Trouble TTC

Just a plain old, for no particular reason, bad day

You ever have one of those rough days when you're just feeling crappy for no specific reason (I mean, sure, surrounding the fact that we're having TTTC, but no new triggers).  Then, even though you're already feeling pretty down on yourself for some inexplicable reason you keep torturing yourself - looking at people's maternity/newborn pictures, seeing cute videos of little girls and their dads online, reading "10 things no one tell you about being a mom" articles - all the while feeling like that'll never be you?

Yup, that's me today.  Can't explain why.  I just keep reading/looking at things that I know will upset me then inevitably start fighting back the tears.  Who knows, maybe AF is finally on her way and this is my way of having a reason to be an emotional mess...here's hoping the negativity goes away so I can enjoy my weekend.

Sorry for the downer, AW post.

Me: 31 (PCOS) possible right tube issues DH: 36 (SA normal) 
Started dating in 2006, Married 2012 
TTC since November 2013 
First RE visit due to irregular periods: June 2014
Lap/Hysto to remove polyps, cyst and tube blockage 11/6
Cycle 1 (Dec. 2014) TI with Clomid, Trigger, & Progesterone CX due to no response
Impatiently Waiting CD1 to try again with Fermara Back on the bench due to giant cyst,
who know I'd ovulate on my own after a cancelled cycle and end up with a mega cyst :(
All Welcome
 
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Re: Just a plain old, for no particular reason, bad day

  • I'm sorry you're having a bad day.  I get those now and then too.  Treat yourself to a goody today (cupcake, perhaps?) and I really hope tomorrow is better.


    ((HUGS))

    Me: 28  MH:35

    Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013

    June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.

    July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+

    Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN

    Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN

    Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN

    WTF consult scheduled for 1/29

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  • Sorry you're having one of those days. I seem to be having a lot of them lately. I have to make a conscientious effort to not beat myself up, it's not easy. I tell myself that everything will be ok, and this shall pass. Feel better.


    TTC #1

    Me: AMA, DH: MFI

    Official DX - MFI due to Hemochromatosis

    IVF #1 Nov. 2014 - ER 11/10 (10R 6M 6F) - ET 11/13 

    3DT of 3 embies - no frosties - CP = BFFN!!!!

    ****All Welcome****

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  • I'm so sorry.  I have had more than a few of those days and know how bad they suck.  If wine ain't your thing Ben & Jerry's always makes me feel better.

    ((hugs))

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    Me: 31| DH: 36
    TTC #1 Since 07/2010
    DX: Unexplained Infertility
    TX: 
    IUI #1 on 7/3/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (44 million sperm, 1 dominant follie) = BFN
    IUI #2: on 7/28/14 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (23 million sperm, 2 dominant follies) = BFN

    IUI #3 on 8/22/2014 100 mg Clomid + Ovidrel + IUI (53 million sperm, 2 dominant follies)= BFP MMC @ 7weeks


  • Oh, I'm so sorry. Those things are so tempting, maybe because we are so ready to enjoy the fantasy of being a mom or mom-to-be? I hope you feel better soon. :(
    January 3T Siggy Challenge - New Year's Resolutions
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • I know exactly what you mean.  I have days where, for no reason at all, I feel so down on myself and allow myself to think of all the terrible things about tttc that make me cry.  I guess it just comes with the territory.  I know this isn't advice, but maybe you'll take comfort in knowing that you're not alone in feeling this way.  Hugs!!!
    Me: 25  DH: 24
    Me: 4th Grade ELAR Teacher  DH: Police Officer
    Married: May 28, 2011
    TTC 1st Child since January 2013
    1st RE Appt: 8/19/14
    Blood Work: 8/26/14
    HSG Test: 9/2/14
    RE Appt to discuss results and treatment: 9/8/14
    Shocking BFP: 9/27/14
    D&C: 10/17/14
    Benching myself until we fully heal
    Unexpected BFP: 1/23/15


  • Ugh I feel ya! It's been one of those weeks and to top it off we're driving 4 hours to spend the weekend with my in-laws. I believe it's time to break into our extensive wine collection :)
    Me: 26, PCOS, Clear HSG
    DH: 29, Perfectly Normal SA

    Married Since 10/6/2012
    TTC Since 6/2013

    2/2014: Visited OB-GYN, Low Progesterone
    3/2014: 50 mg Clomid, Ovulated, BFN
    4/2014: 50 mg Clomid, Ovulated, BFN
    5/2014: 50 mg Clomid, Ovulated, BFN
    6/2014: 50 mg Clomid, Ovulated, BFN

    7/2014: First RE visit, Diagnosed with PCOS, Started on 5 mg Femara + Ovidrel + TI, 1 22mm Follicle, BFN
    8/2014: 5 mg Femara + Ovidrel + TI, 2 Mature Follicles, BFN
    9/2014: 5 mg Femara + Ovidrel + IUI #1, 3 Mature Follicles, BFN
    10/2014: 5 mg Femara + Ovidrel + IUI #2, 1 Mature Follicle, BFN
    11/2014: 5 mg Femara + 75 mg Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI #3, 3 Mature Follicles, BFN
    12/2014: Starting IVF in January

    1/2015: IVF with ICSI, Currently Stimming

    *****Everyone is Welcome*****

  • Good job, Shaf's DH!! Excellent choice. :)
    January 3T Siggy Challenge - New Year's Resolutions
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    Me (29), DH (30) TTC actively 54 55+ cycles | All BFNs
    MFI (low everything) | Endo Stage 1 & Stenotic Cervix (treated) | PCO
    Married - July 2008 | Started TTC - Jan 2009RE Visit #1 - Mar 2014 
    IUI #1 ICI #1 - June | IUI #1.1 Laparoscopy - Aug
    IUIs #1.2, 2, 3 - Sept, Oct, Nov (Letrozole) - BFNs 
    IUI #4 - Dec (Bravelle) | IUI #5 - Dec/Jan (Bravelle) - 5 follies + TI - BFNs
    IUI #5.1 - Jan (Bravelle) Cancelled 
    Planning to start IVF in March!
    ***All Welcome***
  • Hi I'm new to the boards, but I am totally having one of those days that hasn't stopped for the past 6 months it seems. I mean I have some good days but its so hard. I'm a maternity RN and also all of my friends and my sister are pregnant right now so I am very depressed. I'm trying to be positive. I'll be doing my 2nd IUI next wk. 
  • @wakeohsleeper i'm sorry to hear of your depression.  Have you done an intro on this board?  If not, I highly recommend it was a way to introduce yourself to everyone.  You will find abundance support and humor from these women.  I can't imagine how difficult it must be to go through IF while  being a maternity nurse.

    Best of luck with your IUI next week!
    Me: 31 (PCOS) possible right tube issues DH: 36 (SA normal) 
    Started dating in 2006, Married 2012 
    TTC since November 2013 
    First RE visit due to irregular periods: June 2014
    Lap/Hysto to remove polyps, cyst and tube blockage 11/6
    Cycle 1 (Dec. 2014) TI with Clomid, Trigger, & Progesterone CX due to no response
    Impatiently Waiting CD1 to try again with Fermara Back on the bench due to giant cyst,
    who know I'd ovulate on my own after a cancelled cycle and end up with a mega cyst :(
    All Welcome
     
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