2ww roller coaster

Doing the two week wait....and every month I think yes this is the one!
This morning DD (2) had taken off her dirty diaper while in bed and smeared poo everywhere! I started gaging and even the up.
This is a rare reaction for me...so all day I kept thinking...yes this has to be the one I have to be.
I feel like I am just setting myself up for disappointment. ...can't someone just wake me up in 2 weeks?!?!