My son was diagnosed with Autism and a severe speech impairment on April 1st (ya it HAD to be april fools day). We knew he was behind in speech that was clearly evident and the autism had been a suspicion for a few months prior, I was prepared for it, I'd already dealt with it in my own head and with DH. Since starting therapy he's progressed rapidly in most areas (speech still being a sore spot). I am amazed at the progress he's made in just a few months and were finally getting the hang of things. However, shortly after his diagnosis we found out we were pregnant again. My son was the first grandchild and my daughter will be the third. I'm feeling increasingly guilty everyday. My DD has gotten no attention ( yes I realize shes not here yet and that will most likely change). My son had everything he could possibly want or need before he was even born and this pregnancy is so drastically different I fear im not coping very well. NO ONE including my DH actually talks about the baby beyond what is necessary (i.e. make it to Dr., do you have a carseat? and that's about it) I had a very hard time bonding with my DS and was also battling severe PPD and I seem to be having the start of the same bonding issues now, but then my DS had so many people to care about and bond with and my DD is getting tossed on the back burner bc were dealing with therapy and paperwork and all the wonderful things that come with a diagnosis. DS gets disability allowing me to be a SAHM which is great but if I cant bond with DD who will? I guess im just having trouble dealing with the stress of trying to prioritize every little thing. And it doesn't help that my psychologist moved and I have to find a new one which means Ive been off my meds for a few months, but there is always so much to do for the kids I forget about myself a lot. I know ill figure it out, I always do, but that doesn't mean I don't wish it was a little easier.
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