My family and I are reeling today after the loss of my 1-day-old cousin. He was born in a hospital on September 2nd, and died September 3rd due to unknown causes, at which point his body was sent off for autopsy. Results are in, and it turns out he was perfectly healthy with no problems except that he had an extremely high amount of morphine in his body at the time of his death.
Since the autopsy, we've found out that the mother was given morphine during labor on top of her epidural, and she and the baby had a reaction to it. She was rushed for an emergency C-section, and afterward the baby was given no anti-opiate medication to counteract the effects of the morphine. He was also not sent to the NICU. He died later that night, still in the hospital, in his basinet while his mother slept.
I'm 20 weeks pregnant, planning a home birth with a midwife. I've often heard stories about negligence and unnecessary interventions/whatnot in hospitals, but this is one of those things you think will never happen to you or yours until it does. As I sit here, knowing that the baby's body is currently being sent off to a lab in Atlanta for criminal investigation, I can't help being overwhelmed with paralyzing fear. Fear of being transferred, fear of my baby dying, and as I think these selfish thoughts, I have an overwhelming sense of guilt. How can I think of my own baby at a time like this!?
I can't help but wonder how I could protect my own baby in the event that I have to transfer. It seems strange that I've developed such a phobia of going to the hospital to give birth, when most women have the opposite fear and wonder how on earth any sane person could give birth at home. I have no idea how to react, or what to say, and now I have to decide if I can put on my black dress and go up there to this funeral and see that dead baby, and carry that image to my own birth. But how can I not? No one would ever understand, and it wouldn't be right not to go.
Sorry this was so lengthy, and I did also post this on the Natural Birth board under the same name (so you don't see it twice).
Re: The Death of a Baby
I'm sorry
Did the mother know she was allergic to morphine?
It would probably really upset a women who just lost a one-day-old, to see a pregnant women. Very hard situation. Because, I agree that you shouldn't pass up going.
I am disgusted that you are choosing this tragic family event to get up on your soap box about any hospital birth. There could be any freak thing happen at home too.
All birth is risky. Home birth or hospital birth. Odds are the mom or the doctors didn't know about the allergy. It may have been a freak thing. Either way it's inappropriate to take this tragedy & turn it into some hand-wringing post about you, your fears & biases against hospital births.
I've done med-free birth & medicated birth. Each has their risks. Was the hospital at fault? I am not sure but it's gross to try to take this incident & make it part of your agenda.
C'mon man!
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I can't express this enough: you are taking someone else's horrific event & turning into an all-about-you Fest. Look outside yourself. Geez.
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This is a hard one because as family I think it might be hurtful for you not to pay your respects but I also understand the perspective of the other ladies.
You are only 20w, I don't know if you are showing or not. Plus, the mother may not be there the entire time during visitation depending on her state. Maybe consult your uncle.
It's not about OP. I heard no consideration for the mother that actually lost her child. Just "what if it happens to me? & I have to go to this funeral because me me me."
Seriously, if you think this is empathy you need your head examined.
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I'm not sure this is the post you want to white knight. :-??
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Im not trying to white knight anything. Im responding to some comments on here. It absolutely is empathy. OP specifically said "Fear of being transferred, fear of my baby dying, and as I think these selfish thoughts, I have an overwhelming sense of guilt. How can I think of my own baby at a time like this!?"
This is by definition white knighting...
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I think you are confused about what white knight means...
"In forum parlance, it means rushing to the aid of another poster for whatever reason. An accusation typically reserved for when a poster is being hammered by another poster(s) and the accused leaps in to defend them, usually without thinking things through as to why the person is being attacked."
Plenty of people disagree with me without defending someone using another's tragedy to AW.
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