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ohiodoxiemama08 · September 2014

So I am having a little bit of a rough week right now and I need to share.

First of all DD has been with my parents and my in-laws since Sunday because my sitter is on vacation and DH and I have crazy busy weeks this week. My ILs are bringing her back to me tonight but I am missing her something awful. Plus I have class tonight so I'll probably only see her for about 10 minutes before bedtime. I know I should be enjoying baby free time but she's all I think about! It's the longest we've ever been apart and I feel crazy lost.

Then, this morning I was supposed to be at my internship early to do testing for new students. My supervisor specifically e-mailed and asked me last night to come at 7:25. Well I hit traffic and made wrong turns, got stuck in a stupid long detour and didn't show up until 7:45. I felt like an epic failure

Then, my biggest bummer is that I'm fairly certain I'm getting AF any day now. I had been feeling super tired/slightly nauseous so I was cautiously hopeful that I may be KU. I tried to wait it out to test but got anxious last night. Two BFN on Wondfos. So of course I tried to stay positive and think maybe I tested too early. But I took another test this morning and still the same, plus light spotting. I know I should be patient and relax but it is so hard

I am so happy for all around that are newly pregnant but can't help being a little envious. We tried for 6 months the first time, then had a miscarriage, then tried 2 months before we finally had a viable pregnancy (DD). I was just hoping things would be a little easier this time. But I know two cycles is still super early and I need to stay positive. It just sucks

Overall, nothing is largely wrong in my life and I know I need to be grateful for all my blessings including DD and everything else, it's just been a kind of crummy couple days! Thanks for listening to me vent!

jobiann · September 2014

We all have our down days/week.

I had a little breakdown yesterday. So much to do between work, our volunteer commitments and just family life. Throw in large sums of money to spend (that doesn't come to us easily) on the house we purchased in April (water heater, furnace, electrical work), and I'm a little worried about DS's left eye issue (thinking he has a lazy eye but cannot get into the doctor until the end of October).

Sometimes it just seems like a lot. I try to focus on the good things and I find if I have a plan to get me through I feel better. So yesterday I made out a "To Do" list for the rest of this week to keep me focused on one thing at a time instead of the large picture. I feel much better. Except for the money issue...I'm still sad about that. If anyone knows how to grow a money tree...please share!! I did make out our budgets for the rest of this month and October.

(((hugs)))

ohiodoxiemama08 · September 2014

@jobiann thanks lady! Hugs to you too!

I feel you on the money issue too. Our property tax finally got re-assessed (we have a new build and it took them 2 years to figure the tax issue out) and now our escrow has a big shortage. So we either fork over a ton of money right now or our payment goes up a significant amount per month. We're still trying to work it all out.

I hope that you get your troubles straightened out. T&Ps to you. I'd like a money tree too! We do budgeting too, and I really need to get back on track with it. Here's hoping October is a better month!

jobiann · September 2014

ohiodoxiemama08 said:

@jobiann thanks lady! Hugs to you too!

I feel you on the money issue too. Our property tax finally got re-assessed (we have a new build and it took them 2 years to figure the tax issue out) and now our escrow has a big shortage. So we either fork over a ton of money right now or our payment goes up a significant amount per month. We're still trying to work it all out.

I hope that you get your troubles straightened out. T&Ps to you. I'd like a money tree too! We do budgeting too, and I really need to get back on track with it. Here's hoping October is a better month!

Oh yikes, I can't believe there was so many issues with your property tax. I work in our county assessor's office (we set the value of property) and I've never experienced an issue like that. I mean a small shortage maybe because they used the current levy rates to figure the future taxes and typically the rates change, usually up by the time taxes are due. But I've never heard of a substantial shortage. That sounds like someone really dropped the ball. I hope it all gets figured out for you...and doesn't cause you too much hardship.

martha919 · September 2014

Sorry you're having such a hard time. I know how it gets where it feels like "well, nothing truly terrible is happening, but I still feel shitty about XYZ". We're allowed our feelings, girl. :-)

ohiodoxiemama08 · September 2014

I like the way you think @kittynap

and don't worry I plan to!

court115 · September 2014

Hang in there! It'll get better. I'm 4 steps away from a mental breakdown too so I hear ya

I saw on IG that little momma is home now so that helps right?

ohiodoxiemama08 · September 2014

@chilibeansm0m @MichieU79 thank you ladies! That means a lot. I know that it takes time and my advice to mamas TTC is always to de-stress but sadly I am bad at taking my own advice!

@court115 thanks lady! And yes, having her back helps a lot. I saw that you were TTC as well. Hopefully we will both get our BFP next month

court115 · September 2014

@ohiodoxiemama08 - Thanks mama! Fingers crossed for both of us

URMySunshine77 · September 2014

I hope that things start to get better for you. And I can sympathize with your BFNs. I was *sure* we would be pregnant again by now. FX for both of us. XO

DCKate · September 2014

Keeping my fingers crossed for you to have a better week, mama! Enjoy your time with your DD and put your feet up with a beer:)

Sending positive test vibes your way!

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