Taking it on faith..

Re: Taking it on faith..

• CandaceC1020 member

  September 2014

  It's very difficult to not worry considering all that we've been through to get pregnant.  I know that it sounds impossible, but please try to be positive.  I honestly believe that there's a lot of power in positive thinking. 
  

  Married on October 20, 2012.  Began trying in January 2013.
  RE appointment & testing December 2013 - February 2014= Unexplained IF, possible endometriosis
  IUI#1- March 22 (100mg clomid, 75 mg of Bravelle, Ovidrel trigger) = BFP!!!
  

  
  
  

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• chickyclg member

  September 2014

  I bought a doppler and use it regularly, it has really kept the IF and the Loss brain away as much as possible. 

  
  

  ~~~~~~~~~Siggy Warning~~~~~~~~

  
  

  Me~28 DH~27 

  
  

   6-12-2010  Miscarriage. 

  3-16-2012 D&C/Miscarriage.
  

   Blocked Left Tube. 
  

  Diminished Ovarian Reserve   

  MFI - Sperm Morphology 2%.  

  MTHFR 
  

   Abnormal Antiphospholipid Antibodies

  April 2013 ~  1st IUI attempt - 100 mg Clomid- Canceled
  

  May 2013  ~ 2nd IUI attempt -100 mg Clomid- Canceled
  

  June 2013 ~ 3rd IUI attempt - 100 mg Clomid+ Trigger+ Progesterone~BFN
  

   IVF/ICSI #1 May 2014 ~ Freeze All ~ Due to OHSS

   5/1/2014 ~ 22 retrieved, 12 fertilized, 3 frozen

  5/28/2014 ~ FET#1 ~ Transferred 2 Hatching Blasts

    6/1/2014~ **BFP**

  6/9/2014 Beta #1 ~ 1022

  6/12/2014 Beta #2 ~ 3099

  6/16/2014 Beta #3 ~ >5000

  6/19/2014 First U/S ~ TWINS!!!  
  1/7/2015 Twins born @ 34 weeks
  
  

    
  
  

  
  

  
  

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• lincoln79 member

  September 2014

  It really is extremely hard. I think what you are going through is totally normal anxiety for ladies with our backgrounds. I did feel MUCH better after we had a great anatomy scan.

  
  

  I just kept telling myself, "For X weeks, our situation couldn't possibly be better. There is no other information that other pregnancies have."

  
  

  Hugs!

  TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own, autoimmune disease 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012) 

  IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d, 

  FET #1 December 2012, BFN

  FET #2 February 2013, no embies survived thaw

  IVF #2, BFP #2, Loss #2 March 2013, Scar tissue discovered, RPL testing,

  IVF #3, BFP #3, Loss #3 (twins) September 2013

  Hostile ute, moving onto Gestational Carrier!

  
  

  GC/FET #1 of 1 5AA blast and 1 compacted blast, February 2014, BFP #4 on 3/1/2014!

  6w u/s 1 bean with h/b of 145 bpm, 8w u/s 187 bpm

  EDD 11/7/14. Please, please, please stick little one!
  
  Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!

  
  

  
  

  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

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• hopeby2015 member

  September 2014

  The wait between the NT scan and the next doc appt was the worst for me! Somehow I managed to schedule it about 5 weeks away and I was going crazy!! I had a doppler but didn't have the patience to sit there and try to find the hb. And if I couldn't find it when I had the patience, it would make me more nervous. So, I totally feel your pain! What worked for me was setting mini milestones along the way. My week changed on Wednesdays and then I'd look forward to the weekend. Or if you work, just immerse yourself in your work and the days may begin to fly by!
  
  Good luck - I've found that stretch of time to be one of the hardest I've had to endure yet!

  
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• xc1148 member

  September 2014

  I don't know how long you tried, but you basically spent that whole time being brainwashed by your body into thinking you would never get to this state. It's almost impossible to get past. I'm 26 weeks and I still forget sometimes. A doppler may help, but honestly just keep focusing on the positive! My second trimester has flown by because I was in constant "I can't believe I'm past 12 weeks" disbelief.
  
  Good luck
  

  TTC since June 2011

  DH: perfect SA

  Me: 30, moderate endo, unexplained infertility

  IUI or IVF in December

  
  

  
  

  
  

  

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• AMShark member

  September 2014

  ((hugs))  I know the feeling.  I keep thinking that every milestone is the one that's going to let me finally relax.  From what I've seen on this forum, a lot of us feel the same way, and it seems to be at every stage of PG.  16w2d sounds fantastic to me, but ask me that again in 10 weeks, and I'll probably feel the same as you do.

  
  

  I like the suggestions that ppl have made about getting a doppler.  I hadn't heard of this before, but now that I've looked around a little, I think it could be a great way to get a little peace of mind.

  
  

  I'm also thinking a little mindfulness meditation could help.  Someone recently recommended the book "Wherever You Go, There You Are" to me, and I think now might be a great time to read it.  (Or get it from the library and listen to it on tape, because who am I kidding right now?)

  
  

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  Me: 37, DH: 39, TTC 5 yrs
  

  2013 summary: Diagnosed with Hypothyroid; Cervical polyp removed (benign); 
  2 rounds ovidrel with timed intercourse (no result): 3 rounds IUI with clomid + ovidrel (no result)
  2014 summary (to date):
  IVF cycle 1 - ER: 4/17 (28 follicles, 3 fertilized, 2 survived to day 3);
  ET: 4/20 (3rd day, 2 embryos - 1 @ 6 cells & 1 @ 4 cells); Beta 5/1 - BFP!; 
  1st scan 5/13 - development behind, no heartbeat detected; D&C 6/2; WTF 6/13
  IVF cycle 2 - BCP begun 7/12; stims w/ HGH begun 7/26; 
  ER: 8/6, 12 follicles, 7 fertilized w/ ICSI; ET: 8/11, 3 blastocysts left, 2 transferred, 3rd arrested 8/12 - none to freeze
  1st beta 8/19 - BFP! 294; 2nd beta 8/26 - 4976; 1st u/s 9/2; 2nd u/s 9/9 - two little heartbeats at 140 each!!! 
  EDD: 29-April-2015
  Other Meds: Synthroid 100 mcg/daily

    

  
  

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• laurot95 member

  September 2014

  Thank you all so much. It is so hard to stay positive at times... But I am so happy to be where I am... We tried for 12 years, with ultimate embryo adoption as our means for conception. I'm so grateful to you all!

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• rox825 member

  September 2014

  My dr let me come in for biweekly doppler appointments until my A/S, I think that I would've been a stressed out nervous wreck without those appointments!  They kept me sane.  It's tough, even now at 32 weeks I still think to myself, some complication is bound to arise, there's no way that pregnancy could possibly be this easy.  I think that going through IF you learn to assume the worst for self-protection, and it's hard to change that mentality!

  

  TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
  Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
  Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
  Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!

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• ksgsmu member

  September 2014

  It is hard... I have to stay off google and I pray a lot. 
  
  I get ultrasounds every 3 weeks with the twins now so it helps a ton, but my mind still worries... I just try to stay focused on the next milestone.
  
  As for the doppler I was advised against it but finding twins is tough and I know I would freak if I couldn't finid the heartbeats.  But if it makes you feel more at ease then go for it!  just don't go overboard!
  

  ***siggy/ticker warning***
  
  Me:36 DH:38 TTC#1 since 4/2012
  Me DX: Hashimotos,Hypothyroid, DOR, MTHFR,  DH: normal
  
   IUI #1-#4 BFNs and a few cancelled cycles in the mix.
  - poor responder
  ***Suprise BFP on 6/13/13. Natural MC @6wks 3days
  IVF#1 and 2- Cancelled due to no response on max stimms
  FET 5/20- BFP
  1st Beta- 641
  2nd beta- 2166
  Sono- TWINS!!!!
  Two Boys! Born January 2015 @36 weeks.  Healthy and no NICU!  So blessed!
  
  
  

  
   

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