all the time, and feel so alone. I don't feel like myself at all and I hate it. I worry about my baby all the time, working on making sure she is gaining weight, and scared we will have to schedule a surgery if i can't keep her gaining. I don't know if this is normal worries and i have reasonable amounts of sadness, fear, depression, and anger, but this doesn't feel like me. I am going to the doctor on wednesday, but i hate to admit that something may be psychologically wrong with me. My family all lives 2 hours a way and i see them only on weekends or every other weekend. I found out i was pregnant right after we moved and i don't really have many friends here. I just feel very alone. I am just wondering if this sounds normal, or more severe than normal.
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Re: i really need to share
It is possible that it is PPD. Your feelings you mentioned are symptoms and I have had most of them. I was always saying that I just wasn't myself and I wanted to be "me" again.
Often times a health issue with your baby and not having a support system nearby are related to PPD.
Hang in there! It's not easy, but just know that it does get better. My LO is almost 4 mths and although today isn't a good day I am doing a lot better lately.
PPD is even more of a struggle when you are lacking support from your family especially your husband. Maybe if you can get him to go to the Dr with you the dr can make him see how serious this situation is.
Good luck and keep us posted!